Dylan, that last post was the most helpful post I have seen. Yeah, that makes sence to question the situation.. and why, instead of trying to imagine that it is not happening, or that things are better then they usually are. I suppose the opposite could affect others too, becoming too negative distorts your perspective on everything.

But yeah.. it bothers me that, i always had LDing, now i do not. And even though it was a form of escapism.. it worked, and I never was addicted to it.. but now i feel it would help me to have it back.

I guess you never really know how much you like something till you lose it.