I like reading all your posts. Very thought provoking.

Today was a very bad day at work for me, one of the worst. I totaly was out of my normal self. It was like i was in a type of nightmare. Got mad at my coworker and a customer. I was out of my usual self composure. When things got weird i did not even do any of my usual techniques to ground myself and check for lucid dreaming etc, i totally lost it. Am going over the day to see what triggered my unusual demeanor and do some healing work. I hope my boss does not find out. I question myself and what i really want from the job, from my life...do i want to get fired or quite? Am i looking for reasons to move on and start new chapter in my life? I do want changes and i want to be the one to make them consciously and willingly. Bad behavior is no excuss.