Originally Posted by Darkborne
2 months ago I had a dream of partial lucidity that simply... terrified me....In addition, I seem to have acquired an aversion to mirrors.
I've had some experiences with mirrors, but not enough to suppose that I understand anything that would be helpful. Brainstorming, here's a couple of ideas:
1. You saw something, such your own inevitable death, reflected in some kind of psychic mirror. It isn't actually dangerous, but it seems dangerous due to the wrongness of your perspective.
2. You experienced something that is actually dangerous, where a mirror is used to represent something that is not you as being part of yourself. Mistaking it as yourself, and treating it as such, it poisons and destroys you.
Maybe these two possibilities aren't entirely contradictory.
In another thread, 'dreamdimensions' suggested that when looking deeply into oneself, one must look with love, or else everything gets twisted around into something that's not helpful or informative at all. That seems right to me, and relevant here.
You might also consider being open to the possibility that whatever you're doing for the sake of lucid dreaming isn't actually good for you. I'm not saying that its not good for you, just that its worth being open to the possibility that its not. I don't think that spiritual growth is inherently productive of stress and ill psychological health. Depending on where you started from of course.
Here are three dreams I have had that have some relation to what you experienced:
1. I see falling mirrors, and I feel remorse. It feels like human sacrifice, and the mirrors are souls, or windows into another realm.
2. I am a demon. I use sound like a weapon, not so much to do harm, but to protect myself, the way a cat hisses when it feels threatened. This sound would likely be experienced as a psychic attack by someone dreaming. Using it I can cause some physical effects, such as burning out an electrical component in a computer, or even killing someone who is already in a weakened state due to disease or prolonged drug use. When I see myself it a mirror, I have a human appearance, but am distorted, sideways and thin.
3. I am in a western city that appears to represent L.A., and am afraid to go to the place in my mind where I usually go to 'bathe'. This dream was the night before the second lethal train wreck in the San Fernando valley, in 2008. The train wreck nearby in 2005 was one of my first dream premonitions. This 'water' that go to in my mind, and feel that I need, seems to be a sort of collective psychic atmosphere which seems to be polluted somehow. Understanding this and how to deal with this has been a recurring theme since then.
I hope that helps. Thanks to 'dreamdimensions' for the other point I mentioned, if you
are reading this - that's possibly the most personally useful point I've read on this site. Its not within my nature to fill my mind with benevolence before thinking about something - I proceed from whatever springs from my heart, rather than covering it up with something else. But of course I've got some latitude to change the song of my heart, and to the extent that I don't, at least being more aware of its nature and effects is helpful.
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