What does it means?

[La_qK]

Some years ago i started having some real problems with sleep, I could not fall sleep for more than 2 months. From 12pm to 5am I was just rolling on my bed without a single moment of sleep. The hours were passing by really quick but i was sure i could not sleep at all. One day... being very fustrated because of this problem I just snaped, started crying and hitting the wall next to me with my fist... then i tried to "DISCONNECT" my body making an effort to stop everything I could, my heart, my mind... EVERYTHING!!!... in that moment... around 3am, inmediately I made the effort to disconnect myself I felt like something grabbing "my soul" from my chest and pulling it to "the ground", it lasted a sec and in that sec I thought... "damn, what have i done!". Right after that i remember "dreaming" that i was im my bed and there was someone else looking at me with no facial expession, that person was ME!... then I (the one on the bed) started to get closer to the I (standing looking at me), when we merged I felt a HUGE PEACE on my mind... and finally... started sleeping. Since that moment I never had any other problem with sleeping. I know it wasnt just a dream because dreams that you remember usually happens when your about to wake up. This "dream" I had happend just after I got my "soul" grabbed and pulled. WHAT HAPPEND TO ME?????????????????????? Just for the record, when I was 12 year and less I used to "walk while sleeping", Im from costa rica so I dont know how you call this. I used to cry a lot while "walking while sleeping" and then in the morning I could not remember anything at all but just the feeling of been like that sometime in the night. Sometime I could remember little pieces of those episodes but every time was like seeing myself from a 3rd person view. Everything stopped when I passed the 12 years. Now im a person who "controls" dreams in a regular basis... I control 8 of 10 dreams but still with some limitations created by myself. The problem is that now I started to have some problems because some dreams tent to get so real and detailed that I cant awake without making a huge effort which leaves me very tired.

[Howie]

HI La_qK!!! Welcome La_qK, That is some pretty intense stuff. I can't honestly say what is the actual prognosis is. A couple of things tha have come to mind. With the amount of sleep deprivation that you had been going through you may have had HH. Hynagogic halluciantions. You were most likely conscious at some level. But it seems that you were fighting yourself and once the ego was confronted it then sovled your sleep issue. But that does not mean there may have been or still is a deeper lieing issue hidden under all this. Wit hthe sleep walking and crying. Something was seemingly bothering you. So sleep apnea, a sleeping disorder, does not seem likely since it had went away when you made a conscious effort to extract yourself from your body. The latter problem. I can somewhat relate. My lucid dreams have become almost inseperable from that of waking life. Very Detailed and vivid. But this seems to be another case of you fighting yourself. When I quite trying to fight myself and let go, it seemed to have freed my inabilty to awake. Hope this is of somehelp.

[jill1978]

I had the same problem as a child. I would freak my parents out! I've heard it is night terrors related to an imature mind and sleep patters.

[La_qK]

In my case it seems to be the strange sleep paterns. I remember that I would start crying out loud whenever I felt like having a full card set (12345-JQKA etc etc)all organized and suddenly someone squezzed the set making all the cards fly around missing the order., or I remember feeling like I was walking through a semi flat surface and suddenly all this surface would start to get disturbed more and more with each second that passed. So I felt like missing control of things, like not being able to control what was I feeling in that moment or something like that. I remember too that my mother could only calm me with a soft and nice smell, a cream or something robbed on my back. I could say that I have always had some kind of control over my dreams, or a more powerful concious than subconcious. Then all my worries from the concious would be assimilated by my subconcious and then... amplified by the creativity of the subconcious into a more feeling like thing

[jill1978]

It's interesting how the emotion was irrational for the event getting the cards in line. My night terrors were attached to nothingness of something strange like knitting a rug. I guess knitting to some is terrorfing, but it made little sense. I guess it shows you how senseless emotions can be.