One of my first memories is a dream I had when I was two or three...I dreamt that I woke up in bed with my mother who was sleeping peacefully next to me, and I heard laughing coming from the corner of the room...from that corner came what I called at the time, "the bad daddy", of the "red daddy"...it was a demonic representation of my father, and it tried to strangle me...when I woke up I could still feel its fingers around my throat as if they had actually been there; I often feel things I have experienced in dreams in the waking world when I first wake up...this is how I've spent my dreaming life...when I had nightmares constantly in my childhood my father tried to teach me to become aware of the fact that I was dreaming, and to call his name for help...the last time I really had an uncontrollable nightmare was in a dream where worms were crawling around in my mouth...I called my fathers name and he came, and told me to pull the worms out of my mouth and burn them, so I did.
More dreams that I've had...
I once dreamt that I was watching myself play a card game with my aunt, but I was younger, like fourteen, and I watched myself get up from the card game, sit on the floor and rest my chin on my hand, and then the fourteen year old me I was watching looked at the me that was watching as my actual age, and the two me's were looking at eachother, wondering what the other one was thinking...meanwhile another "I" knew what both "me's" were thinking...the younger me wondered why I looked so sad, and the older me wondered if the younger me liked who I had become...
Now, last nights dream:
I was at a carnival with my parents who were together(and are divorced now) and my entire family and I was standing in a crowd when my cousin told me that I was dreaming and said, "look, you can watch yourself," and suddenly I was looking at myself from another point in the crowd, standing with my mom and brothers, and the me I was looking at smiled at me, and was wearing the exact close that I actually fell asleep in...then I was near a little river or canal on the carnival grounds and my father came up to me and leaned over my shoulder...I told him that I had been working with the water element a lot lately, and started to control the steam coming of the water from dusk so that it would turn into little tornados and swirl in huge circles...then my mother, cousin and I all got on this ride that swung us in huge upside down circles and the dream ended with me enjoying the sensation of free falling...
there are many many more dreams along these lines...and I am astounded and searching for people who experience the dream world similar to how I do...
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