scumpy's journey to lucidity...

20 Aug

Recall was good last night, 4 or 5 ? dreams fairly good length and vivid

1)I was playing inside centre for the springboks, I was really amped and planned to really hurt the other team. I wasn't scared at all which is weird since they would all easily crush me. One of the players from NZ got up and gave a message before the game, I think I did too...

2)I stooped outside M's house and talked with hid brother T, He asked me if the bug zapper belonged to me (it was quite emotional - M is a friend of mine that died 2 months ago). C and my self were on the way home but we were walking and we were indoors, in a school or hospital with lots of corridors. I kept on turning on lights as we walked (they took time to switch on but I thought it was because they were old) We arrived at our place which was a room in a corridor, just before it was a kitchen area with plastic cups from C's holiday club and hundreds of empty green T-bags, C said it was from her doing fear factor with the kids???

3)We had another son L's age but I had memory of having neglected him because he was funny looking (he really was) He had orange hair and a really funny chin. I felt bad and was trying to make him feel loved and accepted by giving him lots of attention. He was complaining about having a sore bum and was wearing diapers???? I got some bum cream from C's bag and took him to a bathroom in a kitchen and put the bum cream on his bum (this is only funny if you're not a parent) It didn't seem to be the right stuff but he said he felt better. Then we travelled to my childhood home in Kimberley. C had forgot the house keys in the office but when we got there the lock had been forced by a wrong key that was stuck in the lock. We say that someone else's stuff was in the house like ornaments and stuff and found like a drunk homeless lady in W old room. I got the rage thing again and then we found the daughter and her boy friend in A's old room. In the dining room there were like 20 of them, I was so angry and threaten to hurt them and told them to go, I threatened to have E beat them up and he came out of the lounge to back me up....

4)I was lying on a sleeper couch watching cricket on tv, suddenly I'm in the game and I'm playing for South Africa. At some point I'm on the couch again and my game has been ruined by my parents messing with the channels

5)On top of signal hill in Bloemfontein riding a bike, following a really hot lady in a silver sports car, we're together. I get stopped by guards outside the observatory. One take my license and won't give it back as a joke, I get irritated and explain to the other guard that I need to go meet this lady. He gets the license back for me. I drive around Bloem looking for this lady. At some point I drive past a apartment block with people naked and possibly having sex on some of the balconies. I seriously consider going back to go watch them but decide against it. I pop some wheelies to show off and kind of fall. I stop on the curb and CA and her mom come out of their house and so good bye to guests, CH comes up to me and asks if she can ask me a question she asks a really important question but I can't remember the answer...

These dreams happened over 4 sleep cycles but it's difficult to separate when they happened

Flying back and forth for a job interview, staying in a hotel. S,R,L and W are there, something about a TV.

Get the new job arguing with my dad about God and miracles. Find out about troubled person Q. Have a new beach house on a golf estate - WOHOO!! Quad bikes riding around, house was Q's.

i'm engaged in some sordid online chat thing C and R are also on but they don;t know that I am. SV is complaining about cleaning the FS team office carpet. More sordid chat.

M and me were in an accident, he is in hospital in critical condition. Bubba is a DR - lol and looks at x-rays and gives his opinion, M's body is there and B cuts his hospital gown made of lycra with a scalpel to look underneath at his stomach. I explain our injuries. Later I'm comforting M's mom and the operation begins while we sit a a board room table.

I'm at dad's business in kimberley upstairs, there is a n axel for my mom's car, I am extremely tired form M's ordeal (he died). and grab an energy sachet from a bag that belongs to my dad, it feels like I'm stealing it. We go down a car ramp and then C is gonna pull me somewhere on like a rickshaw thing but she can't. We have a discussion with a street kid...

I'm on the back of a pickup, dad is driving. He greats an old friend and then a dog chases us. We go into a bike store, I look at MX pants and then tires and then boots, all the boots are sucky...

12/08

Something about the fundraisers I'm organizing for a trip some young people are going on. Phone call with pastor from Bikers Church about details of fundraiser.

Something about a guy coming for biltong

Dads birthday. Beer and biltong ( google it ) Grandpa - cricket. Sharks are playing rugby against Griquas. Jean Deysel and Juan Smith and Kabamba Floors are in the house. I try to speak to Jean but can't speak (something to do with breathing). Meagan is in the dream.

13/08

I'm travelling of the Kimberley yacht club road with Janet. She is having financial problems and is basically asking me for money. I tell her I can't help her. I'm showering next to the road (in a shower that just happens to be there). P and a lady are walking on the other side. I get out the shower and I'm suddenly looking for a place to get dressed, I go in a cave and suddenly it turns into a warehouse - there are lots of teenagers there we're planning on camping there. There is a trampoline and tents. Piet is in a small office working on a PC. Their are broken forklifts in the warehouse and some working ones. A giant crane/machine comes to life and at first is just randomly dangerous but then it tries to kill us by spinning stuff that we have to jump over and dodge. It turns in to a person and I try to explain that we have permission to be here.

14/08

Walking over a bridge at night
Golf balls in the mud

15/08

Running an event. B and co involved. Event involves dancing and music. B and co supposed to be helping. D is also involved and organises some expensive socks to give away - I get a pink pair . i go to P in an old bathroom attached to a theatre like room. B and co are there I call them down to talk to them and try to finnish p'ing before they get there (I didn't wet the bed which is always a good thing). I eventually get to talk to them and some lady who has higher authority than me is backing me up.

Recalled 2 dreams from last night I'm sick and medication so I'm pretty happy with this.

1) I download something ilegal from the interent possible from mega upload and go to the park near my house (trim park) to sell it. We want to trap the buyers and plan to circle around in the car after we make the drop.
At some point my parents get killed by a water monster/person.

2) I'm in Brazil to visit the family we stayed with. C is with me and she is driving. She can't park next to their house so I take over, I drive around the block and also have trouble but manage to park. We were driving a pickup (blue I think). WE go inside and the mom and dad are naked, I see the most of the mother but the father is in bed covered in a sheet, they don't seem to mind. The dad gets up and wants to talk to me he asks me to make him a sandwich with butter on, I find some buttered rolls for him. We sit and he begins to tell me some of the problems they've experienced since we were there and also some of the good stuff that has happened.

We leave there because we need to get to Port Allegre to get visas to attend an event that is in Brazil but has something to do with US politics. Something about us getting permission to be on the lawn. We catch a bus and get dropped off at a fuel station, there is a fuel shortage due to some crisis. I turn into K and K's dad is there carrying a heavy suitcase. I offer to carry it but he declines. We pass the lake we're supposed to on our right and then get to the bus stop. There is a sign board and I can read it - of course it changes but my mind changes it into an electronic sign board!! aargh

1) I remember playing on top of some roofs with my friends, I think we are kids. We have like a fort up there. At some stage I am on the ground and some other kids are on top of the roof where our fort is but I'm an adult now (this could have been later).

2)Running somewhere with someone who I know is a genius, we're running through peoples gardens to get to our destination, I trust him because he's a genius. we run into a garden and I see a mother and a daughter that I know doing zoomba in their living room we sneak into their house to try sneak out the back and continue on our journey but they see us. They turn into a different mother and daughter (G and H).

At some point I have a big scab diagonally down my face because I ran into something. I pull the scab off trying not to anyone see but G sees and whispers judgmentally to someone else what I am doing.

We're travelling in D's car and we have to avoid ostriches in the road. We turn left towards mountains (V's farm). I think the vehicle changes my dad and my uncle are there on the left there is a huge platform built onto the side of a mountain, it is Bafana Bafana's south africa soccer team) world cup training camp. It's like a HUGE highway on ramp ending in a dead end. My dad and uncle? discuss how this facility can now be used to bring in money and offset it's huge cost.

I'm in a house still have the wound on my face, I'm really upset about having been forced to do something against my will by my family.

Only remembered 1 dream last night

I'm setting up for some kind of event there is some kind of curtain/banner thing that needs to get washed no-one volunteers to wash it... Later I'm in my childhood home people are coming to stay my cousin S will have to sleep in my room. In my room I notice the curtain/banner thing my wife has been chopping green peppers, apparently because my son had holes in his school socks we are being punished by having to wash the banner and bring chopped green peppers to the school. I decide that this is ridiculous and am suddenly at the school fetching my son, I almost leave without talking to the teacher but decide against leaving. I have a word with her that this is ridiculous and that we won't be washing the banner or bringing the chopped peppers. WE walk toward another area in the school and cue up for something on the way I'm telling school kids to take off their school shoes to prove that lots of people have holes in there socks, I only find 1 with holes in. At this point I realize that I'm wearing a school uniform and start to complain that the other parents don't have to wear a uniform (I really should have become lucid here). We get to a place where we have to cue I'm talking to my wife about how the teacher will hate us forever but it isn't the teacher it's another teacher in the school who we know, I tell the principle about how ridiculous all this is. At some point I'm in the very back of the line and we're cueing for registration for a golf day. I'm at the very back with an unknown friend, I feel very intimidated and competitive. I'm showing my driver to my friend. I get to the front and I have been pre-registered and collect my stuff. I go through the stuff it includes pills and tags for your golf bad and other stuff, I organize it into my golf bag... I think I wake up at this point

My recall seems to be getting better, I've been remembering at least 3 dreams a night although they seem to flow into each other and I do have to wake up between them to remember
Here are the 3 I remember from last night - the last one has a cool ending

1) In the early part of this dream someone I know becomes the head of his family like a maphia family only not into crime and not dangerous, it's set in the city i live. I'm driving around in a jeep, when I spot 2 people I know and go 4x4ing towards them. I get out and have a chat with them showing them the difflock on my new jeep which i acquired in my dream but can't remember how. Later I'm at my grandfathers funeral and my aunt and cousins are talking about how difficult it was to grow up with him because he was a difficult man. The dream is now set in the town where I grew up (huge DS right there) I get in an argument with my mom about how she's just climbing on the bandwagon and judging my grandfather unfairly (this is the second time a male ancestor has come up in 2 nights). To make my point stronger I tell my mom how my relationship with my dad isn't great and I end up getting furious and shouting how he hasn't hugged me in 10 years . The dream fades or I wake up.

2) I've been doing some training with young people (which is my line of work) in another city. I encourage them to start small groups and pair them up to do that. I have an argument with 2 of my friends who are the leaders of the group about my teaching style they say it's to unprepared, I'm saying that it's far more effective than their styles. Later we're indoors and there is a hive of huge bees (some-one else was dreaming about bees). My daughter is there and I tell her to stay away from the bees (this is related to me helping move my dads beehive the day before in RL and then hearing his bees left the hive and were in the tree in his garden). Later I go to bed and there is some weird sexual stuff going on (really weird), it involves no sensation for me but the DC is enjoying it.

Snippet this is either from this dream or the next one : I get fired at work and my friend sets the work computers to download a massive porn database, which will fill their harddrives and use up all their bandwidth. Later I feel guilty and ashamed about it and almost get caught for doing it.

3) My friend is riding my bike with me on the back except it's not DS bike like I've got it's a super-bike. We're riding through a rough area of an unknown town. He's riding pretty good. There are security guards and criminals guarding the entrances to different streets. He turns and speeds through an enclosed arean between buildings. As we exit a gang tries to stop us, He swerves around them at speed and continues. They run to try and head us off at the next turn, I tell him to carry on they'll never catch us but he stops and does a half donut and heads back the way we came, I realize that this is a good idea because they've run off to try intercept us. As we pass the area where they were we head towards a raised highway. There is an old man where the gang was holding a stick with a broken bottle taped to the end, we swerve around him and my friend suddenly stops, partly to let me drive and partly to speak to the old man. He approaches the old man cautiously talks to him and then comes running and jumps on the back of the bike. I take off really quickly and we're riding up this highway onramp that winds as it climbs higher. I overcook the fist turn and bump the curb, we continue to accelerate out of control and hit the next curb square on causing us to ramp off the edge. We nearly make it to another portion of the road but we miss. I realize that we are falling to our death, it feals awesome. I wake up long before impact.

Dream signs atarting to emerge (comment on these is you want) The town where I grew up, My bike (or lack of my bike)
I still don't feel close to realizing I'm in a dream and my only LD was still that FA - help please!!!
I also have a serious problem with excitement ( I can't fall asleep even in the middle of the night )

ok this was my second night of journaling, I remembered way more... so much that I'll just give a brief overview. I'm not really sure which parts were part of the same dream cause I remember waking up a few times in between.

1) Remember smoking pot with a high school friend and then him taking me to a sports club in the town I grew up in. He has organized 2 sets of twins for us to have sex with and so we do but it's not an intense experience more like just a third person experience or something with no sensation. Later I remember us having had a meal and I had to do the dishes under an outside faucet. Then we leave and go to another part of town which is in another country - could have been India. Lots of kids crowd around us and an adult throws me in the back of the head with a rock, it doesn't hurt so I just let it pass. I walk down a corridor with two of my other school friends until we get to a certain point where the one leading tells the other friend that he can't come any further. I get the feeling we're going to a room where we can get crack. (all these friends are from my drug addicted teen years). I either wake up or can't remember anymore.

2) I travel from the same sports club with the 1st friend complaining how expensive that sports club is. My Father is there and this is the place (in my dream) where he hangs out so I feel like I'm dissing him and his friends.

3) I'm at my childhood home and lots of my extended family are there, at some point they are kicking a soccer ball around in the living room. I notice some other random kid form my high school years is also there. I notice that I am in my underwear so I grab a blanket and go to my parents room to sort out some clothing issues. My father is sleeping in his room and I try not to wake him. At some point I'm in the living room and I have an argument with my aunt about ADD. She says that rittalin is a good thing and I argue telling her that ADD kids are special and that they just can't fit in a classroom situation because they were never meant to, they were meant to be great explorers and hunters and fighter pilots (I really said that)

4) At some point I notice my brother in law has the same total 90 soccer boots as me and has a matching tracksuit