My Sleepy Mind 2010/2011

Original Date: 2/21/2010
Type: Anxiety - Non Lucid
Dream:
I'm on my lunch break, and I meet up with my boyfriend, but I don't have my car I somehow floated to meet him across town. I remember that my car is parked in some hotel parking lot that I rented a room at ages ago (I was there in another dream).

So I have him drive me there, but my car is not in the parking lot (then I remember that I have a rental at work and still need to take it back to the rental place so that they will give me my car back, like it was an exchange). Once at the hotel I freak because I realize I never checked out for my room! Holy shit I'm thinking, my bill is gonna be through the roof!

So we pull the car right up to this window and a little Asian lady says "what can I do for you?". I said to her "oh I need into my room", and she says "well then go in!". (her tone made me feel like an idiot for not just going in).

I proceed through the first door, and there is a cleaning lady behind it, I walk past her, and enter through the next door straight back (they are all dressed in maroon uniforms and the carpeting in there was maroon with a gold/yellow border). Behind that door was another woman with a cart trying to come through the same time as me, I say "excuse me" and squeeze past her. Still another door I pass through, with another cleaning lady, and I know that this is the hall my room was in.

As I approached my room there was another cleaning lady walking past, she asked something out loud, I thought to me, and I replied "she's back that way!" (almost yelling it, I think I was beginning to get frustrated at this point, but relieved I made it to the room)

The door to my room was a yellowish wood, different from dark wood off all the other rooms' doors. I went inside and found the room with all of my things in it, "thinking, holy shit, how am I going to pack up all of this and get it out of here and not be late back to work!?", I was starting to panic. So I focused on packing up clothes and stuffing them into these pretty decent sized bags, they had sunflowers on them. Then I'd look into another area of the room and see a vacuum cleaner that I obviously knew was mine and had no freakin clue how I'd be getting that out. (I kept thinking that I wanted to tell my boyfriend to come in and help me, but there was no way for me to communicate to him.) Then i went to the closet, and it was packed with more crap of mine, and there was another vacuum cleaner, brand new and I wasn't about to leave that there! But that's what I was starting to think, that I would have to leave some of my things behind once I "officially" checked out. The last thing I remember was looking elsewhere in the room and seeing 1 huge bag and little bit smaller box beside it overflowing with change (quarters, pennies, dimes) and this made my heart sink, because I knew I wasn't going to be able to life it

Objective Context:
My job makes me very anxious, and tomorrow is my first day back after 2 weeks of much needed leave. I always feel like I don't know what I am going to walk into or what to expect on a daily basis there and am always stressed (which I know is not healthy). Also, I think I feel as though there are things here at home that I still need to do to prepare for work tomorrow but I am procrastinating!

Original Date: 12/12/10
Type: Ordinary - Non Lucid
Dream:
I was at work in my office and I went to check the board (schedule). As I walked back into my office my supervisor called my name and I went to her, she asked why I was always leaving my office acting like I had nothing to do and I told her I went to look at the schedule because I was supposed to be on record reviews while someone else was teching for my provider. My other tech was in the room sitting in my super's chair and I said to her "so I'm teching by myself?". She nodded. (I remember making some mention about my foot being painful and someone just scoffed) - Then I was out in the front of the clinic where there was some meeting, and after it ended I made a joke about being in the back so I could cut out of the crowd easily. - Then my ex and I had an apartment on a second or third floor and nearby my car was parked in a lot with other cars. At nighttime I had gone down knowing I had parked beside his green honda accord, but when I got there my brand new car was gone! I was pissed and panicked, I came back to tell my ex. Later I went back down and it was there, and I saw a man with a cowboy hat and boots lighting his cigarette and I just felt like he had something to do with it, so I went to tell my ex. The last part of the dream, I left my work midday, and walked through a peaceful little city that could be similar to somewhere in Asia. Not quite sure where I ended up, but I was then trying to get back and realized I didn't have my uniform on, I must've left my clothes, so I started to panic and went to the apartment for anther uniform. (I was going everywhere on foot) It was daytime and now this was me and my current boyfriends apartment. (Same apartment, different person) There was a women outside that at first when I asked him, he said he didn't know her, but I later found out he lied and it was someone he rode with to work, was upset about that. I got home and all I had were a shirt and pants! No shoes, socks, so I had no choice but to run back to the place to retrieve the clothes I left there. I had a feeling of panic because I knew I was going to be late for work, it was far and this time going there felt even farther. I was running. I ran past school kids in uniforms eating there lunch under big shady trees, and they turned to look at me. I was running in ABU pants without socks and shoes (I thought about my foot, surprised it didn't hurt to run). I got to the place and walked passed what looked like a gym with people playing basketball. Into a back room I found my clothes bundled up and tossed behind something in a corner and everything was there, shoes, top....but no socks.

Objective Context:
Going back to work tomorrow, won't be teching, and the scheduler is on leave. Being frustrated yesterday for soon being out of a vitamin. Losing good amounts of weight on new diet, difficulty with urges to eat bad goodies.

Age of Dream Ego: 26

Feelings:
Anger, irritation, frustration, trapped, detest, unfair, disrespect, not being believed, panic, running out of time, betrayed, searching.