FourKicks

There is a knock at my back door. I'mall alone in the house and think I might be wearing just a robe. I'm cautious when I open the door and keep the glass part closed. This lady holds up like a mixer or a blender in a box and I can see she is selling it. For some reason I totally freak out and start yelling at her to leave. I put my fingers together like I'm holding a gun but she's just like..give me a break. Then she asks if I would buy cookies for her son's baseball team. I feel like an idiot now so I say yes and start overcompensating for being so dumb and weird before. I go get money in the family room, $8. I go outside and there is a lot of stuff set up... all kinds of cupcakes and cookies. All of the things I really want though are either empty or look like someone has been eating it. Like one piece of cake was just icing that was standing up, no cake inside. There was another person there too, I think an older lady.

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I'm in a big place that looks like a food court. I see GB over by a computer and sit next to him. He asks me if I know a guy named David somethingorother. I say no, and he seemed surprise. He says that is who were are going out with tonight, and I think we are going to a concert that's a bit of a drive away (I remember at some point saying I'd bring my GPS). I don't remember what happens next, but I end up driving on my street but taking a left out of my driveway. There's a lot of snow on the ground, like really bad. Somehow I'm able to drive over it. I know GB is waiting for me even though the conditions are bad.

I'm with M in a mom and pop type store... The store is closing down for good and there are a lot of people there. Its some kind of crafty place.. like knitting or something like that. The owner is an old lady who is sitting near where I am. When she sees a lot of people she says something about maybe not having to close after all. I see a sign that says "closing due to 10 years of loneliness" and I think its so sad so I tell M. I try to whisper something to the lady but she can't hear me. I try a bunch of times but she just can't hear what I'm saying. Then M and I leave and we have two cars...a smaller car and a Jeep wrangler. He gets in the smaller car and drives away and I am in the Jeep. I start to panic because I can't drive stick and I'm trying to call him to switch cars. We get to a stop light and he seems kind of annoyed, but I am able to brake (I wasn't in the front seat, I was in the back so I had to kinda dive forward). Then we are driving by this dirt trail that's blocked off to "Muslim Hikers" random. I feel kind of sad because its my birthday and no one remembered, not even my mom. Then I get a text from older brother J.

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I'm at my junior high school walking around by the street. I see DM again (weird! 2 nights in a row!). I want to see what he's doing so I kind of try to be near him without being too obvious. He's with some other guys and they invite me to go along with them. I say yes but for some reason was never able to leave.

I'm in a car sitting in the passenger's seat, and my mom is driving. Behind me, sis in law J, with brother J next to her, and M next to him, behind my mom. M is cursing at me and saying horrible things (reminiscent of the day of the rage), and he is getting physically abusive towards me. My mom and brother J don't have any reaction to this, but sis in law J is giving M the middle finger. I'm crying and begging him to stop but he won't. He throws something out the window but I'mnot sure what. We stop at 7-11 and I get out and go in a side door. I walk into a bathroom and I'm washing my hands, and I see two toilets on top of each other, but the one of top is smaller.

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I'm running through the woods on a dirt road and I see a path leading off the road and I turn down it and trip and fall.. There are Native Americans coming towards me, and I didn't want them to see me but I wanted to watch them.

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I see my car in the parking lot at work and I notice something under my windshield wiper, like a folded yellow piece of paper.

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(from 2 nights ago) I am in GB's room and see a big white envelope on his bed and I'm wondering what it is.

I see that I typed a text to someone on my phone that just said "dark tired and empty".

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I'm in a hotel room with M. We have separate beds, but mine is like half the size of his. He's trying to talk to me about our situation, but I don't want to.

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I'm in a car, maybe a taxi, and I'm with someone else. We are driving over a bridge and I see city lights. Someone jokes "There's New York City!".. even though we are clearly in another country.. somewhere in South America maybe?

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I'm at work with a kid, EK, and I'm holding her hand as we walk through the administrative hallway. I punch out, and then she punches out too, but there's some confusion about things that are coming up on the time clock screen... signing up for memberships and whatnot, and having to pay. People around me are getting frustrated because I'm taking too long.

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I'm in a parking lot and I'm sitting in the passenger seat of a car. I take my clothes off (???) and quickly sit in the next car over, to the right. I'm totally cool with my nakedness, like it was a necessary action for me to take. A couple of guys I went to high school with, can't remember who exactly, walk by and see me. Then I'm driving, and I know it's going to rain so I close the sun roof.. there are so many layers to closing it and I still feel air coming through.

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I'm in some hilly, green, and grassy area with GB. Seems like it's up in the mountains somewhere. This is where he lives? There are a lot of people around, and there is a really warm vibe. We say we have something to do (I don't remember what).

So I'm going to call the house I grew up in "I-17". It's just easier. I'm with my brother T and some other people.. family, and we are driving by I-17. We see the front door is open, so we stop the car. I hear a dog barking and I run up to the front of the house and close the door. There wasn't a doorknob, so I'm not sure if I did a good job closing it. I go back to the car and check the mailbox. There is a book that I wrote (??) in the mailbox, but the letters are all messed up and my name is spelled wrong. I see the receipt for it inside, and I paid $68 for it.

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I'm somewhere warm, I think I'm in FL. I am looking out on a beach and see mountains in the water. I see polar bears running down the mountains and then getting attacked and I watch them being eaten by black bears. Then there are no polar bears left, and I think it's a result of global warming. I wasn't scared, but sad feeling.

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At work, I am sitting on the ground and one of the kids, CH is hitting me. I feel him hit my face a few times. I look in the mirror and see I have bruises around my left eye, but thought it didn't hurt as much as it should have based on how bad the bruises are. Someone comes by and I tell them "It was like a dream because I felt like I couldn't move!" kind of ironic. Whoever I told agreed with me. I leave work early.

I'm in my kitchen with my brother J and uncle J.. My uncle is looking to go on a vacation to Jax Beach. J tells him that I know a lot about that area. Uncle J tells me he's staying on 2nd St, and I ask him "Beach side?" and he says yes and I get excited... I tell him the south end of 2nd St. is my favorite part.

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I'm in a grocery store with GB and we're looking for a mango. I see these two tiny little stuffed animals and I start cracking up. Then somehow we are at a house (actually in the living room of the house I grew up in) and there's a bunch of people there, even a couple developmentally disabled people (one older guy in particular). Later GB and I are in a car with my mom and she's driving. He says something about fixing his shirt and my mom stops the car in front of some storage place and he gets out and she drives away. He's back in the car again and we are driving down a hill, and he says that she can just drop us off, that we don't need to go with her.

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I'm walking in the lower level hallway at work. There's people behind me, but I have one of the kids, DC with me. We are walking to go to the bus ramp. DC starts to get agitated and then he yells in my face. I think I speak to him in a tone of voice that is completely out of character, like kind of aggressive. DC bites my hand and scratches me but I'm able to get both of his hands. We walk out to the bus. I'm standing on the bus and see my finger is bloody, DM says "Just because you love him doesn't mean when he hurts you that you don't have to clean it."

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I'm looking at a picture of JM (JB) and AC. They are laughing and I think, I should have been there too.

1st successful WILD: I'm laying in bed and I keep looking at my phone to see what time it is (I was doing this all night... couldn't stay asleep). Then I look and see the time keeps changing.. then my phone sticks to my hand like a magnet and ..LUCID! I'm spinning my phone around my hand. I want to sit up but I can't... I kind of feel like I'm falling off the bed. I see both my arms in front of me but not clearly... my arms were behind my head the whole time though.

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I'm in an attic with a kid from work, JRO, and he's kind of wrestling with me a little. He starts walking on a part of the floor where the wood isn't lined up right and I'm afraid he's going to fall through the slats. He leaves and I'm outside by a fence, same house. There's a bull in a pen and these two guys ask me to open a gate so they can let the bull out. I realize another kid from work SS is running around. I start to freak out because I don't want the bull to go after him. The bull charges out and I say "Can someone please help?!" then the bull starts coming after me. Someone tells me to get inside and the bull is right behind me... I get inside but just behind a screen door. Then I see the bull chasing SS.

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I'm in a house, and there are tons of people there. It's really clear that some people I see represent other people, but look nothing like them. It's 4am (when I contemplated getting up because I couldn't stay asleep) and everyone is sitting around a table eating breakfast. I see M there and don't understand why he didn't tell me about it. A couple people come in drunk, they've been out all night, but I think most people just woke up. At some point everyone goes outside and there's a house on fire. I look down the line of houses and see they're all catching on fire. The crack in the sidewalk has like.. a thread of fire running through it. I run down to the house I was in, even though I knew there was nothing I owned in the house and that everyone was already outside. I run up the stairs inside the house and I'm crying and out of breath.

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There is a hill I'm walking up in some woody place... A guy asks me if it's a good fishing spot to catch small fish, or if it's legal to catch small fish there.. something like that, and I tell him yes. I'm laying on a sort of cliff looking up at the sky. I sit up to take a sip of water from a glass and there's a spider on it.

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I'm sitting at a bar during the day talking to the bartender. I think he's kind of hitting on me. Somehow I end up in a bed and I realize I'm at his house and that I need to get the hell out.. I have my phone charger and it's all wrapped around some other wire.

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I walk into a room and see some guys I know, specifically RL and EL. They're looking at books on drawing and I want to see what it is. I sit down and one of them shows me the book, can't remember what it was they were learning to draw, but someone says "It takes like 10 seconds." Someone calls me from the door I came in and I have to leave. The guys are leaving too. EL hugs me as I leave.. random.

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I'm in my car driving and M is in the passenger seat and he's crying. Then he says "Do you hear that noise?" and I say, "It's a box in the back filled with papers. It's sliding back and forth."

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I'm on a rolly chair in my basement and I say "I'm going to go lucid". I don't. But I do crawl on the ground around this nonexistent part of the wall by the bathroom.

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Someone (definitely a woman) says she doesn't want to be married to me anymore. She says "You're too religious!" and I say "Wow that shows how much you know about me." She says "Well then that's another reason!" weeeirrd.

I'm alone in the house I grew up in, upstairs. It's dark and I can't turn the lights on, kind of like the power is out. For some reason I am sooo freaked out.. I'm crying and in total panic. I'm frantically flipping light switches. I think the house might be haunted. I run to go downstairs and I'm out of breath. I woke up all sweaty and crying.

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I'm sitting on a school bus and GB is in the seat across from me. There's a girl sitting next to him and she keeps touching him but he isn't paying attention to her. I say "fuck! nononono!!" and he looks over at me but I act like I didn't see him there. He sits with me and I think he wants to talk to me, but I can't look at him.

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I'm playing a game like a cross between Bananagrams and Pentago... There's two other people there, but I only saw one (a guy in his late thirties with a goatee and a hat on). I don't understand the rules or how to play but I have a lot of pieces in front of me, but I don't know how I got to this point.

I'm on a school bus heading to an airport, when I see a plane crashing down on to the highway. I say "Here comes another one..." and the plane busts up some cars as it rolls and crashes down. I see a flash of a news clip of all these people getting hurt and cars crashing into the divider in the road. I'm not taking this as seriously as I should. My mom wants me to sit with her on the bus, and I don't understand why we can't just sit across from each other. We move to the back of the bus and she sits in front of me and starts reciting the lines of "Strangers in the Night" (her and my dad's song). I find out that a plane has crashed every week from this certain airline that I'm taking.

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I'm in a room at some kind of dinner party. I"m helping out who ever is running it. There's little ornaments on a table, and I count by 2's to take 12 of them to bring out to the room where the party is. There's someone else doing the same thing. I put the ornaments on a table and there is one special ornament that looks and feels a little different than the others. It has two green squares on it and I say "That needs to be mine". I try to keep my cool so no one knows how bad I want it, so I pour some candy into a tray.. lifesavers and little colored round candy too. I keep looking over at the other table to make sure no one else has taken it. Someone asks me about the special ornament so I try to play it down like its not that great, so one one else wants it.

I am taking a trip to some tropical place, I think I'm by myself. I am on the way to the airport and I see a sign for the town I live in.. I was able to read it. For some reason I know that it is a movie I am going to be living out, and that is kind of in my mind the whole time. When I realize I never made it on the plane, I think, oh I guess the movie just jumps to this part here. I'm walking in a rain forest where lots of dinosaurs live. There's one of those hanging bridges I'm going over, and everyone is carrying a baby dinosaur. The baby dinosaurs are supposed to be our guides. Then mine, who is a girl (she had a flower on her head), stops to eat some berries on a tree, and the other baby dinosaurs do the same. Then I am in a hallway and I think that something really terrible is going to happen with a T-Rex because I remember from the movie preview. I start feeling really nervous and l think, wow this is going to be an interesting way to die!

side note: my 3 year old niece C had a dream there was a snowman vacuuming in her bedroom.

I am on a seesaw with one of the kids from work, LH, and she is laughing and wearing some of the clothes I've given her.

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On some different kind of shift, I am at work in the gym and all the kids are lined up on the floor with sleeping bags. One of the kids, CH is following me around and keeps touching me way too much. JK tells me to go take a break, and maybe he'll stop. So I'm driving along a road with my brother T and I think one other person. I don't have a lot of time, but we stop at a grocery store. Then I am in a mall food court waiting in line for some place that gives out prescription medication, and smoothies too. I ask for that sounds like "benzanoid" and the guy behind the counter asks if I need the diet version. A lady I work with, DM says I need the diet version because the other kind will hurt my stomach.

I'm in the lobby of some store, and I'm trying to unlock the door to get outside. A group of guys keeps running in front of the door and banging on it and yelling so I'm afraid to open it. I say "Heyyy come onnnn!!" A car of random girls drives by and I run out to them but they don't let me in, grr.. so I say "Ok, well, have a nice weekend!".

I was working at the toy store and there were a lot of new people there, mostly guys (my boss doesn't really like to hire guys). It's time to close the store and I start bringing things in from outside when I see the new employees outside smoking cigarettes. I go to tell them we are closing and I get the feeling I'm unwanted there so I walk away. Then a kid from my other job, PC, is running around outside and I can't catch him.

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I am standing in the middle of dirt road when I see an old pick up truck driving towards me. The guy driving looks like a freakin maniac, and "Back in Black" is blasting from his speakers. I don't step out of the way but I just watch his face instead.. he's got this crazed look on his face and showing all his teeth.

Missed 37

I was driving my car, with my husband M in the passenger seat. I was in the left lane of what I thought was a one way road when we came to a red light. That's when I realized it was a two way road, and I had traffic coming towards me. I acted like everything was cool. Another car came towards me, also a Mini Cooper, and I made eye contact with the driver.. I think it was a man, and he nodded.