FourKicks

Very disturbing dream. I am walking down a path and I come to a flooded area. I am really hesitant about being there but I don't remember why. I end up getting a pig. I turn back on the path and start heading in the direction I came from. Now I'm carrying this pig under my left arm and feeding it with stuff I'm holding in my right hand. I'm thinking of what I need to be feeding it and realize that I am feeding it right now... I see what I am feeding the pig is dead baby pigs. As the dream continues this starts to bother me more and more. I am so freaked out by the end that I can barely stand to hold it anymore but I never let go of it.

I am on a street corner in the city and it starts raining. I walk into a building and I end up by the bathrooms. I see lots of people from work there, specifically DM and MP. Everyone is waiting around the entrance to the bathroom, sitting everywhere and talking to each other. I'm talking to DM and she tells me to stay with them and we'll go around the city together.

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I'm in a canoe with a girl from high school CF (RANDOM.. never talked to the girl in my life). I notice she has about 2 inches of gray and white roots showing in her hair but she is still very pretty. I ask her if she has caught any fish and she says no. Then I hold up this huge fish and say "What about this?" and she says she forgot about it and to open it up, then I see she is joking because it's like a fake fish that's really a backpack or something. She does this call with the paddle, sounds like when you cup your hands together and blow. Then I see a bunch of guys' faces looking scared and they are each counting backwards from 10. It's like a movie. When they stop counting CF tells me we are about to get to a bad part in the river. I start paddling and going down the river almost like skiing motions. It's really steep and rocky but I don't think it's too bad. When we get to the bottom, CF says this area is "lined with skeletons of missing people". This freaks me out. She does the call again with the paddle. I say I'm getting back in the boat because I'm scared of alligators and dead bodies. She hands me a gift card and I'm trying to read what it says. It says "to Laure" and I assume she had a friend going with her who cancelled. Then I can see where she wrote my name. She tells me thank you.

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I'm in a church.

I'm in my house and there's a Chinese family outside. Most of the family is in a van but the father is walking around outside the house. Someone (M?) went to get them food from a Chinese place. The father keeps walking around and looking in the windows and I keep hiding behind the couch and ducking down really low.

I am on a bus with lots of familiar people..maybe people I went to school with. We are on a trip to the city. We get off the bus and I think I am with two girls. We decide we need to get a hotel room and we can all split the cost.

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I am in my old room on I17, the pink room. I go into the closest and see a terrarium. There's a dead snake inside. Its also filled with water. The water is all foggy and the snake is decomposing and it is absolutely disgusting. I move it out into the middle of the room and cover it up and hope someone will take care of it for me. Bleehh its still gross to think about!

I am in a bar waiting for someone and I have a beer in a pint glass. There is a tv with something science related on. I don't think the person I am waiting for is going to come, and I'm feeling kind of anxious so I leave. I am outside on a city street and I have a knife with me. I hear a siren go off, like the kind that you hear from fire houses. I start rushing back home and I realize I don't have my phone. As I walk in the door I see M ripped my old backpack in half. I look at my knife and see it kind of curves upward at the end of the blade, then I go over and stand in the hallway and lean against the wall and take the knife and start slashing at my wrists. I see cuts but the blood isn't dripping so I do it faster and in different directions. M says he can't help me.

Lots of little pieces, all the same dream...? Maybe not.

I'm in my town's library (even though it looks different) waiting to go into the bathroom. A pretty but seemingly snobby girl walks in to the bathroom first. As I wait, I see two women in their 50's or 60's standing up kind of annoyed because they were there first. The girl walks out and the two women start complaining because she ruined the bathroom somehow, so I walk away. I try to climb out the window but I'm having a hard time.

I am in a big bookstore or college or mall... I'm riding up an escalator and I see someone pass me, a guy, and he says hi to me. I see its GB and I am thrown off for a second. I think I say hi or smile but ultimately ignore him. Then I decide to follow him but lose him. Now I am in a mall. I stop in a store and I see a little teeny tiny floating clear fish. I duck every time it comes near me, but its really hard to see. Its like a little guppy, but clear. There is a girl who works at the store who is controlling the fish with a remote control. I decide to keep trying to find GB. I am fiddling with my rings. I think he is going to be in Macy's so I decide to go there. I realize I lost my peachy colored flower earrings.

I'm at a festival of some sort.. maybe in Brooklyn? Outside during the day. Somewhere I'm not familiar with though. I think I got there by train. I am talking to a couple at a table, I think they're working there. I tell them I work in a group home (I don't) and I try to explain a little better what I do (I don't remember what I said) and it seems to be a little more like reality. They give me tokens to get them hamburgers from the next table over and the lady and I decide she can have my hamburger since I won't eat it. I go to the next table and give the person my tokens, which are actually tiny plastic coke bottles.

Let's see if I can remember this...

A boy from when I did my student teaching who graduated, MR, was going to be staying in the library. I think he was normal, no problems. I was setting up a bed for him on the couch with blankets. At the same time, there is something going on at my house with GB. I kind of remember telling him M's family would be there too. There was also a point when I was getting juice out of a machine in some downstairs cafeteria. I was originally getting water but someone that works there said "Why don't you have this?" and pointed to the juice machine.
very incomplete!!

I'm in a sort of classroom and someone I can't stand, GW, is being mean to me. I kind of remember him calling me an idiot. So I punch him in the face, and I guess because dreams make you do everything slow, I did it 2 more times to make sure I got him. Then someone came in and took me away and everyone was mad at me. I was worried about losing my job I think.

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I am in the ocean with M and we are swimming underwater. I keep looking around for sharks but I don't see any. We are swimming really fast and easily. My mom asks something about after Memorial Day, when the next BBQ should be.

There is a knock at my back door. I'mall alone in the house and think I might be wearing just a robe. I'm cautious when I open the door and keep the glass part closed. This lady holds up like a mixer or a blender in a box and I can see she is selling it. For some reason I totally freak out and start yelling at her to leave. I put my fingers together like I'm holding a gun but she's just like..give me a break. Then she asks if I would buy cookies for her son's baseball team. I feel like an idiot now so I say yes and start overcompensating for being so dumb and weird before. I go get money in the family room, $8. I go outside and there is a lot of stuff set up... all kinds of cupcakes and cookies. All of the things I really want though are either empty or look like someone has been eating it. Like one piece of cake was just icing that was standing up, no cake inside. There was another person there too, I think an older lady.

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I'm in a big place that looks like a food court. I see GB over by a computer and sit next to him. He asks me if I know a guy named David somethingorother. I say no, and he seemed surprise. He says that is who were are going out with tonight, and I think we are going to a concert that's a bit of a drive away (I remember at some point saying I'd bring my GPS). I don't remember what happens next, but I end up driving on my street but taking a left out of my driveway. There's a lot of snow on the ground, like really bad. Somehow I'm able to drive over it. I know GB is waiting for me even though the conditions are bad.

I'm with M in a mom and pop type store... The store is closing down for good and there are a lot of people there. Its some kind of crafty place.. like knitting or something like that. The owner is an old lady who is sitting near where I am. When she sees a lot of people she says something about maybe not having to close after all. I see a sign that says "closing due to 10 years of loneliness" and I think its so sad so I tell M. I try to whisper something to the lady but she can't hear me. I try a bunch of times but she just can't hear what I'm saying. Then M and I leave and we have two cars...a smaller car and a Jeep wrangler. He gets in the smaller car and drives away and I am in the Jeep. I start to panic because I can't drive stick and I'm trying to call him to switch cars. We get to a stop light and he seems kind of annoyed, but I am able to brake (I wasn't in the front seat, I was in the back so I had to kinda dive forward). Then we are driving by this dirt trail that's blocked off to "Muslim Hikers" random. I feel kind of sad because its my birthday and no one remembered, not even my mom. Then I get a text from older brother J.

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I'm at my junior high school walking around by the street. I see DM again (weird! 2 nights in a row!). I want to see what he's doing so I kind of try to be near him without being too obvious. He's with some other guys and they invite me to go along with them. I say yes but for some reason was never able to leave.

I'm at work in the library on the resource room side by the computers. I'm with AS, and the kids we have with us are CH, MH, SS, and LH. Something happens between MH and CH and they start fighting. I'm trying to prevent it but all I can do is get the other kids out of the way.

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I'm at the SB school by the baseball field. I'm in one dugout and I look over to the other one. I see a guy I grew up with, DM. He's watching the game.

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I'm on a table with a couple other people and we are trying to sleep (?!).

My girl for morning care at work, KD, is laying in bed. I walk up to her on her right side (the way her bed is, I can only go to her on her left in real life). I say to her "Did you see Daddy this weekend?" and she says "Daddy is in heaven now". This is weird because she can only say about 5 words. I'm confused for a second, then I hear her father died. There's mixed stories on how he died... one person says cancer, another says he was at a stoplight and was hit by another car. Then I'm outside by a picnic table and there are a bunch of young guys around. I am expecting to see her older brother, who seems to be working where I do, but another shift (he doesn't work there). I hear that he isn't there because he is trying to get custody of K. I feel very sad during the whole dream, wondering how K will handle it. Someone says they heard her father was sick with cancer and that's why he died, then I say "No it was a car accident." Eerie.

I'm driving a Vespa down a dirt road. I think I'm somewhere warm.. kind of reminds me of the dirt road in Costa Rica on the way to see the crocs. There aren't any handles for me to hold on to, but a cardboard box in the front and its kind of small and low.. I don't feel very safe. I think there is someone riding on the back, maybe a child? But its someone I know, could be a student from school.

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I'm at work and one of the kids, LH is starting to come at me like she's going to grab me. I know at this point there is no calming her, so I yell "assistance!!" and I see there are a lot of staff around but no one comes. Finally, someone comes.. maybe DM? and we have her in a takedown. Suddenly, LH is EK.

I'm on some kind of vacation cruise.. there's some people from work there, specifically LO's class-- staff and students. One of the staff, M, is getting excited at the thought of going on another cruise trip and she's smiling. I think we are somewhere in the Caribbean. Then, I am in the ocean by myself and I'm swimming. I look under the water and see a bunch of sharks sleeping on the bottom. I get really scared and start back paddling to shore. When I feel sand and shells on my back and legs I know I'm safe.

Its night time at my old house I17 and I'm outside by the side door. There is another door I see farther down and I see a bear that was on a leash there is now loose and coming towards me. I get inside and I am trying to get my parents down into the basement. They aren't really cooperating and I think something is wrong with my dad. I am thinking the boiler room in the basement is the best spot but they aren't cooperating and I feel like we are running out of time. I'm scared and panicky