FourKicks

Lots of little pieces, all the same dream...? Maybe not.

I'm in my town's library (even though it looks different) waiting to go into the bathroom. A pretty but seemingly snobby girl walks in to the bathroom first. As I wait, I see two women in their 50's or 60's standing up kind of annoyed because they were there first. The girl walks out and the two women start complaining because she ruined the bathroom somehow, so I walk away. I try to climb out the window but I'm having a hard time.

I am in a big bookstore or college or mall... I'm riding up an escalator and I see someone pass me, a guy, and he says hi to me. I see its GB and I am thrown off for a second. I think I say hi or smile but ultimately ignore him. Then I decide to follow him but lose him. Now I am in a mall. I stop in a store and I see a little teeny tiny floating clear fish. I duck every time it comes near me, but its really hard to see. Its like a little guppy, but clear. There is a girl who works at the store who is controlling the fish with a remote control. I decide to keep trying to find GB. I am fiddling with my rings. I think he is going to be in Macy's so I decide to go there. I realize I lost my peachy colored flower earrings.

I'm at a festival of some sort.. maybe in Brooklyn? Outside during the day. Somewhere I'm not familiar with though. I think I got there by train. I am talking to a couple at a table, I think they're working there. I tell them I work in a group home (I don't) and I try to explain a little better what I do (I don't remember what I said) and it seems to be a little more like reality. They give me tokens to get them hamburgers from the next table over and the lady and I decide she can have my hamburger since I won't eat it. I go to the next table and give the person my tokens, which are actually tiny plastic coke bottles.

1st successful WILD: I'm laying in bed and I keep looking at my phone to see what time it is (I was doing this all night... couldn't stay asleep). Then I look and see the time keeps changing.. then my phone sticks to my hand like a magnet and ..LUCID! I'm spinning my phone around my hand. I want to sit up but I can't... I kind of feel like I'm falling off the bed. I see both my arms in front of me but not clearly... my arms were behind my head the whole time though.

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I'm in an attic with a kid from work, JRO, and he's kind of wrestling with me a little. He starts walking on a part of the floor where the wood isn't lined up right and I'm afraid he's going to fall through the slats. He leaves and I'm outside by a fence, same house. There's a bull in a pen and these two guys ask me to open a gate so they can let the bull out. I realize another kid from work SS is running around. I start to freak out because I don't want the bull to go after him. The bull charges out and I say "Can someone please help?!" then the bull starts coming after me. Someone tells me to get inside and the bull is right behind me... I get inside but just behind a screen door. Then I see the bull chasing SS.

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I'm in a house, and there are tons of people there. It's really clear that some people I see represent other people, but look nothing like them. It's 4am (when I contemplated getting up because I couldn't stay asleep) and everyone is sitting around a table eating breakfast. I see M there and don't understand why he didn't tell me about it. A couple people come in drunk, they've been out all night, but I think most people just woke up. At some point everyone goes outside and there's a house on fire. I look down the line of houses and see they're all catching on fire. The crack in the sidewalk has like.. a thread of fire running through it. I run down to the house I was in, even though I knew there was nothing I owned in the house and that everyone was already outside. I run up the stairs inside the house and I'm crying and out of breath.

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There is a hill I'm walking up in some woody place... A guy asks me if it's a good fishing spot to catch small fish, or if it's legal to catch small fish there.. something like that, and I tell him yes. I'm laying on a sort of cliff looking up at the sky. I sit up to take a sip of water from a glass and there's a spider on it.

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I'm sitting at a bar during the day talking to the bartender. I think he's kind of hitting on me. Somehow I end up in a bed and I realize I'm at his house and that I need to get the hell out.. I have my phone charger and it's all wrapped around some other wire.

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I walk into a room and see some guys I know, specifically RL and EL. They're looking at books on drawing and I want to see what it is. I sit down and one of them shows me the book, can't remember what it was they were learning to draw, but someone says "It takes like 10 seconds." Someone calls me from the door I came in and I have to leave. The guys are leaving too. EL hugs me as I leave.. random.

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I'm in my car driving and M is in the passenger seat and he's crying. Then he says "Do you hear that noise?" and I say, "It's a box in the back filled with papers. It's sliding back and forth."

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I'm on a rolly chair in my basement and I say "I'm going to go lucid". I don't. But I do crawl on the ground around this nonexistent part of the wall by the bathroom.

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Someone (definitely a woman) says she doesn't want to be married to me anymore. She says "You're too religious!" and I say "Wow that shows how much you know about me." She says "Well then that's another reason!" weeeirrd.

I'm walking through a town that has only 49 people in it, and there is a parade going on. Apparently the parade is supposed to bring in a big crowd, and by the looks of things, maybe just a hundred people. I'm thinking about how it would be cool to live in such a small town, and how everyone probably knows everyone else very well. People are sitting all along the sidewalks, and it seems like summertime. I see a bank and realize I need to transfer money. Walking in without sliding my card in the door or anything, I see a guy sitting at a desk who I assume works there. I start to make the transfer at an ATM and there's something ridiculous like 4 billion dollars in the one account, and nothing in the other. It suddenly doesn't feel right what I'm about to do, so I just cancel the whole thing.

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I am in a house, in a basement. I see a kid from school, SS, with some teachers and he's sitting at a school desk. I'm about to go upstairs and the teachers call me back down. SS recites the alphabet and I'm so proud of him, and we high five. I go upstairs and realize I can't get through the door, it's just this little opening. I think I might be able to squeeze through, but wonder how everyone else will get by (people bigger than me). The sheet rock in this little opening is bending and cracking. I wonder how I've been able to go upstairs so easily all day, but now suddenly I can't. Eventually I just bust through the wall, and see that I made it way more destructive than it needed to be because the wall could just be pushed to the side. I find myself in a kitchen (looks like M's parents' house) and my mom is cooking. I'm pushing the walls back together and I see four thin mirrors, with my reflection coming back pretty clear, and my hair is in a pony tail.

I am climbing up Machu Picchu and there are people sitting all around on it. I see one person eating, and it kind of seemed like a restaurant. Then I am at a part that seems like a hotel, so I get on an elevator to go up. My room number is 394. I get the feeling that everyone is waiting for something to happen so I'm trying to hurry back.

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Feeling like this happens a lot:
I am walking in the woods somewhere and I come to a clearing, like a campsite, and there are people there already. I'm on my way somewhere else, but kind of without any direction. There's water, maybe a lake.

Somewhere I think I recognize from another dream.. I am walking around Brooklyn (even though it looks nothing like any part of Brooklyn) going to my mom's apartment (???). I say I think I remember where I am, and to let me lead the rest of the way. So I find the place, and I go in to the lobby and there's people everywhere. I don't remember the code to get in the next door so I use the one from work, and it lets us in. She goes on ahead, and there are a group of guys behind me. As I'm going up the stairs, they ask if I want to smoke weed with them and they start coming towards me. I'm starting to bug out because I can't find the apartment. I'm going in and out of all these areas of the building, but the place I'm looking for just isn't there. The guys are still following me. I try to call her, but M answers and curses at me so I hang up.

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I am with some friends.. I think LE, AH, and KD.. We are in a little house (maybe somewhere in St. Augustine) and there is a couch we have that needs to go outside. KD was hitting on some guy earlier that lives across the street, and I see him walking around outside. He has glowing white spikey hair. The girls want to spray paint something on his fence, and I'm insisting it's a stupid idea and not going to be worth having to clean up and fix. While they are talking about that, I realize the couch still needs to go outside to the curb. Apparently I was jacked, because I was able to carry the couch with just one hand.

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This dream seems so nonsensical: At some graduation ceremony in an auditorium with very few people.. I recognize people I grew up with in NY and people I went to high school with in FL. The people graduating are wearing yellow gowns. I am called up to get a pink bow that I'm supposed to wear in my hair. When I get up, I lose my seat, so I sit in another area. I sit next to someone who knew my grandma D. There's a huge vat of cake going around that looks like it's made of mostly icing that people are taking, and I pass it up. "Mr. Jones" by the Counting Crows starts playing and I look up and see a girl I knew in FL, MB, cleaning windows and dancing to this song and she's gained like.. 200 pounds but I still think she's adorable. I see a neon sign for a bar, still from the seat I was in, and I say "You know where to find me if you need me!" and I leave. I feel like I disappointed the lady I was sitting next to.


*Wondering why I'm always going up stairs or an incline of some sort in my dreams, and why groups of young guys are "bad"....

What a happy dream.. I am swimming in the ocean under water with dozens of huge animals like giant stingrays, sharks, and whales.. but everyone is getting along with each other. I decide to give my mom a tour of the deep blue and I am swimming around with her saying things like "And if you look to your left you'll see our friend the humpback whale!". Then the animals start to put on a show Little Mermaid-style with water shooting up in the sky and little rhythmic beats.

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I am a contestant on Ninja Warrior... watching myself, I hear the announcer say something in Japanese.. it looks like I'm doing really well. There's a ramp that I am running up and climbing really fast.. yup, I was a ninja alright.

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Something about the street I live on.. I am in a house I don't recognize and I realize I left a gray bag outside that has my wallet and stuff in it. I am at this machine that dispenses shots and I ask if there is whiskey. Some familiar faces are around, maybe J&J. I keep telling people I need to get the bag outside before someone steals it but they keep giving me shots. At some point I leave, get the bag, and feel like I'm on a mission.. I recognize the street I'm walking down is somewhere in Montana.


Missed somewhere between 35 and 8 billion

I'm walking up a hill on the first day of college (???) and I stop at a speed bump. I decide since I can't step over it, I'll walk around it. I end up at a college football game, but I can't find the entrance to get into the stands, so I'm just walking around the outside. I go into this little room with a big window in the back, and no one will let me get to it. I say "Can I just look out the window, please???" I get frustrated because no one will let me look out the window, so I'm like screw it, and I leave. I start walking down a hill and see my mom. She said she couldn't find me so she asked people at a reference desk, but not only did she not know what my last name was, but no one had ever heard of me. I woke up crying.

I was at yoga and got up for a second, then someone took my mat! I got up and was trying to find it, but the mats kept getting switched around. I told the yoga teacher, P, and he said to go up to the roof and lock the door because he thinks college kids are getting in and stealing things. So I start to go up, and I'm in some building on a college campus. I'm wearing a UNF sweatshirt and so I decide if I'm missing yoga, I should start running. So I'm running up this ramp and I get to a hill, and I can't quite make it up the hill. A guy comes up from behind me and gets over the hill just fine, so I copy what he did. Then I'm hanging on this dirt ledge and feeling like I'm going to fall. I get around it, and eventually find the top floor. A guy asks me if I need help, and I tell him what happened, so he uses his walkie talkie to get someone to close the door on the roof.

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I'm walking at UNF around the green, trying to go home to where I live now. Then I am walking down a fraternity row type place, and I put my head down because I don't want anyone to say anything to me. An SUV drives by and they are blasting one of M's songs, and I think wow, everyone really does like it. Then I am coming around to some familiar looking streets, and I wonder if there was no M, if I'd feel weird when I hear about people liking his songs. I get to an area that looks really familiar but the street signs are all numbers. A lady is standing there with a kid that I work with, DC, and she asks if I need help. DC start moving into the street so I bring him back out of the road, and say goodbye to him. I tell the lady where I live and she points down one street and so I start walking that way. I get to a garage sale and I lift up boxes and move things around to make them pretty.

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I walked into a classroom and AC and LE were there and looked happy to see me. They gave me a little basket with candy in it and a tiny TV. The TV had pictures of AC and I wearing Indian feathers in our hair and laughing. I asked why they did that, and they said because the missed me.

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I was at a KoL concert, and when they finished I saw the fans in the front weren't really paying attention to that fact that Caleb was coming out into the audience. So I took off my jacket, ran down, and was pushing people out of the way to get to him. Immediately I knew M was looking for me. Caleb had me follow him with a couple other girls backstage, and was thinking, what the hell are you doing. Two girls left, and it was just me and another girl who had these crazy blue eyes. Caleb asked me if I thought she was pretty, and I said I love blue eyes. She left and Caleb said "I'll guess you'll have to do". That made me feel like crap, but I followed him anyways. We are at some weird after party, and people are doing coke all over the place. The I see M coming up the stairs and he's pissed, I tell him what happened, and he said that's fine he just wants to meet Caleb first. So I go to find him, and he's laying down with some chick on top of him.