cytotoxicT

1/13/13

WILD into DEILD chain (6-8)

***note to self: work more on tactile sensations when developing scene from WILD.

This is the 3rd night in a row of a WILD. I have not smoked or drank for about a week and a half. Every night I have been getting up around 5 (not intentionally) and been unable to fall back asleep for an hour or so. I can feel a moment of deep focus right before the transition sensations kick in. I have about a 5 to 10 second heads-up to stay aware. I can't describe it but I guess I have done enough WILDs where I can tell my body is about to fall asleep. Also, for the 3rd consecutive night the transition was the new adrenaline-lightness instead of vibrations.

This occurred at the embassy suites where I was sleeping IRL. I wasn't able to record this for awhile, also I had a very distracting and emotional morning so my recall is down to about 0. I remember recalling around 8 DEILDs, most of which fell victim to the darkness. I am working on trying to develop scenes once I feel the transition instead of opening my dream eyes and starting in my bed. Here are the 3 snippets I remember.

I remember that my previous few DEILDS failed because I started in the dark room. I tried to visualize a scene with a tree. I could start to see the outline in the darkness. I began to hear voices and they are having a conversation with each other. I believe I started to get visuals, but I was never "in" the dream, just observing some interaction.

DEILD

I am looking to get out of the dark room. I go over to the window and it is daytime outside. I jump down a few floors to the ground. It looks like fall. I walk around and I eventually find 2 guys who look to be early 30's. They are homeless and living out of a box. I cant recall the rest

DEILD

I go out the front door of the room. There is large arena with some people scattered about. It is indoors. I see a little Iron Giant figurine standing alone on the ground. It is about 3 ft. tall. I want to become it so I put it in front of my face and try to look through its eyes. Eventually I morph through it so I am seeing as it does, but I stay my normal size and physical appearance. I then just pretend to be a robot and pick up and throw some things.

8/30/11

DEILD + False DEILD chain (~24)

estimated 8 DEILD and 16 false

Recall: your try remembering 24 fragments...

Notes:

First of all, I should explain what I consider to be a false DEILD. When DEILDing, the dream will fade away and I will slowly feel myself back in my bed. I just focus on either the last tactile sensation of the previous dream or a few vivid general tactile sensations to re enter the dream state. FAs are extremely common when DEILDing and then I feel my "bed," it is usually some dream bed. In retrospect, it is hard to determine which times I actually woke up. If I had to guess, I would say I probably had 16 false DEILDS and maybe around 8 real ones. They way I usually estimate it is by the time it takes for me to feel strange sensations. In false DEILDs, they are almost immediate. In real DEILDs, they take like 10 seconds at least to start. Either way, I lost a dream and re entered the scene a ridiculous number of times.

I never RC when attempting DEILD. If I actually wake up, it will ruin the attempt. If I am dreaming, it is so easy to false DEILD that I might as well do it.

This was a nap that totaled around 2 hours real time.


Each dream lasted between 1 and 5 minutes long.

The first 10 or so dreams were spent on a sexual mission to find a specific person. We were in this dorm looking area. There were 4 rooms on each floor and I thought I knew which order of the rooms she was in but not which floor. I tried to "know" as confidently as I could, so it would be more likely. I got side tracked a lot, often by other women as I got more discouraged finding my specific one. I probably fooled around with like 6 different DCs. The dreams had varying levels of vividness. Some I took more time to enjoy my surroundings and ground myself, some I was hell bent to find a woman.

The next 6 or so dreams were spent outside flying. At first I had trouble taking off by my normal method (look at a target and get pulled toward it), but I tried something new. I call it reverse falling. Normally, I keep my arms at my side after jumping up in a breast stroke form. This time, I put my arms and legs out to the side and I looked at the ground. Instantly, I was thrusted into the air, so fast that my stomach dropped out. I went really high in the air and just floated there for a bit. I could change my hand position and lean to steer somewhat, although it was still really difficult. I looked around at this beautiful green landscape. The problem with my old method of flying is that you cant look around and enjoy it too much (I fall once I look away from the target) so this was nice. I tried the same thing in the last few dreams of this section and it did not work as well. At least it was fun while it lasted.

I had an FA after this section where I was not immediately lucid. I remember I had to drive with a friend home after I thought I had been sleeping for awhile. Whatever lane I was in would change and get merged into all the time. I was worried I looked really drunk. I tried to do a nose RC, hoping this was still a dream. It failed. I still had this sneaking suspicion that I was driving so I tried to pull the car up into the air. I was able to go up like 10 ft. before falling back to the road.

Thanks God, I'm dreaming. I relaxed a bit and soon lost the dream. After I DEILDed again, I was on foot in the same area with the same guy. We were headed to this building to find something out. I did the reverse falling technique again up to the top of this building. I started to run along the roof. I looked ahead and could see our destination. It was a courthouse like half a block away. My friend asked me, "Where is your license?" I thought I would be funny and replied with, "ask any of the DCs, they'll know!"

I jumped from the rooftop to a tree and started running along the branches. (Kind of like free running but....tree running....MAN I'm funny) They ran parallel with where I was going. Eventually they started getting thinner and forming anastomoses. I had good balance and soon was at the courthouse. I sat down on a branch and grabbed a hold of it with one hand. I rolled back and fell into a backflip. Because I was holding the branch, it slowed my down enough so I landed softly on my feet from the 30 ft. fall.

The last 6 or so dreams were spent in the building this adventure started in. I found a computer and it had a history on it of some sites I visited during the first few dreams. (Of course they were porn sites.) Then I found some of the old DCs from the earlier dreams. I was like revisiting the first few dreams. There was some more fooling around and I woke up for good.

I woke up absolutely COVERED in those red lines from lying in my bed and not moving. Also I felt a little tried still. It was a long nap, but I felt mentally exhausted. After finishing this, I am still tired but it was an amazing experience.