cytotoxicT

3/7/12

DILD (false-WILD)

TOTM

notes: I spent the night at a buddy's place and left early in the morning. I came back home and slept for 2 hours, where this occurred.

I FA in my room back in Chicago and try to WILD. I feel a numbness come over me and RC. I become lucid, but it is really dark and unstable. I don't get up and move too much, instead, I try to focus on the sensations around me. I realize that the tactile sensations are similar to the one my "real" body was feeling so I lose the dream and FA again.

I try to WILD immediately again. The vibrations come on quickly. My body feels strange, kind of like numb and distorting. Now I stand up and RC. It is still really dark in my room. I start touching things like my bed in order to stabilize. As I leave my room, an old woman approaches me and starts talking. I can't tell if she is my grandma or not, either way, I can't hear what she is saying. I walk out the kitchen door into the night. There is another brunette girl who approaches me saying something. THe dream isn't fully stabilized so I ignore her.

I try to make the sun rise, so it won't be so dark. I reach my hand out to the horizon and raise it slowly. This fails, no change in the lighting. I am still trying to make my environment brighter, and therefore, stabilize the dream. This guy is on a floating segway-looking device and is shooting some canisters at me. They fly through the air really slowly. I don't want to engage him, but I reluctantly respond. I jump onto the back of his flying thing and I am sitting on a cooler that is attached to the back. He says he is law enforcement and I have been missing my payments. I say some excuse and then fall off the back.

I land in the grass in my backyard. There is a pile of snow. I put my hand into it, and it feels realistic, almost painfully cold. I remember the shadow TOTM and look around me. It is very dark, but I still have a shadow from the neighbor's lights. I watch it closely and expect it to make some aberrant movements. It starts shaking its arm even though I am not. Now that it is detached, I told it to attack the man from earlier. He had landed back on my porch and was standing by the door.

My shadow swoops away and I run up the steps. My shadow is beating on the other guy's shadow, and his actual body is recoiling with the hits. I watch on and think it is cool that my shadow can attack real people too. I lose the dream soon after.

9/9/11

MILD + FA

Recall: somewhat poor

Notes:

Advanced task (control 2/4 elements) complete; basic failed

I woke up in the middle of the night to get some water and I decided to do some mantras while I was going back to sleep. I have noticed it is much easier to focus on the mantras without distraction during WBTBs. Hopefully this is the end of the dry spell.

I don't remember what made me lucid, but I did the nose RC and I could breathe. I am in some building and I start rubbing my hands together. I look down and I see that there are at least two extra fingers jammed into the gaps between the others. So even though my fingers are spread, all the space is filled up by other fingers.

I walk down a white hallway that gently slopes downward. I remembered the tasks so I try to imagine a body of water ahead of me. As I look up, I see the edge of a pool. I round the corner and there is an indoor water park. There are fake trees everywhere and I smell chlorine. I stand next to the shallow end of this pool. I thought I would rather test this out in shallow water. I go to where it is around 1 ft. deep, and I imagine the sensation of stepping forward and feeling solid ground for the water. I step forward and sink. Although I am up to my calves in water, I don't feel wet. I try it again and still sink.

I decided to give the advanced task a try. It seemed easier anyway. I extend my hand and use telekinesis to raise up a string of water. I make it twirl and spin in the air for awhile. Then I wanted to try the fire part. I imagined heat building up in my hand and I trust it forward. I small flame appears but it dissipates quickly. Well that was anti-climactic.

I go for air next. I get in a fighting like stance and try to condense a ball of air. I shoot it forward at some guy and he gets blown back. He gets back up and starts coming toward me. He looks pretty pissed. Good time to try the earth part. But I look around and I'm still in an indoor water park; I can't see any real earth to use. He is getting close so I give it a shot anyway. I fling my hands at him and expect some large rocks to be launched toward him from behind me. No dice. He is within a few feet so I need to attack him the old fashioned way. I jump forward and land one punch to his face; he goes down. Just then, it starts raining large brown boulders. I rationalize that I must have pulled the boulders from far away so it took awhile for them to get there. After like 5 seconds of giant boulders crashing down, it ends. Somehow there is no debris anywhere.

I lose the dream and am in a bed. I try to DEILD, but I realize it is an FA. I get up and stabilize for a bit. I recall trying to fly somewhere, but thats all I can remember.