Caretaker

Awake - Dream - Lucid

I haven't been writing in this for awhile because I haven't been able to recall anything at all. I know I should write my thoughts each night as well but I don't see the need to write that I didn't recall anything. I've been pretty distracted with playing Grand Chase lately. They've added a ton of stuff since Tony and I played a little over a year ago so we were enjoying the new content. I also stopped doing things like drinking Apple Juice (was making me sick), practicing ADA, and questioning reality regularly. I've been a little caught up in the game and I'm going to start trying harder now. I know I can do it.

I was up watching My Little Pony till 4AM. After forcing myself back awake several times from almost passing out with my iPod in my hand, I went to sleep.

I'm not sure where I was. It was a small room with around 5 people lounging around in it. I was talking with my buddy Jermey about my other friend, James. I was asking him things like, "Why don't we hang out more" and "What games are you in to now". Jermey was telling me how him and James were bros and I responded, "Yea he told me a couple times". He was telling me how he was bad ass in some new game now. I don't remember the name but it was some kind of hunting game. Then him and I were playing some kind of Alien game together. He was tearing threw the Aliens with an AK74u. We were near the end of the level which was located in a small cave. Inside the cave was some scaffolding on the side for us to get on and aim and a purple Alien ship near the back. We were shooting the cheap out of them before they could even get out of the door. Then out of no where, Jermey paused the game and we had to go kill ants. We were micro sized and had to kill a bunch of ants that were trying to steal all our stuff. They were carrying white chess pieces for some odd reason.

Interpretations
I'm positive this dream is the collection of thoughts that I have very often. That is, where did all my friends go? I used to have friends over every week and we'd play games together. I was the guy you'd come kick it with if you wanted to play that latest video game before anyone else. Now I literally only have one friend I talk to and I miss the people I used to hang out with.

Awake - Dream - Lucid

This is the second night I've been without antidepressants. Though there was a lot of arguing during the day, I was still pretty relaxed. Stayed up most of the night browsing the internet. Andrew came over and we enjoyed a few games before watching some "Stan Lee's Superhumans". I stayed up to around 4AM, trying to get as tired as possible. Finally I gave up and decided to sleep. Didn't bother trying anything because I passed out instantly.

Dream #1 - Castle Escape
I was in this dream with my little brother, Tony. it was almost like we were playing as characters for a game rather than our own bodies. The situation was basically that we were on an island with some kind of odd shape-shifting, evil queen. She had dozens of prisoners that she forced into attacking one another and play games of torture for her amusement. I was planning an escape and did some recon on the surrounding area. Turns out there was a way for us to hang-glide onto a small outer island where there were a few sailboats. The problem was that the water surrounding the island seemed to be designed to where you could only go so far. It's like your boat would automatically sink if you went past the boundaries. I know while I was doing recon, I died quite a few times and had to "respawn" on top of the castle where their was a bunch of chests. I also remember having a hard time coming up with a new name to use for my character each time and Tony being indecisive about the suggestions I'd give him. After awhile, we finally attempted out escape. We flew down to the island then got on our boat. After we sailed for a bit, we came across the next objective for our escape. It was either an oversized shelf with decorative bowls or we were ant sized. I think it's the latter. We used "Vine Whips" that are like grappling hooks from the game Terraria to climb up. After we were high enough, we started up what seemed like a big ass door frame. When we were at the top of it, about to go from a big ocean to what seemed like my front room, the dream ends.

Interpretation
I don't have the waking memories of what all I was doing that day because it was over a week ago when I had this dream. I can only assume it was because of a weird iPhone game that Andrew was playing where one part you have to climb on furniture to escape a fat, evil cat. Also, still playing Terraria so part of it was in my subconscious.

Dream #2 - Crayons
I was with my brother's friend, Andrew in this dream. We were in this odd L shaped house on the upper floor. There was some little kid around the age of 13 who was talking with a physic. She was predicting his "special colors" that he'd be using (I think in a website). They were specific colors just for him out of thousands. I don't remember why but Andrew stole the box that held the crayons and ran. The names of all the crayons were written on top of the box so the kid would know which was which. I think there was about 13 crayons total. Andrew handed the box to me and I took a hot pink crayon and marked over all the names of the crayons. Then I jumped out the window onto the ground below and proceeded to throw all the crayons sporadically around the place, scattering them. Someone sounded a silent alarm but I knew that they did because they had very loud dogs that came after me. I remember rushing forward and leaping over many fences while trying to get to a place where one of the dogs in the yards I was in wouldn't continue the barking and alert the ones chasing me. Finally, I got to a yard with two scrappy looking poodles that I gave the silent shush finger to and they didn't bark. After a few minutes the barking stopped and I was able to go back onto the street. Suddenly, my little sister shows up and says "Jesse, they're leaving" in excitement. I got a sudden rush of panic and bolted back to the yard where I originally threw all the crayons. There were half a dozen people looking around for them like you would during an Easter Egg hunt. For some reason, I knew exactly where they were and picked them up. The dream ends with me giving the box back to the kid.

Interpretation
Not sure what this dream was about. Maybe it's that I need more excitement or outdoor activity in my life. I can't really tell.

Woke up way too early. I think I got around 6 hours of sleep or less. I don't mind being up so soon because I'll be able to attempt a WILD tonight more easily.