martakartus

This morning, I was determined to attempt some kind of wake-induced technique. I had told myself that, if I was able to not move upon waking, I would try a DEILD, if I did move, I would try a WILD. As I moved before I realised I was awake, I decided to try a WILD. Just before bed I had watched a quite detailed video on the "stop, drop and roll" technique to WILD, so I did it.

The switching of positions went well, I did them at the right time. Once I had rolled over on my right side, I spent a few minutes trying to fight back the urge to move my legs and I managed well, so it finally ceased. Then, I started feeling my body was very heavy and I waited for the HI and HA to start. But apparently, they didn't come. Instead, I had the feeling I lost consciousness during (I guess) a few seconds and suddenly I would find myself in a dream-like scenario. This would last around half a minute and then I would find myself again in my bed, feeling that heaviness. This happened at least three times. I don't remember the first two of these scenarios, but I do the third. I was with two friends in a girl's car (I met them yesterday and we were sitting in the same way) and we were going to Tarragona through the highway (I did that road yesterday). The girl who was driving pointed out there was fog, but it looked like it was stuck to the ground. All of a sudden, I felt a drop of saliva tickling down my cheek and I awoke again. I started thinking about the "dream" that seemed to have started and I had the feeling I wasn't aware that I was entering a dream. "Dammit, you're not doing all this to have a non-lucid, stay aware". From that point on I kept saying to myself "I am dreaming", waiting for the next dream scenario to form. I felt my body vibrating (and the arm and shoulder I was resting on started to really hurt) and every now and then I would see a scene flashing before my eyes and vanish within seconds. I can't really tell if those were thoughts of mine, but it seemed they came involuntarily. However, not once I was able to hold on to one and let the dream form. Finally, my arm was hurting so bad I couldn't stand it anymore and I gave in and rolled over the other side. After that, I was unable to sleep anymore.

I have no idea how long this whole thing took, because I didn't look at the clock before I started, but I think it must have been 45 to 60 minutes. I felt really frustrated because on so many occasions it seemed like I was amost there, but I'm glad that I was closer to success this time than I've been in the other few attempts I've done.