memorable

I fell asleep a few times, because sometimes when I fall asleep I get stuck in my dreams and can't wake up from them which I find to be kind of terrifying. Anyway, the first time I dozed off mainly the issue was 2 giant spiders hanging from my ceiling on single strands, they were kind of just swinging there but since I'm petrified of spiders, it kind of sucked and I got stuck in that dream so I had to try really hard to pull myself out of it, but I wouldn't completely come to so I must've gotten stuck again.

Next I met this lady who was telling me something about heaven on earth, being a chosen angel or something to walk on Earth. And I went to dinner with her and we saw a bunch of wonderful things, there was like a waterfall that you could just float above and the water was all sparkly, everything we ate tasted heavenly. The only thing was though, you had to believe you could be happy to live such way, and I was doubtful for some reason. But she said I would receive a call later if I changed my mind.

Then I went home and I guess I decided that I did believe and I wanted to live the way she showed me, and how wonderful everything was. So I went to sleep and everything was just amazing, it felt like I was having orgasms or something so that's kind of weird I don't really know how to explain it lol the memory is fleeting. Anyway when I woke up my dad was next to me and I was overtaken by feelings of disappointment and disgust because I knew why he was there and I told him to go away but he pinned me down and pushed into me and I cried, then he heard a noise and pulled out quickly and I got up and ran, and I started screaming, I told him I was there, I had almost made it into the happiest place on earth and he blew it. Then I fell over and I realized my phone was ringing, the number on the screen was just 44 and I answered it and I started to get really excited and I woke up. Now everything feels kind of weird

I was in the bathroom and I was shaking and choking, I felt like I was in danger, like I was going to die and so I tried to call for my mom, but she never came and the feeling passed, almost as though I had completely imagined it because nothing was there. Then I went to school where I stood next to SB, and I saw a pile of keys. I started rummaging through all the keys, they were all golden, and different in shapes. SB asked me what I was doing and I looked up and told him to look at all the keys, but he said there wasn't any keys there and asked me what I was talking about. When I looked back, there weren't any keys, and I was confused. Then I realized that I was seeing things that weren't there, all the people started taking odd, colorful, and diverse appearances, like there was a golden midget and a lady in a Royal blue suit with minty hair and really strong buff guys, but they were intimidating. I started panicking, and stayed with SB and we were supposed to be going to a beach. But then SB turned into a guy named Roy, and he started trying to do bad things to me and I was afraid because I didn't know who Roy was but it was actually SB. When we got to the beach Roy became SB again, and there was a transvestite in a Lime green bikini with bright blue and magenta flowers, but he gave me his bikini and I was still feeling really anxious and delusional and I was starting to worry that SB would not care for my crazy state much longer. Then I woke up.