Mysteries of my subconscious

July 16, 2013


Some sort of seeming apocalypse, there were not many people and I was at work when it all happened. Leslie and I were not dating anymore, and when the incident happened, and there were various groups of people who were leaving on their own. I went with Nanea and so did a few girls. I tried to talk and flirt with the girls but I was doing horribly. They did not seem into me at all, except one was a little. We were going to another state I believe and I had grabbed some stuff prior to. We were heading to California and arrived almost immediately. We were driving around looking for some place to settle. Soon it faded out and I arrived back at the original site which was now distorted. There I saw some people I recognized, including Marko, and some other people that were the same age as me. Some of these other people wanted to go with us, but they still did not. The same group I was with last time went together again, but we were without the girl that I successfully flirted with a bit. So it was just me and the two other girls, one of which was April. I did not flirt well still and I had to pick up some things for myself again. All the actions did not seem the same to me, but all the relationships were. I had told Nanea that we went to California last time and where we were but he did not wanna go that same route this time. It began to fade out. I went back to the same sort of venue, but this time I saw people getting done with football practice or something… I began to play football with some people who were there too, mostly graduates with a few to be grads from my year. We just played football for a bit and I was doing pretty badly still as I was eating an apple and I just felt so off balance in every way possible throughout the dream. I was just incapable of doing certain things. It was strange. I then woke up.

July 9, 2013 - forgot to post this earlier on!

I was going to New York to visit my dad with my brother. I was living in my previous house and my Aunt Barri came to pick us up to take us to the airport. (strange because she lives on the other side of the country..) At the old house I took an incredibly long time to pack my clothes and other things I'd need. I seemed completely unprepared and sluggish. They seemed to be waiting on me for almost an hour while I was slowly doing that. I had figured that I'd be going for only a few days but it ended up that I'd be there for 11 days. I was disappointed that I would be missing my new job and that I would have a hard time telling my boss that I already need to have time off, especially because it would be last minute. I was also eager to show my girlfriend who desperately wants to go to New York that I was going there. It was a pretty short dream, I didn't even make it to NY in my dream.

June 14, 2013 - haven't remembered to post this!


It seemed like the game the division, post apocalyptic. There were no zombies or anything, but some monsters that seemed monkey-like to me. They were scavengers and hunters, just some monsters that would try to kill me and my people. I was only with some friends (some people I don't remember), my brother Brian, friend Presley, and a teacher Mrs. Williams, as well as her two daughters(which I don't know if she has two daughters). It started out in a prison that was made safe into a settlement early on. I was requested for help(maybe?) and had to leaave the prison. I was in a house which didn't seem too bad, and I was with at least Presley and Brian.

*There was some sort of side trip where Presley and I were purchasing a video game and he cut in line* dunno why this happened...

We then went back to the room and hung out there for a little bit after avoiding attacks. On a radio or a phone we were called to go to another room that Mrs. Williams was in. She and her daughters were in there and the daughters were both terrified and young. One seemed about 8 and the other 3-4. She was doing anything she could to protect them. She seemd to be some sort of warrior apparently and she went out to kill some of the monsters that were causing trouble outside. She was requested for help and Brian went to help her. Neither returned although I tried to call for them various times. The daughters got frightened and hurt themselves running to a corner. They remained there for a long time. Many events that I cannot fully recall occurred during this time. I believe that Mrs. Williams story was somewhat revealed to me and I witnessed her death? Also some other guy showed up and was in a fun battle with some bad guy (familiar characters). It was mostly just tension and speaking. Then the bad guy shot the good in the head, I stole the gun and shot the bad guy in the head.
Daytime was approaching and the older sister did not make it alive. I took the younger one back to the prison where she was taken care of, as I went to get something to eat. I walked into the eating hall alone, something I wouldn't typically do, it's just that anyone close to me was gone it seemed. I walked through the room with utter disappointment and loneliness until I sat at a table with friends Brittany Bolger, Santana and some others. I was still alone though I felt.

The Induction
Now, I feel that this was not a directly induced lucid dream. Here's my method. I woke up to my alarm at 4:30, and then after my alarm goes off, I usually just go right back to sleep and try to stay aware long enough to do a finger induced lucid dream. those seem to work well for me. But I remember very lightly doing the FILD, and hardly even doing it. And then I felt myself snap into a dream but hardly really. I plugged my nose as a reality check and I could breathe.
This is where it changes.

The Rest..
I stand up and get out of my bed but think nothing of it. I walk through my house, very fatigued, and I felt very heavy. I got see everything very clearly. Everything appeared to be hyper realistic, which I generally associate with an OBE. I've never had one though, so I don't know what it's truly like. I walked slowly through my house due to my fatigue. My vision was blurry through one of my eyes, and it was mostly blurry from farther distances. I heard a drumming from my garage, which is weird because I don't have any drums or anything. I went to check it out, and it was my friend Javier. He just said what's up to me and that was the end of that. I started walking back through my house a bit, and then I heard my music playing from in my room. I tried to plug my nose, and see if I was still breathing, and woke to find I wasn't.

So now, I'm just wondering what this was, but I think it was more likely a LD. I didn't experience any rushing noises, or any vibrations usually accompanied with an OBE. Either way, if I didn't accomplish a dream goal, it was still pretty cool.

So I was at a party of some sort, and everybody was having a good time, but me and a few other people could sense that something was going to go wrong. We were trying to kind of make sure everything was alright, but really weird thing were happening, like the pool would drain. Then more water would pour out of the back. and that happened two or three times. There was some hole in the ground that was man made, but I don't remember the justification for it. We made it for a reason, a long while before all this. But people were climbing down that, just to check it out, and some returned but others didn't. We tried to disallow people from going down there. Others were being killed in brutal ways. Eventually the water flooded the area and more people were being killed more easily. I tried to urge everyone to get out, and I did as well.
I got out really easily, and there was an out of control car/boat thing on this lake nearby. I jumped on that to see if anybody was alive on it, but it was empty. There was also a giant ship that was empty, but still going at high speeds on the water.
I was at that point trying to get to the shore. I got on the car boat thing that was farther inland than the boat, and tried to abruptly turn, and the waves slowly turned the large boat too. It turned easily as if some force was trying to kill me with it. But I managed to get around it, and made it to land.
I was just trying to rush to somewhere safe, which turned out to be some music lounge, and there was a private room and I sat in there. I tried everything I could to see if my girlfriend was okay, but I couldn't find anything. And then I woke up.

It starts by me trying to fall asleep, but I can't. I hear noises so I go to investigate and my environment kind of changes to my a front yard with a minecraft-like scene with trees and stuff from the game. They are cutting down wood, and begin to come over towards me. They introduce themselves, and one has a very strong accent and says they are from Bulgaria. One girl looks older than the other. One of them starts talking to me, like she's trying to get to know me, but I find it really difficult to understand her. We don't talk to much and then I try to find a way in order to get rid of them, and then another man comes and I assume it's her father. I didn't know what to do, because he insisted on watching a movie and cooking food in my house, and I just wanted him out. He begins to play the movie, and I try to just urge and push them out of the house, but they won't go anywhere.

That is when I wake up. Just curious, is that a false awakening, or does that have another name, when I start in the state of trying to fall asleep when the dream begins?

I was in an office building where there was a huge party going on at the time, and then i kicked out and I had this thing that allowed me to kinda float through the air, if I pushed the button in the air. So, I was forced away from the party and I was extremely far away at that time. I was with a tv show character, Barney from How I met your Mother, and we were on a mission to get back to the party because there was some sort of scandal going on there. We were extremely far away, and we saw a building that was a lot quieter than it, but we decided to check it out, just in case. It appeared to be an abandoned building with maybe CIA agents working in it, only on one office near the top floor. Me and Barney evacuated it quickly. We began to walk again looking for it, and we though we saw the lights coming from the direction it was. I used the thing to float to get over there at high speeds, and I realized it was there. I went back for Barney and he was in an outdoor mall at the time. I got him and we prepared to use the mechanism to fly over there, as soon as I woke up.

This was a pretty cool dream, it's just extremely unfortunate that was an entire beginning to this dream that I don't really remember besides the ending. Also, there was more to the beginning of this I don't remember very well.

I woke up in the middle of the night which happens somewhat often for me. As I woke up, I remembered the FILD technique. So I started twitching my fingers back and forth for about 20 seconds. After that, I did it for another 10 seconds. But after about a total of 15 or 20 seconds, I felt a snap away from my body. But I continued anyways. After the 10 seconds, I grabbed my nose, to see if I could still breathe, which I could.

I had done my first induction into a lucid dream. I was really proud. The first thing I did was go up to a mirror. I wanted to try and teleport into a different dream scene. I wanted to be a part of a zombie apocalypse. I tried many different mirrors, but the first two I went up to, I just saw my reflection, which in fact, now that I’m in full waking awareness I realize, it didn’t even look like me. A third one, I got teleported into another scene, but it was not much different, and then I tried going back and I did. I just stayed in there. I was hungry and I decided to just fly around the city while I eat. I couldn’t just “float” I had to flap my arms like a bird would, but as I did, I just held my food in front of me floating.
Since I wanted to create a zombie apocalypse, I tried to desperately create a plot in my head and make it happen. I tried to create a scenario where some vaccine doesn’t work on somebody and it changes them. None of that worked. I tried to just imagine zombies in front of me, but I can’t do that. I don’t know how to create an entity very well. I also just tried to create an entity I could fly on top of, but could not.

I don’t totally remember that many details, because it was an early dream in the night, and I could not access a computer till later that morning. But I remember that I had awoken many times, so I thought, but just held my nose again, and realized I was still in the dream state. One time there was a scenario which I don’t totally remember. But I had a friend who was a TV show character, Barney, from How I Met Your Mother, and he said he had a “shadow” spirit kinda thing inside of him, controlling him. I tried to expel it by looking into a mirror, which the first thing I saw was a little excerpt showing how the spirit got inside of him and that it truly was controlling him. I went inside the mirror to try and fix things, but slowly, my dream faded. The dream was over.

I did accomplish a dream goal of mine, which was to maintain control for the entire night.

I did not remember nearly as many details of the dream that were a main part, but it was still an awesome experience, that I can mark down as my first full lucid dream.

So I was having a school dream, which I have had about 3 or 4 in the last few weeks, and they have all been based around the same schedule and been going through the days of school. Yesterday I was supposed to go to my 2nd period, but I was forgetting which class was my 2nd class. I went to my first period class first which was Spanish, but it obviously wasn't my class and I didn't recognize anyone. I had to ask my girlfriend what class I was supposed to be in and she told me, so I went down the hall to my AP Lit class.
I went inside, and somebody told me they had a bug infestation but we were staying in there anyways. We were watching a documentary on bees, and the bugs that were in there were bees, spiders, and one more thing I don't remember. They were in designated areas across the room. At one point my dream was about to transform into another dream. There was some guy that said he could mess with the bees, hop on a motorcycle and get away from them. He tried it and EVERY bee chased after him and ended up killing him, but the bee infestation was gone. So that was a step up.
But then the dream began to change and I was on a boat I believe? I was with many people I had never seen and this part is pretty hazy. There were areas for each age group, up to 18 I believe. You were supposed to watch over the age group below you, so 17 - 18 watches over the 15-16 year olds. Which I am a part of. They would mess with us pretty often though. But it wasn't too big a deal. I don't remember much else, but a bunch of people were saying they saw a person that looked like Bruce Wayne, from Batman, but I didn't see it, but I did see that it was just my friend Trent. And he does not look much like him at all.

So I'm not doing football this year in real life, but one day in my dream, I decided to go to just check it out. I got there at around 10 AM, although practice starts at 8 or so. It wasn't any regular practice, though.

There were these coaches I hadn't known, hadn't been familiar with, nor were real football coaches I believe. The point of the practice at first were to complete 2 three point basketball shots, then afterwards, place two flags in the opponents flag holders, and last was to post a banner of your team, showcasing there name.

My team was red, and we were facing the blue team. So first was the 3 point shots. I got both the shots in. I do not know or very much recognize many of the dream characters, besides very few coaches or others later on. So I do not know who got there shots in. Next was the flags. The opposing team had to try and stop us from getting the flags in, by any means, but it was relatively casual. The only odd thing about it was, that at first, the real coach had created fire traps on the floor that created a relatively high wall of fire that had to be jumped over. There were also bleachers, and other things we could climb on in order to jump over the fire. I believe that I got the first flag in. They had gotten there flag in as well. Then afterwards, the craziness stopped, and it was relatively casual. People were talking, and everything, but the games were still on. I abandoned the second flag unintentionally, and then the enemy team took it and hid it. They apparently had gotten there second flag in, and then they quickly already hung there banner in a large hangar, like area. After that, we had to run a small lap around the field and meet back at the coach.

He told us to meet him by the hangars, ( which he used a different name for) and when we got there, we just watched videos, and kind of interacted with the coaches, in social games, I think. The blue team was watching videos in a different place that was near there second flag. I sort of sneaked away to place the flag, but they saw me, and allowed me to proceed, because they told me they don't care.

I went back and they were just watching videos, and I allowed myself to, although I do not remember looking at any screen at all... That was weird for me. After a while, We were about done and allowed to go home. At this point it was about 2 AM. We began to leave, and for some odd reason, when I left the school I was in, I was in my bedroom, with my friend Jagger. I asked if he wanted to stay the night, and he said yeah and then just crashed in my room, because it was reaaaaaally late. I then realized that I forgot my phone and clothes in my locker at the school. I began to leave my house, and my phone was right there, and so was the rest of my stuff. I LITERALLY thought to myself "Good thing this is a dream, or else I wouldn't be able to get my stuff back." but I totally ignored it and didn't think about that for the remainder of the dream. Not too long after,

I was too meet back for practice, and we were on a big bus, with the only coach with us being of my favorites, Coach Harris. At first we were in a HUGE arcade, where everybody was just playing games and having fun, even people I knew weren't a part of football or anything like that. I received some kind of message from my mom, that I was in danger, not to go anywhere else, not to stop for anyone else, just to go home with her. After the arcade, we were in what appeared to be an office building, but we were leaving to go back to the bus. My uncle called me and told me that something was wrong and in danger, but I couldn't fully understand what was going on, and he tried to tell me to go the Palms hotel roof, and meet him for a drink. My phone died during the call and I just thought that I definitely wasn't going there.

As we left the office building, we went onto the freeway, and then rounded into another buildings lot. We were only dropping one person off there, and I saw my mom's car. I told the coach that I have to go here too, but he wouldn't let me off the bus. So, as we were slowly moving, I threw my gear off the bus and began to climb out the door and onto the sidewalk. I began walking towards my moms car only to find that she wasn't in it. Only two chubby white women, one being way younger than the other. I told them to tell me where my mother was, and she was in the trunk, freezing in some snow. (which is weird, I live in Las Vegas, and this is during the summer) My mom climbed out and forced us to be pushed down a hill into snow. We were stuck in a dish, and then a ton of water started to fly down the hill after us. We were to hold our breath, but I could still breathe fine. We began to try and get out of there and that's where it ended...

Okay, keep in mind that I am 16. And that lately in order to become aware, in my dreams I would just KNOW that I'm dreaming without a reality check, and sometimes don't even use a reality check. (which I know, is bad.)

So, it started out as me being in school one day. My friend that I kinda avoid hanging out with sometimes asked me to hang out with him, and I kind of avoided it. I rescheduled anyways. Then I went into my classroom that I was supposed to go into. It was my CAD classroom (which is a 3d computer design class). Then my teacher showed us a new seating chart, and I went to sit in my seat. Moments after I got there I appeared in this courtyard at my school that wasn't my actual courtyard.

This is where it starts getting weird...
I was in a dream scene that I had been in previously that night for an entirely different dream. I believe it may have been in a dream of mine last night too.
So i hear people chanting something about dreaming, and then I quietly chant that "I will have a lucid dream tonight" I kept chanting it to myself and I only did a small reality check to ask if I was dreaming. I didn't catch myself one bit.


Later on into that dream, I felt as if I woke up in waking life, and then rolled over in my bed and the scene changed again into a water world that was portrayed as a video game world in my head. I WAS the character in the game though, and I WAS actually scared of the feeling of drowning. At one point, I came into realization that I messed up in my last dream. That I didn't do a reality check. Then I was telling myself I have got to start looking at my hands more and really focusing in on that stuff, no matter what. I didn't do one reality check I believe.
I carried on just thinking that.

And then, I felt as if I kind of woke up. I felt myself roll over in my bed, keeping my eyes closed, and affirming myself that I would become aware. I continually did that. Then I felt some shaking, and I heard another bed shaking inside my house, and I feared something might be happening to my mom, and then I was focusing in on that. I felt my cat lift it's head up and jump off my bed. Then I rolled over, opened my eyes, and was in my room and all the shaking stopped. My door was closed [so a cat couldn't have been in my room].

What was this for me? Was it vibrations and those vibration noises? Because like I said, I felt my cat jump off my bed. Could that have been my dream guide as I was entering into the dream? I didn't feel any sort of sleep paralysis, because and I was able to just roll over twice and open my eyes within those few seconds.
I sort of thought that this sensation was awesome though. I thought it was exhilarating once I woke up. I simply loved it. I thought it was a great dream, even though I only reached layer 0 minor in the layers a lucid dream.

If anybody knows the game portal, this is what I'm referring to.

This was all hazy: In real life, I stayed up really late, about 5 AM. and as my dream began, i was in my room still trying to fall asleep as other people in my house were waking up and getting ready. My brother (who left for college last week) came into my room and asked while I was still awake, and I just pretended to go to sleep because I wanted to anyways. Then after about 30 minutes of STILL trying to go to sleep, a cat came into my room and woke me up by making all sorts of noise and such.
A whole lot happened, but I don't know any of it.

I was at this bar or store, like place, and there were these totems in a pool of water on the opposite end of the room as the counter/bar. A friend of mine was just hanging out on the totems mostly. But the both of us could just flick my wrist at a white painted wall and I would teleport to the ground in front of it. I could do that no matter where the wall was, even if it was over the water, it teleported me to the surface of the water. ALSO, if I teleported over where somebody was standing, I could take over there body for them. I was doing this to the woman on the other side of the counter. After wards, I was talking to her and she knew what I could do. She was trying to subtly act as if she didn't know, but she was still hinting at it. My friend came over to me, and then the girl had dropped a coin on the ground and she was wearing a dress and didn't want to pick it up because she felt that we were "creeps" and we'd look up her dress if she bent down. She got another girl to climb over the counter and pick it up for her and while she was, my friend pinched her butt, and then we both teleported away, so the girl hadn't an idea.
After that, I was just teleporting in the water, trying to hide for whatever reason and trying not to be seen.

Backstory: So recently I've been really confused as to whether or not I want to play football again this year in high school, and I'm scared to confront friends and coaches about it. I have a tough academic schedule ahead of me, and I want to get a job.

So I went to school and I saw the football team practicing in the middle of the courtyard. (weird, I know.) I went up to a friend named Diego who also decided he wasn't doing it this year. So I was just asking him if I should and he didn't even respond to me. So I went up to watch the practice, and nobody said anything to me, until one guy told me to get over there and do some of the drills. I did. I enjoyed it. I began to walk away into the school and then woke up.

My subconscious is trying to make me play football and I don't like it! But I do...

I was just in my house, minding my own business, but then I see my Uncle smoking weed in the living room. I call my mom over, and she yells for him to get out of the house. He then just starts grabbing some of his stuff, along with a golf club and tries to act casual. He follows my mom and I go and grab a golf club too. Suddenly, I gain lucidity and I just make everything peaceful.
This being one of my earlier lucid dreams, I'm not too experienced, so i tried running down my street and flying, but instead i just jumped and fell slowly to the ground. I continued down the street and did a reality check, by staring at my hand. My left hand had 6 fingers, as my right hand had 5. It started to get hazier right about now, but I believe something was chasing me, so I stole a car and I just drove away (very recklessly, because I only have my driver's permit) as I continually tried to remind myself I was in a dream.

I was running down the street I live on from... I'm not totally sure. But I was running with a friend and my girlfriend. My girlfriend ran into a tree branch hanging over a wall and she just disappeared or something. I remember that happening in a dream of mine previously, so I immediately realized I was dreaming WITHOUT even trying to do a reality check. I just began to run a lot faster and leaped into the air and began to kind of soar through the air. I was only lucid for less than probably 10 seconds in my dream. I began flying, and not long afterwards I was flying (but having trouble) flying through the small, crowded casino. I saw a friend of mine and tried to show off to him what I could do and then my dream cut out.