lucid

Date: October 7, 2015
Method: MILD, WBTB
Sleeptime: 10:00ish
WBTB: 5:00am stayed up around 10 minutes
Results:Lucid (x2) DEILD and a DILD

DILD
Realized I was dreaming and became lucid. I tried to concentrate on an experiment I have been working on, but instead a vision of bodies floating in the sea appeared. That vision scared me so I made myself wake up.

DEILD
Decided to try again since I was still 'tingling' and a vision of women at a beauty parlor appeared and they just looked at me (like I really needed my hair done...which I do ).

I concentrated on my experiment mission and instead a little boy appeared. He was adorable. He looked like he was about 5 or 6 years old in a baseball jacket and a baseball cap. He had no face at all (like if i was drawing him in a picture, I intentionally left out the eyes, nose, mouth, etc). I asked him what was wrong and he said, "My mommy will die before my daddy." I said, "What is your name?" He said, "Donnie." I said, "Donnie, do you want a hug?" He shook his head yes and ran into my arms. He held on to me for dear life. Let me tell you DV family, that hug felt as real as me typing these words on my computer. I immediately felt his sorrow and as I was hugging him the scene changed to this:

His mother told him to hide under the bed and don't make a sound no matter what he hears. The father came in and was beating the mother and said he was going to kill her. The mother's face never looked toward that bedroom and at least to me, she didn't seem like she wanted to make a sound. As if she knew if she yelled, the little body would come out from under that bed.

Yeah....I still have the goosebumps.

Hey Lucy! Thanks for giving me a visit last night and boy was it awesome! I woke up floating above my body in my bedroom. I looked down and saw my husband asleep and for some reason, I had the thought that I didn't want to wake him being out of body . So I slowly floated above his body aiming for the bedroom door. Then all of a sudden a gust of wind (or force???) threw me back in my body and I DEILD my way back out. This wind or force continued to throw me up high into the sky and then throw me back down. And I mean way down...I began to see like layers of the Earth going down. The speed of being thrown up and down made my stomach feel like it was going into my throat and then down to my feet. I kept getting scared and ended up back in my body about three more time but I was still able to DEILD my way back out. This seemed to continue on forever until I got a hold of my lucid self and directed my attention on something else.

So I decided since I couldn't do much without agitating the wind/force I would practice summoning and teleportation (I totally forgot what the TOTM was). I didn't know what to summon so I though a cross would be really good about now. I held out my hand (if I had one) and concentrated on the cross appearing...it DIDN'T. I then tried teleporting to somewhere Ancient so I concentrated on a place with old temples and turned around hoping to be there...I WASN'T. By now I was so mentally exhausted I glided back over my husband with my heart still racing and went back in my body.

I stayed up for awhile trying to understand what that wind/force thing was. It is not really scary...well, the only thing scary about it is I don't see anything but the strength of whatever it is blows my mind! Even thought I never see anything, it sounds like a freight train! This has happened several times before but I have never been able to understand what it was and why does this always happen. When it does happen, I have no control over where I'm going (being pulled) and I'm literally being dragged to some place but I always get scared and fight my way back to my body. If anyone understands this phenomena please feel free to enlighten me. Anyway Lucy, always humble and always grateful.

Saddest Dream Ever.

Earthquake in Vatican city. I felt the strongest vibrations and then I saw an earthquake in Vatican City. I was in the Sistine Chapel as I looked up at the beautiful artwork of Michelangelo crumble to the floor. Forever lost and turning into dust, I cried out to Jesus and wept for the horrific loss of one of the greatest accomplishments by man of irreplaceable art .

Looking for my dream buddy:

Just coming out of my meditative state...it was beautiful. Don't know if I got anything right, but this is what I saw.
1. flowers blooming outside in the dirt (red) coming up from the ground
2. Then the red flowers either died or went away and dirt (the earth) was uncovered to reveal a face of a buddha or Egyptian mask or just a plain mask or face???
3. I kept hearing music playing, like there was a band. Do you play in a band?
4. Light beam was around me
5. a light colored house. This all happened in the front yard of a light colored house.

I can't remember anything, but I called out for Xanous and I heard a voice, but the music was so loud. All of this happened during my meditative WILD. I did not see our target, but this is what happened when I asked to see the target...in that order.

Lucy, you did it again! I got another DILD this morning! I was dreaming that I was driving this car...it was such a beautiful scenery. Then, I approach this very steep hill and I thought to myself, "There is no way possible I will live if I go down that hill...this has got o be a dream!" For a split second, I thought about me driving down that hill, but I thought, "What if you go down that hill and die?" Don't try that as a reality check! I did my levitation RC instead and levitated and then like magic, everything stopped and I was lucid. I felt the vibrations and just laid there waiting to pop out but I never did. I could see my room through my closed eyelids so I concentrated on my third eye and the vibes came back, but I just couldn't wiggle out...sigh. Oh well, keep them coming Lucy!

NOTE TO SELF: What I should have realized was that I was already 'out' and just changed the dream scene

Ok guys I need your help...I don't know what I did or what this counts as...

Went to bed earlier than usual (before 12:00am) and I had intentions all day to make sure to keep the TOTM on my mind. After about 5 good hours of sleep, I did a WBTB. I keep up with my mantra (I lucid dream) then every now and then I would add (I walk and fly backwards). Somewhere within the nodding in and out of NL's, I recall being lucid and I told myself don't forget to walk backwards. I did walk backwards and then for a second I stopped and told myself, "Not like that!" BTW, I have no idea why I said that. Then I kinda 'skated' backwards (like on an escalator going backwards) when I was telling myself to fly. Then all of a sudden I lost Lucy and found some guy telling me he was going to marry me and I involuntarily went with the non-lucid

So...I have no idea what this counts for (if it counts at all ).

Just trying to be honest because being an honest person has always had a lot to do with me being lucid or not.

Even if this doesn't count, I am still willing to keep trying because my stability sucks lately. One Love.

Date: 12/16/2013
Method: MILD & WBTB (Successful WILD!)
Total Sleep Time: Almost 7 hours

I did a WBTB around 7:30am because I had an appointment with the exterminator coming at 8:00am. It only took the exterminator around 15minutes for him to do what he needed to do and I was back in my bed around 8:25am. I had been telling myself since yesterday that I was going to WILD AND be successful at it. Before my WBTB, I had actually gotten close to 7 hours of sleep. I realize the more I sleep, the more successful I am at WILDing. In my mind while I lay there I told myself to stay AWARE and not AWAKE. It may have taken me thirty minutes for my body to get relaxed, but soon after that I felt my body kind of ‘drop’ and the vibrations soon followed.

I felt myself holding on for dear life as the vibrations where stronger than ever and soon…I was ‘out.’ I did a quick RC of levitation and it worked. I recalled going through my bedroom wall (which is not too hard because my bed is right next to it) and I ended up ‘somewhere’ (very dark place and I don’t really know where I was). I then recalled I had a few task to do and for the life of me…I couldn’t remember the TOTM. I decided to concentrate by looking at my hands and things became clear. I was in some type of room that had a tree growing in the middle of it. The tree was strange…it was a tree that bore fruit AND vegetables (???). I distinctly recall me saying that the tree had watermelons, cantaloupes, and cucumbers growing from it. I looked up to the highest limbs on the tree and sure enough…there was all the fruit and veggies growing. I decided that since I can clearly see to fly at super speed and I raised my arm up like superman and took off! Everything was going past me a warped speed and I saw the brightest stars in the universe flash past me. I felt almost nauseated from the speed (in real life, I suffer from extreme motion sickness) and I guess that is what made me feel my real body and before I knew it…I was back in my body breathing heavy like I just ran a race.

To my higher power and Lucy…thanks.

COPY FROM WORKBOOK Date: 11/30/2013 (Afternoon Nap)
Method: WILD & DEILD

I recall I was watching TV and I was so sleepy I couldn't hold my eyes open...I have been on a 'marathon eating fest' and I needed a nap something terrible. I closed my eyes for a few seconds and I started seeing HI. I recall right before my nap I was watching the movie "The Jungle Book" and the HI I was watching were of some animals playing in the jungle...wolves to be exact.

I said to myself, "Is it possible for me to be so close to sleep already ?" I decided to do a reality check of levitation and sure enough...I levitated and I knew I was dreaming. For some reason, my control was really weak and I just kinda flopped around like a wet dish rag. I ended up in my physical body and I DEILD my way back out again. I decided to go on an adventure to my son's room to see what he was doing (he is home from college and he was the only other person home with me when I decided to take a nap). I recall seeing 'someone' laying in the bed watching TV, but the room really looked different. The bed was in the wrong location and instead of being a queen size bed, it looked like a big recliner. This freaked me out and I ended up back in my physical body again. I waited to DEILD and I was back out. I decided this time to practice my summoning technique (which I suck at). I thought of the person I wanted to see and to my surprise I couldn't think of that person's name..sigh . In RL, I know this person like I know my own child, so why can't I think of that person's name? Because of this, I became frustrated . I do recall when I was thinking about that person, an invisible wind tossed me around the room and I woke up.

Note to self: Every lucid exercise is an opportunity to learn whether it is a success or not. Also, STOP GETTING FRUSTRATED!

Date: September 4, 2013
Technique: MILD & WBTB (WILD Successful! DEILD x 2)
Sleep time: 8 1/2 hours

I was able to go right into a WILD from my WBTB this morning. This has never been this easy before and I really don’t know what I did for this to happen because it happened so fast. It may have been from what I read from GAB the previous night on DV (how she waits for a dream to form right in front of her and then she takes a leap into it).

Let’s get to the good stuff!

I saw myself in a dreamlet in a classroom and I was talking to an old friend and I mentally told myself it was time to go (jump into the dream). I felt myself entering the dream so I held steady as the vibrations gave me my warning that it was time. I did a quick RC of levitation (it worked) and I was on my way! I had told myself that I was going to start with the easiest task (for me, it was singing the ABC song for the TOTM), but I wanted to do it while climbing up the wall. I started off trying to keep the dream vivid by rubbing my hands across the wall for stabilization (almost like in a crawling motion). Then, I started singing the song and going up the wall, but I kept sliding down the wall! I finished the ABC song, but still could not get my feet to stick to that damn wall! So I tried again, this time while singing the ABC song I found myself on the other end of my room and instead of going up the wall, I was going up my bathroom door (but still not able to quite stick it.) Instead, I ended up going through the bathroom door ! I gave up and felt myself losing control and I ended up back inside my body. I was able to DEILD out because I was not going to let lucidity get away from me…I had so many other tasks to complete, but that damn wall was still calling me! I decided to forget about singing (already done that…twice) and concentrate on sticking to the wall. I deciding to take off running (I wanted to run up the wall and across the ceiling), but when I did, (can’t quite remember here) I believe I found myself hanging to the top of my bathroom door . So, I had to take the wall and ceiling task as a lost…for now!

I was able to still maintain the vibrations once I ended up back in my body, so I DEILD myself back out of my body and decided to be adventurous. I decided to go outside, so I flew through a window and landed in the front yard. I saw children playing and somehow got wrapped up in what they were doing and lost control of the dream and briefly woke back up. My mentality can only maintain so much, so I gave up for the remaining of the morning and grabbed my DJ and wrote everything down!

All in all, I couldn’t be more proud of myself...I was able to WILD after a WBTB in the morning and complete the TOTM! Yeah! Like I stated earlier, I have done it before, but never was it this smooth.

Thanks GAB!

Fragment:

My son had aged into an old blue eyed fair skinned man with a huge hole in the top of his head.

(COPIED FROM WORKBOOK)
Date: August 6, 2013
Method: WBTB & MILD (WILD)
Total hours of sleep time: 6 hours (WBTB 1 hour)

Well, I have a lot to talk about so let's get to the good stuff!

I went to bed at my usual time of 12:00am and I have to get up to fix breakfast and wake the kids. After getting everything done and the last child out of the house, I looked at the clock frustrated because I just knew I couldn't count this as a good WBTB method. According to what I have read on DV, I should not do to much activity during WBTB and I should try to be silent and keep the lights dim. Well, with this being the first week of school, this morning my house was grand central station ! I was up cooking, waking up people, shouting that the bus was coming and every damn thing...sigh!


When everyone was out the door, I looked at the clock and realized a whole hour had passed. As I turned off the lights and got back in the bed, I said to myself, "You have done far to much to count this as a WBTB, no way are you going to become lucid now...chalk this up as another loss." However, my inner self told me to continue to say my mantra and just get a few minutes of sleep (It was 7:11am and I had to be up in an hour to get ready for work).

This is when the magic happened!

It seemed like mere seconds before I noticed that I was standing in front of my door screaming at my kids telling them the bus was coming. I had my hand on the couch which is in the living room by the front door, but I noticed that the couch was in a different position on the other side of the living room. Instinct (and I mean pure instinct) prompted me to do a RC. I told myself to levitate...AND I DID!!! That's when I felt the vibrations, and I knew I was lucid! I'm am not good at my dream control, so I told myself to calm down and the next thing I knew, I was back in my bed. I stayed still and played sleep and like magic again...I was back in the living room! "Oh GOD, please tell me what to do!" I thought as I just floated there. I remembered that I wanted to gain some dream control so I started to touch the living room wall by the front door. As I was looking at the wall and the front door, I thought it would be fun to see if I can go through the wall...AND I DID!!! As I was going through the wall, I'm not 100% sure, but I think I saw like lights? sparks? flashes? Hard to explain, but also, as I want through the wall, it felt gooey . I did come out on the other side of the wall to my front yard and then I faded to the dark again and was back in my bed.

Well, you know my method for this by now DV, I laid still in my bed and DEILD my way back out of myself. This time, I was in a different scenery, but it was still my house. Everything was not quite right, so I knew I had to do something, or I would be back in my physical body again. So I'm standing there and my husband is just looking at me. He says, "Aren't you suppose to do something?" I look at him strangely, but for the life of me I couldn't think of what I was suppose to do (once I woke up, I realized for the TOTM, I was suppose to ask a DC what is the meaning of life? )! I stood there wondering what my husband was talking about and I realized I was losing my lucidity by getting wrapped up in my husband, so immediately, I refocused my attention on getting out of there! For some strange reason, one thing I can always remember is trying to teleport to Egypt and that is exactly what I tried to do.

Canis Lucidis told me to close my eyes and imagine Egypt down to the very last detail. I closed my eyes (tight) and kept thinking about how Egypt looked with the pyramids and the sand (kinda how it looks when I watch the Discovery Channel or National Geographic). I kept repeating these images in my mind and then I began to hear music, or people singing (this isn't the first time I have heard beautiful music while lucid, but every time I wake up, I can't remember the music or the songs)? Slowly I open my eyes and the first thing I see (hard to explain) is like a wavy image (you know how you look in the distance and it is really hot and you can see the heat waves?). The image clears up and I hear people say that Pharoh is a crook. I look down and a child is telling me to follow him (he looks like my God son in RL, but now he is my God son in Ancient times, his clothes are rags also). So I follow him. He stops by men that are working and building something and they are wearing tattered clothes and they look like prisoners. One of them looks like he is eating something and he gives him some of his sandwich to eat and the child says thank you. When the child let go of my hand to get the sandwich (I saw bread and meat, so to me, it's a sandwich), a new scene in front of me appears. I look back at the child who is running toward me and I start to walk toward the new scene, but the closer I got to the scene the more the scene moved further away. I guess I began to get too tired of what I just went through, because I faded to the black and opened my eyes to see my clock on my nightstand...7:46am.

I got up and lunged for my journal and wrote down all that I could remember. I have no idea why I am able to WILD in three's, but by the third one, my mental energy is shot!

A Special Thank you

To Canis Lucidis,
Thanks for sending me to Egypt, you (along with all the other facilitators, moderators, members, and friends) are appreciated.

Date: July 24, 2013
Method: MILD & WBTB with WILD
Total Sleep Time: 8-9 hours

Dream #1

Well, I went to bed extremely sleepy, so sleepy, I broke a record by going to bed before midnight! I kept waking up in the middle of night, I guess because I went to bed so early, I kept thinking it was time to get up. I would use the bathroom and every time I would get back to bed, I would say my mantra and try my best to stay awake. Sometimes, I would go to sleep, but I would be back up in a couple of hours doing the same thing all over again. (that's just how my body works, I naturally wake up in the middle of night). Well, by the third time, in the middle of a dream, I felt my vibrations and I became lucid. I was in what looked like a hotel and I was talking to someone at the front desk. I couldn't get over how the person didn't really look like a human to me (and I can't explain what he looked like either). Somehow, my super lucid senses kicked in and I heard a voice in my head say, "Stop staring and hug the damn thing...NOW!" I flew over that counter and wrapped my arms around that 'thing' and held on for dear life! After what seemed a few minutes, I let go (I guess I thought if I didn't hold on long enough the thing would vanish or evaporate). I was so scared, but I had to wait for the reaction, so I just stood there ready to be vaporized or punched in the face by that thing, but instead, it just smiled at me. I lost lucidity soon after that, but when I woke up, I wrote down the little bit I retained and laid back down trying to see if I could continue, but I think the excitement messed that up for me. I was so excited! I don't know where that voice came from that told me to hug that thing, but THANK YOU!

Dream #2

I laid back down and repeated my mantra and went back to sleep and had a non-lucid, but it was very vivid. I was in an elevator and it kept going up and down without stopping. The other DC in the elevator told me that it must be broken and soon I began to freak out. I suffer from extreme motion sickness in WL, so I guess this followed me into my dream world, so I felt my stomach start to bubble and boil..I was getting ready to hurl. The DC started moving around trying to push the buttons on the elevator and calling for help and finally, the elevator stopped. When the doors of the elevator opened, I fell out the doors like a puddle of liquid and the other DCs just stepped over me to go on their merry way. I felt like I was still in a hotel because I went up to my room and I found several people sleeping as I tried to tell them what had just happened to me. They didn't want to hear it because they were asleep and one of them told me to shut up and go to sleep! So...that is exactly what I tried to do...until I saw a live turtle stuck to my shirt !

Date: May 29, 2013
Method: Nothing, my goal was to just go to bed without trying for anything but ended up with a DILD (why is it when you don't give a damn, something happens?).
Sleep Time: Can't remember but I believe I had gotten around 7-8 hours of sleep.

Dream

Dreamed I was trying on Christmas costumes (Santa costume, then an Elf) and I knew that this had to be a dream...suddenly, I felt strong vibrations with every step I took (within the dream) and suddenly, I was at my bedside. I can't remember what happened because it felt like I was fading to the black, so I tried to control the dream by rubbing my hands together. This helped me and I remember having the strong vibrations again and I was standing in the door of my bedroom (for some reason, when I become Lucid, I can feel vibrations and I am always back in my bedroom). For a second, I told myself to control my emotions and not get excited or I would wind back up in my body...as soon as I said this, I was back in my body . As soon as I woke up, I wrote everything down in my dream journal so I wouldn't forget and went back to bed...oh well, at least I was lucid!