lucid

i am in my home, in the TV room, i don't remember when i got lucid but i am standing on my balcony with semi conscious mind, i wanted to jump so i jumped but as soon as i hit the ground i woke up, i then immediately closed my eyes and i am now back in the dream lucid, i found my self lying on the carpet i got up and head to the balcony again i crossed the safety grill but at the moment I really feel doing a reality check, i wanted to be sure that i am dreaming so i came back in the room and double looked the wall clock, the time changed on the second look so i confirmed my dreaming state, i again head to the balcony, i am three stories up, i am looking down at the road it is dark out side, the street is lonely and i am thinking of free falling but i am afraid even though i know that this is just a dream but the thrill is soo real that i am having difficulty is deciding to jump, then i abandoned free falling idea and thought of floating down but then the dream faded and i woke up..