Enigma573

Okay. I want to share this dream. I had it approximately in. May 2011. In this dream I actually have birth - the first & only time I dreampt this. I remembered the dream SO well! I submitted it to another DA site who never responded, but I hour an initial email back saying they received my submission. I kept that email, that contained a copy of my dream submission, all this time. Here goes: (mind you, this was 2 yrs ago)
Ok. I had a dream that I was in labor. I dont recall anybody specifically being present while in labor except for nameless hospital staff. But there was an old woman in the bed with me. I was side lying and she was like, spooning me, in an effort to help with the labor/delivery. It was definitely an awkward feeling for me, but it didnt seem grossly inappropriate for her to be there. I dont know who thiswoman was. I delivered a boy and i was soooo happy. I said, " I finally have a Christopher!" I was trying to figure how i could put my grandfathers name, Harvey, somewhere in there. See, my grandfather has 21 great-grandchildren, but passed before he could even see the first one. after a while, i felt pressure "down there" and i thought i had to "go", but it was another child - a girl! (Mind you, the old womans still there)She was smaller than the boy, but both were healthy. The best adjective i can use for the way i felt was bewildered. But i accepted the situation and was just as happy. I accepted both as mine, but not that they were twins. I was trying to figure out how i got "with child and delivered so soon after giving birth to the boy". I know in the real world it would be obvious, but this was a dream. I did eventually accept that I had had twins. I sent a mobile pic to my sister and she said, " now that's best news i've heard for a while". I also could not figure out what to name the girl.The old woman just kind of disapeared out of the dream after i had the girl. Never knew her name, never saw her face, she really never said a word. On a personal note, I have 7 children; 4 boys, 3 girls. No twins, no miscarriages and my tubes are tied. What stands out to me in this dream was how happy I was.

Associations

Being in labor, although painful, was always a time of great expectation for me. Excited. I was blessed to have had good labors/deliveries with all of my children. There was noone in the dream except the old lady and my sister. I dont know who the old lady was. I am black and for some reason I know the old woman was black. While i have a great respect for all elders, it runs deep for older african-american women. I love the wisdom that they have to offer. The spooning was really uncomfortable for me. I am a modest person and there was no room between our bodies, but for some reason i knew her being there was somehow beneficial. Somehow i also know she had on a blue dress. I like blue, but green is my favorite color. I have a very natural, easy connection with my boys. Which is why i was so ecstatic when the boy was born. I love my girls, who are 12, 9 & 5 however, girls are a little more complicated and i've had to learn how to relate to them. My sister.....im the oldest, she's the 2nd oldest. She comes off like a bear, but i know her better than anyone, and she's very sensitive and craves attention/approval. i'm very protective of her. I also have to let her know when she's going too far left (as she often does) yet in a passive way because that's my nature and that's the way i have to handle things with her.(she's a scorpio, im a taurus and things have the potential to get uuuuugly) She still doesnt realize that she's not as fierce as she thinks she is. We are close. I forgot to mention my step-father who my mother divorced 21 yrs ago, but he was the only dad i knew for 10 years. We had an awful relationship, i could not stand him. But now that im older i understand things a little better, and realize he did the best HE could do. He had a small part in the dream. I went to him to find out how i could have had the girl sooo soon after the boy, when i was still in denial that i'd actually had twins. There was nothing significant about the hospital room i was in, no bad vibes, no good vibes. I was comfortable though. The name Christopher is just a name i always wanted to name one of my boys, but never got to. It's also a male version of my name, Christiana. My grandfather died when i was 16. I'm a nurse and have seen alot of arthritis but he had the WORST ARTHRITIS that i've ever seen. But he was never idle. He traveled, drove hisself to church. He was a good man, but i think like made him a little bitter. His temper could be explosive, this was only every blue moon and he was never abusive. We didnt have a close relationship, but I knew he loved me. When i think of him, i feel kind of sad. I kind of feel life dealt him a bad hand. He was very intelligent and wanted to go to college. But his step-mother wouldnt let him stay home rent free while he went to school. He couldnt afford that and pay for school so he joined the Army. He served in at least 2 wars, including 2 tours in vietnam. They believed it was the agent orange that caused the arthritis. My grandmother was not the most loving, understanding person.....very hard to live with if you ask me. And on and on, but he never felt sorry for himself. His perseverence stands out to me. i'm indifferent to the idea of twins......

About You

im a black female, 38 yrs old. married for 13 yrs., 7 children aged: 20, 18, 14, 13, 12, 9, 5. I am a true taurus. Most ppl would say that im quiet. I've also heard that i'm a sweet person. Some adjectives that have been used to describe me: weird, unique, different, withdrawn, sweet, insightful, fair . Some have told me that i'm very intelligent, while others have outright told me that i was slow...go figure. Oh, and stubborn....that's a constant. I dont see myself as "sweet", but I know that i have more compassion than the average person. I think i'm of average intelligence and I am slow to understand, but it's my determination to understand and do well that makes others think that I'm "smart". I am insightful, I've always looked deeper. I dont understand shallow thinkers.....why think at all??? I am definitely fair, nothing I hate more than an unbalanced scale. I am not stubborn. I LOVE beautiful things, be it people, clothing, home decor, sunsets, jewelry, mountain ranges, trees, pictures. I LOVE comfort, I LOVE my kids. Much of my interest lies in my spiritual growth. I like to learn about medical advances, different medical conditions, medical discoveries. Things about the universe, any information about the cosmos. And history, especially black history, mainly because you don't get very good information in school. Right now i'm trying to balance working, raising respectful children with standards and a marriage. I could always do better, but things are okay. Some times I feel as though things are balancing on a cliff and could just fall through at any time. I have realized that I no longer know how to loosen up and have fun, but I think staying afloat financially and raising these children, among other things, are too crucial of issues to "loosen" up. My dream is to have a business of my own, dont know what kind. Been looking at a cleaning business or personal care home. I want this because I could schedule my work around my family needs and make good money doing it. I know I can do it, but at the same time I'm lacking confidence in myself (if that makes any sense) & in how well the business might do-- as well as start up money.

Good evening.
I am needing help with 2 recurring dreams that have been going on for the past 3-5 years.
The first one is a recurring dream rthat I am pregnant. I am ecstatic, but as time progresses I realize that I have not gone into labor & that giving birth is not in the near future although I've carried the baby to term. in short, I never have the child. I cannot provide alot of detail as I've had this dream sooo many times. The setting or ppl may change on the dream but the situation is always the same. A little before I started having these dreams, I would have the reoccurring dream that I had a child that i'd just simply forgotten about. my other children would be in the dream which I was aware of, then out would hit me like a ton of bricks that I had another child. it would scare the daylights out of me & I'd frantically try to find the child (which I usually did, the child was usually an infant & would be mildly malnourished). And oddly enough, years before that I had an isolated dream that I was walking with two children.....they were completely black (not race wise but like charcoal), shriveled with no facial features at all. I don't relate any of these dreams to pregnancy our mothering issues because I've been pregnant 7 times, had 7 live births & my children are happy, healthy & well taken care of. I've been so lengthy so I'll save the other recurring dream for another time. Any feedback would be greatly appreciated!!