non-lucid

Today is the first day I started wondering if I could explore my dreamworld, and use it to realize my deepest feelings and to accomplish my best wishes. All of this happened with a vaguely remembered dream from last night that I think was very weird but interesting. I only remember few details, I think it's because I don't have so much training like you guys, but I did my best to remember it.

Suddenly I was in my house, in my homeland (far from I am today), standing in "my" room looking at a forgotten friend, somebody that I really know but because of life issues and mistakes I made we had to separate from each other. She... was somehow standing at the window, watching the street. Then I heard somebody to say "Be careful, you will fall off". Immediately I thought it was impossible because the window blinds are separated by three inches and no one can fit and pass through it. But it happened... I vaguely remember her body (specially her legs), moving like falling from a balcony through the window. I started to feel that sensation of problems and stress and bad thoughts about the girl. I run to the balcony to see what happened, she was hanging from an edge beneath the window... I run to safe her, but something stopped me: WITHOUT SHOES?? "What did I care about it?" I thought later, but in the dream that was SOMETHING THAT I HAD TO WEAR...

Next time I was in the street, looking (just knowing that it was there, without details and blurring) at her dead body, and someone (I knew he was my little brother but don't really remember his face) said "She broke her back..." A jump again to something like a little grave made of rocks with her dead body in there just at the same place of her death. I remember me feeling so sad and stressed, I wasn't aware that I was dreaming at ANY MOMENT...

The dream slowly diffused in my recalls as I later talk with my mom about calling my friend's mom at a neighbor's house.

I tried to find some specific symbols to this dream but I don't really find something interesting, maybe if someone can tell me his/her interpretation... I would really appreciate it... It was everything make up from my subconscious, I wasn't lucid...