Geves

6-11-06

I had some dreams. But for the most part i think they were exactly the same as the night before. to be honest, i don't remember ANYTHING about them.

Meditation I tried to start meditating but i was way too tired and i ended up falling asleep. maybe i should start doing meditation in lotus or half lotus because, laying down makes it too easy for me to fall asleep.

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06-12-06 Last nights dream, was less of a dream and more of a social gathering. Almost all of my old friends were there. It was quite vivid. Not really intense. But there were lots of emotions in the dream. That i can't really remember or can't express. I'm not even sure if i knew what exactly was happening while i was dreaming. Also in the dream i had long hair again. Which is strange because to me it feels like my subconscious was trying to recall the "good old days" but it couldn't remember the hard facts. so it was kind of confusing. When i awoke i recall thinking that i had long hair again... I'm sure everyone experiences this in some form or another. Where a dream is so vivid that it fools your mind into KNOWING that the things in the dream were real.

It seems I'm having trouble recently in recalling my dreams. i can only point out vague clues as to what happened. but while I'm dreaming it seems that i'm constantly reminding myself (in dream) to remember what's happening. but when i wake up, i remember...well...clues.

oh well, it seems that's a good start. at least i seem to be trying to remember what's happening in my dreams. only time will tell i guess.

Meditation I didn't meditate today or the day before. i couldn't find my self anytime to calm my self down. with all the work I've been doing the last few weeks. After i quit working and relaxed for awhile, i find myself wipped. missing a few days never hurt anyone. But i can not make a habit of this.