kindran

I found myself in a large house, within there was a party going on. the party was organised by a friend, she had two more sisters, they where also there. we made a mess aut of the house, and i cleaned it up, because, i thought it is just too wild. her mother was also there, and i felt ambivalent towards her, i did not know if she is just a ritch bitch or if she is a nice understandig women.

then there where a lot of friezers in the bedroom of my friend. i told them, that they better watch out, if there is a war comming, people will come to get that stuff

then i was with rut in bed, we sturted making love,softlyand relaxed, a friend of mine was watching us, and i thought he will eventually go away, so i did not say anything. and he went after a while.

A big room, like a theather, or a music hool, i should play in an band, and we wanted to play something funky, but then on of the members played something out of a cd or so, and we did not mine until people came in, which could recognise if we are playing real or not

A staircase, i watched a friend, she was running up and down the stairs, she had an sm outfit on, some mask, and some big attechd thing on her tits, at the same time, i sad to rut (or was it another girld) that she should watch rut while she's running up and down, she should go before her, so she is able to see her face, as for my, i knew, that the scenerie is oddly made up, like a movie, so i thought there are always some cuts, and rut is running up and down, but in the end its just cut that way, so i can stay above, and watch while they are running. however, in the next scene, they - now there was also a man with my friend and also in an sm outfit, with mask and all that stuff - went into an elevator, it was reminiscent of an shoping center elevator, in that elevator, there were some kids, i thing four, or five, and i knew they had planned the hole thing with the internet, they sturted to do some session with my two friends, they began to give orders and stuff, but then rut (and i) realized that they where only kids, and they stoppt following there orders. the kids were a bit disappointed about the direction things were going, but we did not take them seriously, and as we were going, i sad to them, that it was alright to try those things, some sm and stuff, but they should also try some real, organig fucking, with there hips going up and down

I was in India, lost the people with whom i traveled. Found them again, showed them some pictures on which i saw myself making yoga while my trousers dont fit and one could almost see my dig. fuck... there was more and more but it can't remember.....

I was on a river shore with some other people, i was searching something, and i found an animal building directly on the shore, as i fumbled around on it, stones and two symbols came out, the symbols looked like some ancient art, and i wondert what it is, than it hit me, and i knew, that those are some kind of fertility symbols, i fumbled more, and a lot of those small pices oft art were falling out of the holes, someone told me, that the ancient zivilisation must have had hidden them there, so noone will finde it. i wanted to hide the pices, so not everybody could get them. but that feeling was not too intensive. my mother was also there, she took a swim in the river, and told me, that it was pritty cold, i wonderd shortly about that.

With some people i tried to move along some raile road tracks, but we moved in a sysem simular to a skilift, were you have to hold on to a kind of a stick which is attached to a rope, which is linked to the cable car. we had to hold us on those sticks, and we did pritty good, but then a difficult passage came, and the rope of my stick was not really strong enough, i worried that it might snatch and then i would fall down. so we were thinkering about to make it stable.

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i sat in the flat of a friend (a girl) i was waiting for her, so i think, i started to watch so porn of hers, not with her inside, but one which she had on her computer. it was kind of strange, a kind of bdsm porn, but in a weird way. in one scene, for example, a man in a car splashed some whater on a women walking on the sidewalk. however, i always had to close the porn because i though that someone came in and also, i wanted to watch my one porn. i was really aroused. then she came home and showed me a dress on her, and the dress was liftet so i could see her but, it was nice, i really wanted her.
in between i woke up frequently, and i thought about sex and arousal

The scenery was a bit rural... i met a fat girl and i had to go with her somewhere... she asked me, if i would like to go the "love way" i did not no wont she ment, but i though, why not... for that way, we had to climb down a ladder, we fell and landed into a bunch of sheeps, actually a lot of sheeps... so we did not hurt us. It was a kind of animal farm, everywhere where sheeps and as i explored it, i found a guy sitting behind a desk, the scene remindet me of a tinker sitting in his garage. he sad something to me: i should get an eye operation, so i would see better, i was not sure if i wont that, he sad i should turn around, and there was the black cat, trying to light the ofen or something, as i turned back back i saw a black man on the floor in the door case, he obvious, that he tryed the operation but something went wrong, he was not able to get the benefits, so i got more and more unsure, but the guy forced my and gave something in my eyes


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I met miland and vlasta. As i came into there flat, i hat to be carefull... rut told me, that they covered all the bookshelves with paper, so the dust would stay off.

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dreamed about our vacuum cleaner, a cleaning the bathtub withit, and i tryed to suck a lot of water into it. i mage the comperisson between an impotent man and an not impotent man through letting the aire out so the vacuum cleaner hat not much power to suck everything in, and letting the vacuum build up on the sucking entry, so it would suck everything in.

I was i some place, inside a house, outside was war, or perhaps something in that vane, i sad to my companion, that i had to meet my brother (i colled him before), i told them, that he could held us with his skills. than i looked at the clock, and saw that it was already ten o'clock and i was supposed to meet him at nine in Liesing. i could not call him for some reason...

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Driving down in a buss, where i used to live. I get out, to look at a restaurant which obviously had opend in a home for handicapt people. i went into that restaurant and in seemd somehow suspicious, there was a tank with a lot of fish, i somehow landed in it and i swam with the fishs, i saw some of them die, actually there where two tanks. and then there where small whales, i thought, they caught them unintentional, and they had no use for them, i felt really bad for them, because they semmed to suffer here.
then i got some food from the restaurant, but i did not pay for it, i thought about the not paying, but i thought the make enought mony, so i drove with the plate in the buss.