I walked around with rut, in a house, it appeard abandon, we found a smal room, with stairs, pritti steep, i or she wanted to look if there is something to find... / she explains to my whay it as, that we cant be together, a lot of reasons, i remember that it was something about money... and she also sad things, which i did not agree with, so i told her.... ---- i laying in a bed, with a jeune girl, her parents where in the other room, she wanted to make love to me, it was in the morning, i knew, i would come right away, so i wanted to kiss her, i really liked her, then her parrents called, she wanted to go away with me, but her parents didn't allow that, for me, that caused no problem, but she was a bit pissed, finally it was o.k, so i think
I'm in a hotelroom, with christian and his girl, we order some soup, i sit on the flore, and i spill a bit of the soup over the table... I should join some people, they have some kind of a project, a kind of organisation, it is a bit difficult to get there, but i do it anywai... it is a big meeting house, with lots of rooms and so on... i join the new-meeting-room or so, where people get an introduction, then they ask the question, it we play with butterflies, and i look at my knee, there is a scare fresh scar on my knee, i say, that the butteflies plays sometimes with that, and then i look down on me leg, and there is a even bigger wound/scar, i sturt tu open it again, and a lot of peaces come out, with meetlike something.... a guy is there, which starts also opening my wound, it gets pritty messiy, it everything has a bit of a corn-structure... then, i think a women, said, that we should stop opening the wound...
I had to write an exame, but some people distracted me with noise, some arabian people... also, the room i was in, was a bit strange, not much furniture, just some folding screens... a girl / woman was also there, she had an indian/arabic look i sat around, actually i eat some ice, to be exact, i eat the chocolate which was on the ice.... i thought, that that's not really good for me... then a black dog began to lick my face, because he liked the chocolate... it was o.k but i prefered that he stop
Inside a forest, some strange people near my, i have to go somwhere, but there is no urgency... he cant show me the way with his arms, or fingers, because he only can fight with them, it gets explained to me, that here, people are not used to have frindy conversations with outsiders, so the guy piks up a stik, which looks a bit like skeleton hand and shows me where i should go, i think he is very nice, we walk a bit together, but we do not speak with another, then there are bigger houses and stuff, he stays there, bathing in the sunlight, i think to myself, he probably does not get too much sun inside the forest, i like him in his way... ____ i'm lay in bed, next to me lays a nice black lady, i dont know her, she tells me here story about her job, she has worked for a lawyer, and she only could work for people the lawyer gave his permit... so he decided to go, work by herself, but the problem was, that this lawyer did not gave her a some papper which she needet, so she had to pay 2.000 or 20.000 dollar... obviously it was no problem for her to do that, then, out of the blue starts carresing me in a very nice way, at first, i'm irritated, but then - it feels so good, nice and warm - i go along, take some cloth off, she likes it, i remember i had a shawl around my face, it thought about it... then there where other people in the room, i whispered to her, that i would like to screem, that we will fuck now, she smiled....
In a care, a big one, for some kind of expedition, with heavy bumper bars... im sitting inside, with some other guys and the care is inside a big cage or something and inside this cage is another cage with some big, very human like apes. one comes out, a child of a big one, and i'm outside, i trie to stay calm, i know, or i believe, that they can get quite agressive and i really dont wont to mess with them. after some time, the mother ape, or father comes out, we stay cool with each other, then the parrent, tells me something, and he greats me with heil hitler, and walks away... / im in the same care, its parked on a ascending street, i'm on the passenger seat, i want to start the care, but its difficult, i get into the driver seat, start again and its working but i roll somewhow backwars, its difficult for me to pull the breacks, but i do it somehow.. i think ____ rut and i are in a bed with a therapist, rut sets herself up, and apparently has something to say to, she tells her storry beside the therapist, it seems, it is something important, something falls up from her, and we are good again with each other, she wants to go into the sunlight, then we lay toughether in bed, kissing each other in a very nice way, beeing in liking each other ___ im in the the practice of roman, two younger girls sitting there, talking about there hairstyl.. and that they want to drim trim them, i recomend romans skill but they seem not so sure, i don't know if i should advertise him or not, because actually i don't care to much if they cut there hair with roman or not, just making suggestions... then roman comes, and he starts hoover the room..
Somewhere i had to ski, but just with one ski, so i was riding down the hill/mountain with one leg, partial it was easy but on some spots it got really difficult not to crash, but i did it, i didn't hurt myself. rosi was there and we spoke about my skiing.... in some kind of a garden, there where 3 or four plants in plantpots... i had to water them, with an electric water pump, it was not that easy, because the hose was not long enought, so i had had to shoot the water to some of the plants and i could not see exactly, how much water the plants needed...