Fragment of Dreams
Ive been taking Silene Capensis for 3 days now. One of the things that I have read about it is that you should do whilst taking it is try to think of a question where you would like guidance in your life, and the answer will come to you in a dream. Me being 27 and bumming round in jobs that I hate, my question to the dream-spirits has been "What should I do with my life?"...because i still have no idea! Well, I think my dream recall is definitely improving. I seemed to have lots of dreams last night that were vivid. Was this due to the silene capensis? I am not sure. I wish I had wrote them down during the night, but they were vivid enough for me to think "I will definately remember this!" Except by now, I can only remember snippets:- Dream 1: I am a rich and successful man. I am wearing a suit and I can buy pretty much anything I want in life. How got to be rich... either I can't remember or it was not explained. Dream 2: On a submarine...? Or inside some kind of metal tank with other people. No idea what this was.... Just the tiniest fragment, but I know it was a long dream. I shoudl have wrote it down! Dream 3: I am playing Fallout 3 whilst my girlfriend watches. She is unimpressed with the storyline. I describe to her how I love the way the civilisation is existing right on the cusp of life and death. I am sure I had more dreams too, but i cannot recall them right now.
Just a fragment from last night. A dream character asking me over and over "Are you dead?" Each time I answered "No, I am not dead" he would ask the same question. I woke up with the question ringing in my ears.
Lots of insomnia and broken sleep recently, so most of my dreams are fragmented and unformed. One image that sticks out was from a couple of nights ago. WhenI woke up I drew the image because it seemed significant somehow. It was of 4 hands gripping each others arm in a square formation, like in the picture. The hands were gripping nearer the elbow, so the square was wider, but this is the closest image I could find. Perhaps it has some kind of meaning?