lucidsoma

**Before sleeping I asked my spirit/dream guides to help me find him, but if they thought I wasn't ready, then to give me a dream that would make me ready**

I became lucid and saw lots of words, numbers and colours fading in and out; I tried to read them but couldn't. I realised that I was consciously observing my brain filtering out all the stuff I'd seen during the day, and started thinking about how amazing the brain is. Then for some reason I 'knew' that the brain was created by 'us', I mean us conscious beings, who are ancient and come from somewhere else, and we created the human body and the brain to experience something different, because we don't experience 'thought processes' in our natural (non-human) state, we are just consciousness. Then I just thought..wow

I zoomed out, and what I was seeing was on a computer screen. The room was dark, and one wall was mirror-tiled. I walked up and looked at myself, fully lucid.

I floated up and thought about something I read on dreamviews before I slept, that you can teleport by going through walls and thinking of where you want to go. I kept trying to go through, thinking I want to see 'Kenny' (the guy I've been dreaming about the past 15 years, who I've never met and have no clue who he is). It didn't work. Then I realised the room was fading; I tried rubbing my hands together as that usually makes everything more focused, but it didn't work. Neither did spinning. I knew that the only way I could stay lucid was to go through the wall. So I thought 'I want to go to Kenny's room' and jumped through.

For what seemed like forever, I saw bedroom after bedroom after bedroom. It felt like I was going through every bedroom from here to wherever he lives. Finally I thought 'this is ridiculous. Just show me where he is, now'. Suddenly a new dreamscape faded in. I was on a cruise ship, in a doorway; if you took one step up there were two rows of people lying on lounge chairs in an open area, if you took one step down you would be inside and there were two rows of people in sleeping bags.


I immediately started looking for him. There were a couple people with hair like him, but when I looked they were someone else. I asked for him by name, called out for him and asked around but nobody knew. I remembered a lucid dream I had a year or two ago where I found him by asking people based on his description instead of his name, so I tried that. A woman said she saw someone like that so I ran in the direction she told me. But it was the wrong guy (he was like 'how should I know?') I ran into a shower area where people were waiting to scuba dive, and I asked a diver what the name of the cruise ship was. I think I heard someone say 'Atlantean' or something but the diver looked at me like I was crazy. I tried to read the logo on his suit but couldn't make it out. Ran around calling out 'Kenny!' a few times but woke up.

** It was 9 am, I got up and had some fresh juice, made a cup of tea, but didn't have time to drink it because I realised I was too tired and had to go back to sleep. I should quickly mention how I had this lucid dream: I find what works best for me is to wake around 2:30, and stay awake until 5 - 7, then take GalantaMind (4mg) and immediately go back to sleep for a DILD. I slept again at 7 and I think it was a WILD though. **


Back to sleep, I hope the GalantaMind will still work, and I hope I can fall asleep properly. I ask my dream/spirit guides to help me back to sleep, and did some chakra meditation. I was asleep before I could finish the meditation.

I see a girl sitting on her bed. The image is static; I'm told she's Kenny's cousin, and that she's unavailable right now, but they have a cousin named 'Pinky' (I think) and he might be easier to get ahold of.

So suddenly, I'm back exactly where I started in the first cruise ship dream. Pinky is lying on the sleeping bag to my left. Now, I should have asked him where Kenny is, but although I was lucid, my emotions and frustration had gotten the better of me. I get on top of him and kiss him passionately. His energy is similar to Kenny's, and he seems to be the only 'real' person on this ship that I can find. His shirt is off and he sits up, we continue making out.

Then I realise someone's sitting on the floor in front of us, staring at us sarcastically. It's Robert Pattinson.

He says 'is this absolutely necessary?'
In a moment a realised this was a dream symbol. This guy was real; he sure as hell wasn't Pattinson - he looked a bit plastic - but this guy felt familiar. Maybe a dream guide? Maybe Kenny's dream guide? Anyway I could feel (telepathically perhaps?) that the message was 'why go for Jacob when Edward is the one' God that makes me sound like a Twihard - I swear I'm not, but I can't help how he appeared to me But I felt like I shouldn't get sidetracked when it's not leading me to my destiny, if that makes sense.

I grabbed him and took him somewhere Pinky couldn't hear us. I grab him by the lapels, stare straight into his eyes (the only non-plasticky thing about him) and say 'do you know how this feels? I'm looking all over the place for this guy, and I can't find him. I NEED A DISTRACTION.' I turn to look at Pinky; when I look back, 'Pattinson' is gone. So I go back and say 'come on Pinky, let's go'. I'm walking around trying to find a way to teleport out of there and find exactly where Kenny is, because he doesn't seem to be anywhere on the cruise ship. I wonder if I jump into the water it will lead me there. But I realise something's off. Although I'm fully lucid, the dreamscape feels different to other ones, it's like I can't manipulate it (maybe because I was in his dream and not mine?)

Then I wake up. I slept again for a little bit, and dreamt that someone told me that I need to practice awareness throughout the day, because if he looks for me he won't be able to find me if I'm not fully aware.