lvrfly

i've always wanted to go to new york, so this dream as me having mixed emotions. and on top of that, it was clear i was with a man. i can't recall who it was, but it felt like i've known him before. and he was nice to me. he made me laugh and vice versa. he drove and i was in the passenger seat. he waited and didn't say anything when i put on my shoes in the car. it's weird because the shoes i were putting on, actually hurt my feet in real life. (i wore them to a job interview, and by the end of it, my feet were aching), but in my dream. they fit perfectly. and i even asked myself why don't they hurt? we walked side by side, and dropped people off at their destination. this is a dream, so new york was literally across a few streets, bodied by a little water. i screamed joy when i saw the statue of liberty, and even pointed to show him. he didn't get mad. he didn't yell. he followed where my finger was pointing and laughed at my enthusiasm. he loved me, and i loved him too. this was for certain. we parked, and walked around new york streets. i saw a fire truck, with new york firemen perched outside of it, and i told him "i wanna take a picture", and i took out my cell and snapped a few shots. we walked up a few hills. the street signs were similiar to the ones around my neighborhood in los angeles; and i was excited to go back home and tell my grandma about it. prior to that, we were inside a cupcake shop, waiting for something. we were standing around waiting for something. i'm not sure what it was. we were just there.

but, i awoke about a few minutes ago, and i feel a certain way. at one point, i started to cry because i didn't know who the man was. if it was 2 of my exes that i'm in contact with, or just a random, great guy that happens to like me. i know for sure in my dream i wasn't big. my weight was just correct. i have so many answers, but i don't know where to start.