lucid

after about a week of trying, I had my first dose of lucidity yesterday night
But still got a long way to go to perfect it!

I was having this long and vivid non-lucid dream. There was this huge function at my old school, sort of looked like a graduation ceremony. I saw a few of my friends there, and some friends from college, who hadnt studied at my school.. but nothing struck as unusual.

I was in this lobby, and suddenly I saw my ex-girlfriend walkin in the front door.
Our relationship had ended somewhat tumultously, so I didn't wanna run into her.. So I walked on in the lobby and see an elevator and walk into it. But dammit she also manages to get in and we see each other, and we both smile.
and at that moment I notice how beautiful she looked. Trust me, she looked more heavenly than ever, and the dream was so vivid I can still recall that face.

Anyway, at this moment I became lucid, dont exactly remember how.. I was looking into her beautiful face and I was thinking "God! I'm dreaming!"
Soon, the dream started to fade as the realization set in.. I didnt want it to end, I tried to stabilize the dream but it didnt seem to be working.. I guess I got scared that I would lose my girl if I thought about it as a dream, and i let my mind go and soon slipped into a non-lucid dream... which involved me having feelings for her again, just like old days, even stronger, and eventually the two of us hugging and kissing,,
and when I woke up in the morning after the dream I was like "God! I LOVE her!!"

I'm happy I got to experience some amount of lucidity, but also sad after seeing my ex-gf.. I'm hoping the dream doesn't mean anything, cause our relationship had gotten so complicated before we finally broke up, and going back to it would only worsen things..