MarcusQ

Hi, I'm Marcus. You may remember me from threads such as "2014 Lucid Goals" and "What happened? Post Your WILD Attempts, Good or Bad, Here" (well, probably not).

Thing is, a while back I promised myself to get back into Lucid Dreaming. I gave up initially as I had to focus on exams. Before this, I managed a few fragmented LDs here and there; nothing special.

So, after these exams, I thought "well, now that I have so much free time, it's time to get back into Lucid Dreaming!". The problem was, I was so used to letting time pass by without a thought in the world, of not being aware of the very thisness of the situation, that getting back into it became exhaustive. This, piled on top of the even more demanding life of Sixth Form college, left me pretty much unable to do anything, as I was so focussed on work and that awareness once again fizzled away. The fact is, my second attempt at building awareness and achieving lucidity was worse than my first.

Once again, I find myself craving that ability to do whatever I want without a care in the world. I also believe that I could harness this skill to learn/improve other skills (this is something I want to experiment with). Also, the feeling. Oh god, the feeling. That first moment you realise you're in a dream is something sensational! Your entire perception of reality suddenly doubles over at this point; submitting to the ultimate roundhouse kick to the groin that is your imagination, because you think of all the possibilities. Then it's all over.

Back to the point, I find myself nearing exams once again. I don't feel as though I can begin building over the charred remains that was my self awareness just yet (these metaphors are killing me!). Then there's the excitement of spending my waking hours looking for a suitable University, then starting the proper half of my A-level course, then finishing my A-level course, then preparing for more exams, then finishing those exams and waiting anxiously for the results, then hopefully going to University.... On the plus side, I do have a few weeks holiday soon so I could start then!

I must say, if, over the next few months, I manage to reacquire my relatively limp ability to lucid dream, I will be happy. In the meantime, I may occasionally post some more Journals because a) I find it fun to write and express my feelings towards what is potentially the entire world and b) there may be those of you in a similar position to me, whether it's school, college, work or whatever, you may be finding that daily life detracts from lucid dreaming. So for now my goal is to achieve one Lucid Dream by the end of July. It's not much, it gives me time to finish my exams, but it's a start. If by some ridiculous chance I do achieve one in this time, my goal will double. Is this a world first? An exponential LD goal? Surely not!

Summary (if you want to skip the irrelevant "my life is so occupied, and I'm complaining about it!" crap):

• Have one lucid dream. Case of achieving one in time frame doubles goal

Also, any advice is warmly welcomed! Thanks for reading.