nightmare

These dreams threw me off massively. My boyfriend left me sleeping in his apartment for the first time. He told me he'd lock the doors so I didn't have to worry about anything. So of course I went back to sleep seeming as it was 7 am.

The first dream it did not seem like a dream at all. I heard our bedroom door open, slowly like in one of those horror movies. However I could barely open my eyes, I had to literally force them open to watch the door slide open. Some where in my dreaming mind I couldn't help but wonder if we'd gotten a cat... My eyes went to the floor and nothing was there, then I realized that either way I cat wouldn't be able to open a closed door. The door just kept creeping open slowly till it hit the wall. I can't remember what I was thinking, just that my heart was pounding and I could hear it out loud.

Then I woke up, at least this time I really thought I was awake. The door to the bedroom was still closed, I got up easily thinking I'd go check the doors to make sure they were locked this time. I was walking up the stairs to the main door and I realized that it was still dark outside, but in my head I thought that my boyfriend left when the sun was starting to come up. Then I looked at the door and realized none of the locks were on. I walked up to it taking the ear plugs out of my ear, which in reality I would have done before getting out of bed, I opened the door and my boyfriends car was still there. I remember dropping my ear plug by the door and calling into the house for him. But he didn't answer. So I put my boots on, I was only in a tank top and some boy short panties, and went out to look in his car, but he wasn't there. So I went back inside and left the doors unlocked and got back in bed under the sheets crying.

THEN, I finally woke up to a text from him at 9 am telling me he'd locked the doors and he'd left a spare key for me by the bed. K, I realized after texting him that I had a horrible dream, that my ear plug was missing. I figured it was somewhere in my bed, so I got up to turn on the kettle, and went up to the door to make sure it really was locked like he'd told me it was, it wasn't and my ear plug was by the front door and my boots were wet from snow. So I opened the door and saw my foot prints barely covered by the fact that it was snowing leading to where the car so obviously wasn't. Yep, scary stuff.

Dream 1. I believe it was a dream within a dream? I dream pt that I was on the ground in a cave, the cave was collapsing in on me and I woke up right as a boulder was about to crush my skull. I woke up from that dream into the next one. I remember in the dream I woke up in thinking that the previous dream seemed to be warning me of something. I called my boyfriend and asked him if he'd like to go for a walk with me. We walked towards my high school, me telling him about how the first dream wouldn't let my mind relax. We got to the schools fencing and heard a loud noise and looked up in time to watch a smaller looking plane heading for the ground a couple of meters from us. As it hit the ground it burst into flames and pieces of the plane flew at me. I moved my arms up towards my face to shield it, wondering why the pieces of the plane were hitting my arm but not hurting it. My boyfriend grabbed me and yelled at me to run. I hesitated wondering why we would run now and not before the plane had hit the ground, he screamed at me to look at the sky and as I did, it was as if the entire sky turned to glass and began to shatter and fall towards us. He held my arm and pulled me into a sprint. In real life I am no where near as fast as he is. In the dream I could keep up with him until I realized that I couldn't be running next to him at this speed and I fell. He turned towards me and ran back begging me to get up but I looked at him and said "I'm not supposed to survive this baby, get to safety". He knelt beside me and said that he wouldn't leave me even if that led to him dying to. In the dream I felt a sharp pain in my chest at that thought, I got up and willed my legs to move at the same speed as him. We ran until we saw blue stable sky and right as we almost crossed the line from falling sky to normal sky, I felt hands grab my waist and pull me towards the ground. I screamed as my hand slid from my boyfriends and he crossed the line into safety. The hands held onto me and kept me pinned to the ground. I remember looking at my boyfriend and him clawing at something I couldn't see. He wasn't saying anything, just crying staring at me as he tried to claw his way back towards me. The hands that held me to the ground tightened as a voice whispered in my ear "Sorry, you're supposed to die". I woke up barely able to breathe.

Dream 2. I was heading to a building I'd never been in to babysit a baby that I knew in the dream but I still can't figure out who she was or her mother. I'm going to leave out most of the details, because honestly the dream was about me being raped and I don't want to recall it in the detail I did with the first dream. So another long dream cut short, the step father of this little girl rapped me and when I got the police involved in this dream they did nothing. At the very end before I woke up this man grabbed me by the throat and slammed me against the floor and whispered "Sorry, you're supposed to die, may as well be of some use before you do" I woke up on the floor.

It scared the absolute life out of me.