Matt1

March 26, 2013 - 5 hours in - 15 seconds - WBTB, WILD, FILD, FA, RC

Every 20 minutes, for a total of 5 times, I had the WILD alarm go off to wake me up to practice it. However, most times I figured on doing nothing, thinking (wrongly) that I was too awake and I should try it some other time. Then I lay comfortably and alternate very, very slightly tapping my index and middle fingers of my left hand.

I do it for maybe 30 seconds, at no time feeling any perceptible change in anything. I see the patterns of colored lights, but I see these when awake and tired also. Eventually I saw a blob of light that seemed in a sense to be like seeing the window through my eyelids, so I waited a little and then tried to plug my nose and inhale. Up to this point everything felt exactly like reality, yet I inhaled successfully. I can hardly believe it - I transitioned seamlessly into a dream!

I think for a second to try to remember my goals, and I think of breaking something. I try to get up out of bed, but feel a 'change' and do my reality check again. I have woken up, possibly triggered by opening my eyes too soon or by other in-dream movement.

March 21, 2013 - 7.5 hours in - 3 minutes - WBTB, SSILD, MILD

Woke naturally a couple times and tried to fall right back asleep, then woke naturally after 6.5 hours and did about 6 SSILD cycles of gradually increasing length. Afterward I did a mantra of "1, I know I'm dreaming, 2, I know I'm dreaming, 3..." while trying to visualize each digit up to 25, then went back to bed.

I am in a car with dark seats and T. is driving and E. is in the back seat.

I am looking at a menu of sorts which on its list has something called a male restaurant and a female restaurant. I think this to be strange and as I think more about where I am, I find that I cannot remember how I got here. I ask E. if anyone else is in the back seat and he says no. I plug my nose and try to inhale, but I expect it to not work, since everything seems so real. I can do it but I don't have the right grip, and I do it again and I can definitely inhale. I rub my hands and try not to think about how I am actually lying in bed, and just take in the scenery.

The trees are bare and the ground is covered in snow. The scenery consists of fields and patches of trees mixed about. We are on a wide urban style street with curbs. A street goes off to the right, and the street sign has the name of a real life street a couple miles from where I live. A yellow sign reads "Park Closes Gold." The road narrows and the curb ends and it becomes a road closed in with trees as we head slightly uphill. A green stoplight appears which we go through. There are a couple more green lights, and the road transitions in and out of an urban style road with curbs. Those stoplights on the curbed sections of road are on metal poles, and those on the country-style sections without curb are on wires and/or telephone poles.

As a country road it goes down a hill and I notice that we are going very fast. I fear this will eventually destabilize the dream, so I will it to slow back down. At this point I don't seem to have any awareness of the car anymore. Ahead on the horizon is a large steep hill, and before that point there is a railroad crossing, although this one has green lights, not red ones. A train is coming and I speed up trying to beat the train, although I think to myself there is a good chance I will be hit, ending the dream. I barely make it through in time, surprising myself, but the road curves fairly sharply to the left without me and the visuals fly to the left a little but run out. I don't try to keep the dream and let myself wake up.

March 11, 2013 - 9 hours in - 2 minutes - WBTB, SSILD, MILD

Was practicing quick DEILD-style WILDs every 15 minutes via alarm starting 3.5 hours in, but just kept going back to sleep on each alarm, and at about 4.5 hours in I just turned those off and fell asleep normally. I then woke naturally about 5.5 hours in and stayed up for about 15-20 minutes, then did the cycles and mantra resulting in the 14th Lucid Dream. On the 3rd awakening (some were natural, some by alarm) after this I did about 6 SSILD cycles of gradually increasing length, then a mantra of "1, I know I'm dreaming, 2, I know I'm dreaming, 3..." while trying to visualize each digit up to 25, then laid down and went back to sleep.

One of my relatives has died and I am very distressed. I plugged my nose when seeing it happen, but it seemed like I couldn't breathe, so I thought it was real even more, and kept wishing it was all a dream.

Me, J., R., and others are sitting at a table in some room. I think again how much I wish this were all a dream and I decide to count my fingers to check again. My hand looks normal at first glance, but I count 6 fingers! I plug my nose and inhale again, this time trying three times, and each time it becomes clearer that I can breathe. What a relief, this is only a dream! I don't notice who the other people at the table are, evidently still thinking I know them so it doesn't matter.

I show them how I have extra fingers, and ask them what they think. Then I show them how I can inhale with a closed nose, and ask them again what they think. I have to tell them that we are in a dream. I don't remember their reactions much, but I think they are somewhat surprised. I don't really know whose dream we are in, but I suspect it is mine. At some point I tell them to hold on, and I look at my hands again a little to stabilize. My right hand has many short fingers. Shortly after this, I wake up.

March 11, 2013 - 6 hours in - 2 minutes - WBTB, SSILD, MILD, FA, RC

Was practicing quick DEILD-style WILDs every 15 minutes via alarm starting 3.5 hours in, but just kept going back to sleep on each alarm, and at about 4.5 hours in I just turned those off and fell asleep normally. I then woke naturally about 5.5 hours in and stayed up for about 15-20 minutes, then did about 6 SSILD cycles of gradually increasing length. Afterward I did a mantra of "1, I know I'm dreaming, 2, I know I'm dreaming, 3..." while trying to visualize each digit up to 25, then laid down and went back to sleep.

I see something where it shouldn't be. I realize it as a hallucination and they fade away quickly. I figure that dream imagery has crossed over into waking life somehow.

After this sometime I am laying in bed when I try to plug my nose and breathe. It is successful and I know it is a dream, but my eyes are closed. I try the idea of opening my eyes with my dream hands, which I do, but I still am blind. Anyway, visuals somehow appear shortly afterward. The lighting throughout the house is not bright, like it is only via light from outside windows.

I rub my hands together for a short time on a regular basis throughout the dream. I move slowly and I put pants on, since I don't have any on in the dream for some reason. Then I evidently go into what is supposed to be the other bedroom. I think of my goal of summoning someone, but first I go into that bathroom, which has the same shape as reality, to see if there are any extra doors leading somewhere to explore. There aren't and back in the bedroom, a large sectional sofa with messy sheets occupies the corner of the room. There are two alarm clocks laying on the sheets, one says 29:03, the other says "Guero" (which is evidently a Spanish word, but I didn't know that at the time, so it is just a made up word). I try going in a room like the closet but I wake up before I do anything.

March 10, 2013 - 5.5 hours in - 20 seconds - WBTB, SSILD, MILD

Woke via alarm after 4.5 hours and got in a comfortable chair and did about 6 SSILD cycles of gradually increasing length. Afterward I did a mantra of "1, I know I'm dreaming, 2, I know I'm dreaming, 3..." while trying to visualize each digit up to 25, then went back to bed.

It is a sunny winter day and I am at a park on a hill, with some fences for sports fields, and a park shelter. A couple of friends took me here. I can't remember why I am there so I call them on the phone and ask what to do. I think that this seems like it might be a dream and plug my nose and can breathe.

I look at the paved path leading to the parking lot on this hill and how the snow is piled in between these, and remark to myself how realistic that is nevertheless. I (impulsively) run back down the hill on the park road to the lower parking lot where the car is but feel it fading as I do this. I jump directly into the side of the car but the dream is gone before I reach it.

This ends in a non-lucid, fairly obvious false awakening where I left on a laptop I don't even have. I wake up for real not too long after this.

March 6, 2013 - 4.5 hours in - 2 minutes or more - WBTB, SSILD, MILD

Woke via alarm after 3.5 hours and got in a comfortable chair and did about 6 SSILD cycles of gradually increasing length. Afterward I did a mantra of "1, I'm dreaming, 2, I'm dreaming, 3..." while trying to visualize each digit up to 25, then went back to bed.

My hand passes through the computer monitor like it isn't even there. While my hand is in it, I feel it touch an edge, but I can keep passing through this. I touch a glass paperweight and it is solid. My steadily rising awareness becomes full lucidity around this time. I rub my hands and plug my nose and breathe.

After this I think to myself it has been 10 minutes already. However, I do not think this was actually the case, but perhaps I had been there 10 minutes pre-full-lucidity or this sensation of time passing was manufactured by the dream.

I ate a gummy fish that was sitting there, which is realistic but less chewy, and head upstairs. It is night and I try to look out the window in the front door, but for some reason it is too high. I try to jump, and with difficulty I do so and see large pine and regular trees which are not there in real life.

I head into the bedroom which is also dark and someone is watching TV. It shows a dark room which I think might be something creepy, but its actually just a guy who looks like T. coming in and talking to someone.