Matt1

March 11, 2013 - 9 hours in - 2 minutes - WBTB, SSILD, MILD

Was practicing quick DEILD-style WILDs every 15 minutes via alarm starting 3.5 hours in, but just kept going back to sleep on each alarm, and at about 4.5 hours in I just turned those off and fell asleep normally. I then woke naturally about 5.5 hours in and stayed up for about 15-20 minutes, then did the cycles and mantra resulting in the 14th Lucid Dream. On the 3rd awakening (some were natural, some by alarm) after this I did about 6 SSILD cycles of gradually increasing length, then a mantra of "1, I know I'm dreaming, 2, I know I'm dreaming, 3..." while trying to visualize each digit up to 25, then laid down and went back to sleep.

One of my relatives has died and I am very distressed. I plugged my nose when seeing it happen, but it seemed like I couldn't breathe, so I thought it was real even more, and kept wishing it was all a dream.

Me, J., R., and others are sitting at a table in some room. I think again how much I wish this were all a dream and I decide to count my fingers to check again. My hand looks normal at first glance, but I count 6 fingers! I plug my nose and inhale again, this time trying three times, and each time it becomes clearer that I can breathe. What a relief, this is only a dream! I don't notice who the other people at the table are, evidently still thinking I know them so it doesn't matter.

I show them how I have extra fingers, and ask them what they think. Then I show them how I can inhale with a closed nose, and ask them again what they think. I have to tell them that we are in a dream. I don't remember their reactions much, but I think they are somewhat surprised. I don't really know whose dream we are in, but I suspect it is mine. At some point I tell them to hold on, and I look at my hands again a little to stabilize. My right hand has many short fingers. Shortly after this, I wake up.

March 11, 2013 - 6 hours in - 2 minutes - WBTB, SSILD, MILD, FA, RC

Was practicing quick DEILD-style WILDs every 15 minutes via alarm starting 3.5 hours in, but just kept going back to sleep on each alarm, and at about 4.5 hours in I just turned those off and fell asleep normally. I then woke naturally about 5.5 hours in and stayed up for about 15-20 minutes, then did about 6 SSILD cycles of gradually increasing length. Afterward I did a mantra of "1, I know I'm dreaming, 2, I know I'm dreaming, 3..." while trying to visualize each digit up to 25, then laid down and went back to sleep.

I see something where it shouldn't be. I realize it as a hallucination and they fade away quickly. I figure that dream imagery has crossed over into waking life somehow.

After this sometime I am laying in bed when I try to plug my nose and breathe. It is successful and I know it is a dream, but my eyes are closed. I try the idea of opening my eyes with my dream hands, which I do, but I still am blind. Anyway, visuals somehow appear shortly afterward. The lighting throughout the house is not bright, like it is only via light from outside windows.

I rub my hands together for a short time on a regular basis throughout the dream. I move slowly and I put pants on, since I don't have any on in the dream for some reason. Then I evidently go into what is supposed to be the other bedroom. I think of my goal of summoning someone, but first I go into that bathroom, which has the same shape as reality, to see if there are any extra doors leading somewhere to explore. There aren't and back in the bedroom, a large sectional sofa with messy sheets occupies the corner of the room. There are two alarm clocks laying on the sheets, one says 29:03, the other says "Guero" (which is evidently a Spanish word, but I didn't know that at the time, so it is just a made up word). I try going in a room like the closet but I wake up before I do anything.