moonlit

Hi, welcome to my dream journal. This journal might be unusual to some of you, because my dream world is very complex and complicated. I will try my best to be as factual and accurate as possible, and I'm trying to recollect the best that I can. I have journals with bits and pieces of my dreams in them, of the dreams that I feel I may need to remember later with complete detail, but I can usually remember them well along with strong feelings, emotions, colors, and scents.

My family has been psychic for as long as I can remember. Dreams have always been important tools to us. I'm very musically gifted, to an extreme that I've never met anybody who sounds or can do what I do except for my mother, who has passed away. For a while it shook me to the bone, why can I do this, why am I this way, who am I, what is this gift? I was an atheist before I began to fully develop my gift. I've had a lot of trouble with it. I discovered that I could channel sounds, and music, and words. I was very shy for many years about this, but now I've accepted it and started to perform. I'm still working on the self-consciousness, though. This has been what led me to develop my spirituality and my abilities, because it proved to me there is something else out there than the physical.

I'm a female in my 20s and I have a pretty normal life. Working, writing music, spending time with my mostly elderly family. I have lots of pets and close friends who I feel as if we're bound by blood... we've been through a lot of strange times together!

Well, my family would frequently dream of the dead, as they've told me, but in my case, I dream about future events, or if I need information about something, I can usually access it.
While I can dream of the future, I can't dream of the dead- where they'll appear to be living, at least. I've also tried to communicate with the dead, with no success. I'm not a medium.

I've always had incredibly vivid dreams. I'd especially have precognitive dreams, that have came true. However, they were always blurry and choppy and covered in a shining, glittering mist. The farther away it would be, the foggier the vision would be. I began looking into Lucid dreaming to try to perfect this art. I always had a deep fear preventing me from fully entering the LD state, a fear of death, so for a while, I gave it up. Lately, after reading the Seth Speaks series, this fear completely vanished & I began to have waking visions. Not intense ones, but flashes of information that after some research prove to be useful information I wouldn't have known otherwise. I'll elaborate on this soon because it is tied into my dreams & I had a few dreams that I'll go into as well a few months ago, that began this entire journey. My natural curiosity has once again led me to Lucid dreaming.


My Dream Environments
As of this post, I have not yet had a lucid dream.
Usually, I have dreams at my old childhood home. I believe this is my home base in the astral. I don't ever have people that I know or recognize visiting me here for some reason, only my (currently living) family would be there, and our (currently living) pets. If am I visited by somebody, I don't know who they are, but they'll have bits and pieces of old friends or people I may recognize. I think it's where I work out my memories, or fragments of people from past lives, I'm not entirely sure right now. People I would know, but have never spoken to and are still living, have appeared to me here. Not strangers, I definitely know who they are, but they don't know me in the waking world. No people considered dead in my current world have come to me here. My mother is dead, and she's never once appeared to me in any dream as alive.
This is a very important setting for me because I've realized this may be the deepest level for me, that is very hard for people or anyone to access without my trust and their great effort. I grew up in this home with my family, so it's only natural that they can enter this space. Basically, a safe space for me. I'll usually have wonderful dreams here. Rainbow skies, snowing, rain, beautiful sunshine, our fruit trees, the home just how I remember it as a child.
When it's daytime in the waking world, it will be night there. When it's night here, it will be daytime there. I have had instances where I left at night alone, which I won't ever do anymore, I'll usually go with a friend from the area. If I leave alone, I return in great danger, but they can't ever enter my house. Even during the daytime, some "people" have tried to enter the windows in my bedroom, the bathroom attached to it, and always fail. They simply can't enter. I always got a terrible feeling from these people, whatever they are.
I can explore the area around my house, just like I remember it as a child, with great detail. It is exciting, sometimes things change around a tiny bit, like a bizarre version of what I remember.

I'll have dreams where I'm currently living, or in a few locations I'll elaborate on soon. The dreams of where I'm currently living, anybody can visit me. They are always alive in my waking world, too. Friends, my current pets, my cat is usually with me keeping an eye on me (which is kind of strange). These are usually people I trust, though, or people I had trusted. People who have since emotionally hurt me I avoid in the dream world now. Some friends though, I've never dreamt of, like my best friend. This is also strange to me, but maybe she doesn't have that world open in her mind yet.

The most commonly dreamt of location other than these places familiar to me, is a giant "multi-plex", I suppose I'll call it. There's a hotel on one side, that goes up over 100 stories, and through it you can see this huge vast landscape of city lights. There are always strangers at the lobby, complete with employees. Truly remarkable. On another side, there's a gigantic mall, complete with stores, and tons of people. There is also a giant movie theater, complete with winding halls. If you go back far enough, it gets very frightening. I haven't explored past a certain point here. I've hung out with a few friends at all of these places. I even once told a friend about this multi-plex, and he said he had dreams in a similar place.

I have had no other dreams except for these settings. Not at anybody's house, or at school. I have had them in nature but they were of the fields of my old house in the countryside. Except for the dream I had of my mother, in a funeral home. This was the only instance, and even in this dream she appeared dead.

This particular series of dreams that began about 8 months ago, I'm about to elaborate on, since they are currently my goal in lucid dreaming.