motagota

4/005/2011 – Pulled into the void and seeing a (Alien) race at war.
spontaneous LD awoke at around 5:30 . Sleep at 10
I awake to a spontaneous LD, I was walking down a unfamiliar street I wanted to fly so I jumped up a meter or so and was floating superman style. I couldn't get any higher though I started floating towards a fence and was trying to swim breaststroke style up higher but it wasn't happening. Suddenly from my left side I started getting pulled I decided again to go along with it. It pulled my over to this high grass hill I could see down the valley there were houses and whatnot down there. I was a bit dubious about going over the edge. ( actually vaguely I remember landing and doing something. ) I floated over the edge still(again?) being pulled I start picking up speed and end up in a void of blackness. After 10 seconds or so some images appear of humans ( at the time I thought they were humans but thinking about it now they were really tall white and skinny). I think they were having a war. They were running around all over the place. After afew seconds I wakeup.

This is my second night of taking calea tea.

The first night there was an increase in the vividness of dreams, but I can't really remember them I can remember some fragments of several dreams but nothing clear. A couple of normal dreams I can not remember then the first lucid I can not really remember I chained into the second one. about 5am now.

I awake in the dream running down my drive way of my old house where nearly all my lucids happen. As I run out onto the road I think this is so vivid maybe I am not dreaming I jump up in the air and float back down, I must be dreaming, I jump again a few times and start floating up I lose vision but can still feel the road so I keep jumping. I suddenly start getting pulled up faster and faster .

I decide to go along for the ride.

The next thing I know I find my self in a car my dad is driving, we are just in the next street up from where I was. The street is really derelict, there are old car bodies and whatnot in all the yards, and the houses are really run down. I think something like “this street has always been dodgy” ( in real life this is not the case, the steet as pretty nice houses in it). One house looks like it used to be a shell service station, with rusty petrol pumps under the house.

Suddenly my dad speeds through a stop sign I yell at him. He told me he didn't want to wait for the cars,(there was a big line of cars turning) we start arguing. Suddenly he starts driving really erratically, and into the on coming traffic we drive streight through a car.

Somehow I know the girl was just about the get married, she is crying and screaming I think she lost her arm in the crash. Again he drives really erratically into oncoming traffic we smash into a few more cars, he starts going really fast down a hill and skids sideways to go turn into a street he skids for ages and the car breaks down its squealing like the fan belt is broken or something.

He says "well this didn't go as planned" a bus is heading straight for us we are stuck sideways across the lane. I'm not really scared, I don't think I am aware I am dreaming yet though . He finally gets the car going before we get hit by the bus.

We head down the end of the road. there are two naked girls sitting in a booth and there is a barn/shed up the back of the yard. As we pull in the girls morph and cloths appear on them , like genie cloths. We get out of the car I'm thinking where the hell are we and why has dad taken me here. One of the girls tells dad 'Omg what's he doing here, if you want him to have any fun here take him to the 1000 pound women'. I think what? I don't want a fat chick. ( no offence ).

We head up to the shed there are heaps of girls there. I guess they are prostitutes. My dad heads in. There is a guy standing near me he is looking at me with an aggressive grin. I want to get out of here all the girls are coming around me I am freaking out. ( odd since I normally jump at a chance of erotica in my dreams). I see some thing on a bench near by I think it was a wrench I pick it up and go to hit him. Its so heavy I can hardly swing it. There is another guy a big fat guy behind me I swing it at him. He pulls some other thing out and catches the wrench in it's like pliers or something only bigger. (I think to my self that was pretty cool I had like a split mind I was the observer and the actor) We wrestle.

The thing has three hooks wrapped around the wrench looks kind of like snake heads. I start speaking Latin ( like Merlin if you have ever seen that show) and take control of the thing I start moving the 'fingers/snake heads' suddenly it is becoming part of me I fell 'dark' energy taking over me I panic and think 'evil' is consuming me. I start thinking white energy... white energy... I suddenly 'awake' on the floor of my old house my mum is in the kitchen I am rolling on the floor fighting this dark energy and this is where it gets a little disturbing, something comes out of my mouth look/feels like a turkey neck .. I think it's might have been my spine my head bends back and it sticks out my mouth. everything goes red and I think I am dieing in front of mum. I awake with a jolt. relived it was just a dream... its now 5:20.

I'm going to try for another lucid. As I was relaxing attempting a WILD a random dream I just remembered , when I woke up from this one I was wondering if it was a prophetic dream. I was at the gym . The place looked completely different . anyways. I was waiting for a class and no one turned up. I figured they stuffed up the timetable for the Easter holiday. So I start going home as I am out in the yard. The instructor is rushing in. She is telling someone she just had a heart attack. I run in side so I don't miss the class, but it is full already - hope fully she doesn't have a heart attack.

After this I try and WILD some more and got close a few times and many many little dream fragments/HI for the next 2 hours. still have one more cup of tea left for tonight who knows what will happen.

27/03/2011
I had a chain of 3 obe style exit/concious dreams last night, and once again I was too lazy to write them down as soon as I woke up and now can only remember some sketchy details.

I went to bed at about 10pm I probably lay there thinking for about 1 hour. I then started an attempt at WILD, I started getting some good HI fairly quickly combined with a 3rd eye meditation, I reached the threshold a few times but each time I woke back up again. After several attempts I just rolled over and fell asleep.

I was woken again at about 2:30 my brother and a few of his friends came over drunk, I considered joining them, but decided I might as well give WBTB ago since I am awake. I had a chat with them for abit grabbed my laptop so I could drown out their noise with some binaural beats. It was now 4am.

I started playing the binaural beat and was starting to get into it but I knocked the earphones out of the laptop so just went to sleep, next thing I know I can hear slow binaural beat play, thats odd I swear I turned it off. I lay there listening my legs up to my hips became light as the sensation moved up my body the 'beats' became faster and faster until it sounded like a normal binaural beat. I thought to my self .. so this is how bianural beats should sound I'm going to make a track like this.

Suddenly little dots appeared, HI I suppose I started speeding through 'space'. I landed on a path leading up a mountain. I started walking there was a girl near by I asked her what her name was,she ignored me so I keept on walking, I approached another girl and asked her what her name was, she was much more friendly I forget what she said her name was .. mybe Sam. I asked her how old she was and she said she was 11, I said no way you are not, she looked like an adult to me, not sure what happened after that, I woke up.

I still had that light feeling in my body I rolled my 'energy body' on to its side and I had the weird kind of duality with my physical body. I entered the same dream again this time the girl I spoke to told me she could not help me, not sure what she was talking about as I never asked her for help.

The third time I awoke still had the light feeling I pushed down through my body and on to my floor. I could feel the floor boards I slid out from under my bed and out into my living room, my brothers friends where asleep there.

I can't remember much else. The main thing I remember is the binaural beats, I really should try and replicate them.

I really need to write these down as soon as awake, I even had a FA of me writing in my dream journal.

10/03/2011 - I went to bed normally last night, at around 11pm.One dream sometime during the night stuck in my mind:
I was in some kind of villa or something we had to leave. Everyone was telling me we had to leave right now but I wanted to clean the place up. There was red dusty dirt all over the floors. I grabbed a broom, it wasn't a normal broom it had some kind of wire on it like a scrubbing brush I tried to sweep the floor with it but it just scratched the tiles. The other people told me to leave it as I am scratching the floor. I grabbed my bags and headed out. We walked out through this other room it was a massive room like a hall or something completely empty, and the floors again were covered in dirt.
I picked up a different broom this time it was a normal one. I headed to the far right corner there was an opened double door there and the view out side was on the edge of a cliff with a beach down below, really nice.
I started sweeping the dirt, for some reason I was sweeping it inside, I thought I should just sweep it out the door. But decided I will sweep all the dirt over to the other door to show the master of the house. As I was sweeping there was a van like a food van you would see at festivals etc, I climbed up on the roof to clean it and there were heaps of fluffy toys up there. All of a sudden there was a crowd of girls, wanting me to throw their toys to them, as I was throwing them down a bunch of other guys climbed up and started throwing them down as well.
Apparently I wasn't being careful enough when I was throwing them and someone told me to be more careful, I thought these are just stuffed toys who cares. I throw a bag with something in it down, the wind catches it and it lands on a cockatoo I think it was a pet. I can see it looks hurt bad it is laying on its side. Everyone is yelling at me. I jump down and go over to it, it is diseased all its feathers are falling out. I pick it up and put my hand on its head it comes back to life but is still weak it looks at me sadly. At this point I wake up, as I am wakening I realise I am dreaming and decide to use telekinesis to heal the bird. I fix its spine but its leg is still broken. I wake up full and feel a bit sad I try and go back into the dream to fix the bird but can not. boo!.

9/03/2011 - I only ended up with a few dream fragments last night but thought they were interesting enough to post.
So I was reading about astral projection over the last few days, and the author was saying that a lucid dream is a facet of an astral projection, i.e. you could 'astral project' to a 'dream pool' as he calls it, or to other areas/levels of the astral plain.
Anyways a key to having a successful astral projection is to have enough energy to do so. He describes a simple 5 min chakra opening/energy raising technique. I gave it a go before I went to bed felt some strong sensation in the base and navel 'chakra' not much in the solarplex, heart, throat and some smallish sensation in the brow and crown. I decided to repeat the process and see if I could get them all to activate, but unfortunately fell asleep ( he did say that doing this just before bed 9/10 times you will fall asleep, I guess he wasn't lying about that).

The first dream fragment - I had an insane throbbing sensation in my forehead, as if I had just done a sprint and my heart was inside my forehead pounding like crazy. I was afraid I was going to die, literally. I somehow knew I was dreaming and made the conscious descion to wake up. I don't remember seeing anything. I woke up with a jolt and sat up, my 'real' heart was pounding, and a slight tingle in my forehead. Then I remembered he said that during a projection it is normal for your chakras to go mental sometimes, especially your heart one, it can feel like your going to have a heart attack. Damn it !.

The second fragment - I'm not sure if this was real or a false awakening, I'm thinking a false awakening, maybe. I 'wake' up at about 4am I didn't have to get up till 5, I could remember heaps of dreams so I started getting them clear in my mind, and was planning to write them in my laptop on the way to work. I remember thinking I had a 'level 4' lucid dream ( this is why I think it was a FA). I remember saying to my self level 4 is when you know you are dreaming but don't consciously do anything in the dream just go with the flow of the dream - Interesting I have been thinking about rating 'levels of lucidity' to try and categorise my dreams better. I wonder what the other levels should be?

Finally I work to my alarm at 5am - I had heaps of dream memories and was trying to sort them out in my mind, so I kept my eyes closed and ignored the alarm. Then for some reason I thought my alarm sounded different to real life so I sat up and looked at it, it looked normal, I looked at the time, and looked away and back again as a reality check it didn't change, I still wasn't convinced so I did a 'nose plug' RC failed damn it, its real life. I turned the alarm on snooze but all my dream memories had gone. And my mind was starting to get full of thoughts about what I needed to do today. - is that a false false awakening

So this chakra opening/raising seemed to increase the vividness of dreams as I did have lots of dream memories, I have used the 3rd eye meditation a fair bit and it seems to increase dream activity. Definatly worth some more playing, hopefully my head wont explode.

2/03/2011
I awoke at about 5:45 after a good 7 hours sleep. I started lightly sleeping/dreaming. I managed to chain about 5 or 6 dreams together. After about 4 or so I was thinking I should wake and write them down, but of course I didn't... why is sleep so entising !?! I was trying to remember them all, running them through my mind when t my alarm whent off and now I only remember a few fragments.

Fragment 1 I wasn't lucid nor had any idea it was a dream, I was in the hallway of a house and apparently mum had moved the washing machine from there in to a room next door I asked her why she moved it and she ran off in a huff. I could overhear a conversatin she was having with my dad saying I am allways comlaining about things, I was thinking to my self I wasn't complaining I just wanted to know why she moved it.

Fragment 2: I was in a different house, mum had just backed some biscuits I decided to transform them into something else I used my hand to change them, my hand got a heavy feeling as it does when I do this and then I felt the flow as they changed into balls of something I picked it up and took a bite, OMG it tasted so unbelivably good, I headed out side some kind of market//festival was happening in the distance I took another bit and looked at the thing I was eating it had chocolate chips and raisins on the out side and looked like a rolled up musile bar. I woke up.

Fragmet 3: I was at the market/festival it looked like a market you would find in a developing county, dirt floor rows of tables with all sorts of food piled on them. As I entered all these girls with yellow shirts and a picture of 'Mickey' mouse on them, they were like promo girls or something of the like. They said something like “Welcome to mickey world”. I just walked past them and looked at one of the stores, they were selling bread. I decided to try and transform the bread into something else. I put my hand out and started to try and chaange it. My hand felt pressure in it like it was blocked so I stopped and tried again I was trying to get the right feeling, the intention to change it. Then I felt the flow again as they changed into, I can't remember what they are called they are like pretzels but made out of bread, deep fried, like a doughnut. I keep walking to other stores and doing the same thing I can't really remember what happened, some how I made my way to a stage they were doing some kind of exercise, I think sort of like 'pump'. I picked up some ridiculously heavy weights and started doing the class.

I know I had another chain after this and was thinking it was a pretty awesome dream.. damn allarm clock I hate you!.

I really need to stop chaining after a couple and write them down this has happened a few time now. But it is soo hard to wake, especially when yoou know you will probally have more concious dreams, at the risk of forgetting every thing.

08/02/2011 -
I woke up with a headache this morning plus it was raining so I didn't feel like getting up.
I Entered a dream, I was walking with someone we went to the door of an apartment and he started banging and ringing the bell, yelling for the person to come out. There was a little girl inside she yelled out “I'm not coming out, my Dad will be home soon you better watch out.”. He keept on banging and yelling, I didn't want to stay around so I continued to walk up the path there was a door I opened it and went inside.
The building was really strange inside hallways and rooms everywhere. I entered one room there was a group of girls sitting on a half circle lounge in the middle of the room face a guy using a computer. I sat in the middle of the girls the girl closest to me turned into a guy. I yelled at the guy using the computer , “I'm going to kill you' or something like that, I think I was a Russian gangster or something. I got up and throw him into the wall and walked out.
I opened the door directly opposite, it was like a broom closet with a door on each side the left hand side suddenly started sliding back. So I walked down the newly formed hallway, I remember thinking something about korean houses. As I walked around the corner I was in a bedroom, there was another door on the other side of the room. I couldn't open the door and woke up.

Woke up in a bed that I had a touch pad in my hand I decided to play with it to keep me in the dream. I tried to sit up but couldn't for some reason.. I tried again and stood up.
I started second guessing whether I was in a dream or not I steeped outside my room and sore that there was a cabinet in the middle of the room so I knew that it was a dream – strangely I didn't notice it wasn't even my house – I started playing with the touch pad again you could push it in to become smaller and pull it to become larger. I decided I was going to ask 'them' how to make it. So I whent outside still pushing and pulling the touch pad into different shapes. I ended up breaking it because I pushed it so small I couldn't pull it bigger again. So I threw it on the ground. I started walking up the side of the house towards the street. My foot steeps where so loud and exaggerated. I got to the street and lookout we were on a hill and they were building a massive high way down the bottom of the hill. I jumped up and started flying down towards the construction work, every time I blinked things changed and moved around, so I decided to just land. There were some animals in the dirt I thought they were cows or something. When I landed it turns out there were giant – well I guess cows is the best way to describe them – they were staring at me chewing, I was afraid of them. I pulled some gum out of my mouth and threw it at one. It caught it in its mouth and looked angry so I run, it spat a big ball of grass at me and it hit me in the head and I woke up.

8 – January
Woke up at 6:30 didn't need to wake up till 8 and am still felling very tired and stressed about work, so I decided to WILD for some fun. Inspired by a new technique I read about I try it out.
Unfortunately I didn't write them down because I overslept and had to go to work now I only remember fragments.
I awoke in my childhood bed, at the time I didn't notice. Strange feeling like my head is sinking so I continue to 'push' it through the bed eventually I sink through and enter a dream.
I am in my childhood bedroom I go to walk out the door but the dream starts to fade so I turn around, it comes back very vivid now. My brothers room next to mine is full of boxes. I move my vision from one to the other quickly hoping I become anchored in the dream.
I begin walking around the house:
– a table is fallen over I tried to move it with my mind, the table didn't move but the leg broke off and I was able to move it around.
– I try some more TK

The house was empty so I consider trying to summon people I start losing the dream. I decide to play more with the TK instead. I start losing the dream again so I stop. Once the dream stabilised again I try again, this time it works much better. I found out that concentrating on the object itself makes me lose the dream, but just having a thought that the object should move, then it does. Maybe there is truth to thoughts being real..

I wake up from my childhood bed again, I walk out and my brother tells me I am dreaming. I think cool my DC helped me and I actually listened. I remember I wanted to ask my Dcs how to make an independent income. He tells me in a really country redneck voice, “you should make dairy off the land”. I am excited and happy I had two Lds. I get side tracked and decide to look for girls, this is always a downfall as I nearly always lose the dream when I do this. And sure enough I find a beautiful girl start talking to her and lose the dream. My alarm goes off so I have to get up now.

Very fragmented vision/dream. I woke up only after a few hours sleep know I just had a real awesome dream and should write it down. Sadly I was so tired I decided to stay sleeping.. damn it now I can hardly remember it.

I was very tired as I went to bed as I had a very big day a lot of psychical and emotional work.

HI starts very quickly, it quickly becomes very very vivid. I see vision of the 'Taj Mahal' there is the most magnificent garden at the front with an amazing fountain and pond leading up to the temple.

I want to go inside but from no where the big gates appear as I approach the gate a 'spirit' approaches from the left, it is a floating triangular mask with a smoke body. I think why does it look like that, I don't like it, it should be a beautiful woman.

She transforms into a goddess brunette hair with amazing beauty, 'You can not pass through these gates', she says so calmly I feel weakened by her presence. 'why not? I want to see what is inside.'. 'I must teach you some lessons first' 2 other 'goddesses' appear they grab me and we float up into the air. I think rose pedals start to fall around me.

… A fragment .. I am talking to someone I am explaining to them how they should talk to the spirits I mention they should close their eyes and roll them up in their head, when they see a flash like a camera flash, this is when you can speak to them. There was more but I can't remember

I wake up and want to write it all down but am to tired so I go back to sleep and forget most of it .. damn it !

18/12/2010

Lucid dream – OBE type exit

I went to bed very early at 8:00 because I had a headache and was very tired. I awoke from this dream experience at 8:57. The fact that I was dead tired probably helped me fall into a REM stage of sleep faster than usual.

Firstly I woke up with some fragments of a dream that I now forgot.

I went back to sleep doing a 3rd eye meditation. I started to feel a spinning sensation and soon I fell out of my body and on to my bedroom floor. I felt the floor boards against my back, I was laying on my back facing the ceiling. Suddenly I started getting pulled through the floor. I couldn't see anything it was all black. I felt as though I was being stretched.

I sprang back into my body like a rubber band. Stayed there for a while then started floating up towards the ceiling passed through the roof the sky was all blue, strange since it as night time. I started moving faster and faster, the suddenly 'landed' in my room in a fully lucid state.

I didn't bother with any reality checks as I already knew I was dreaming I opened my bedroom door, the house looked so real nothing was out of place, I suddenly had a bad feeling that maybe I wasn't dreaming. Since I was wearing nothing but my underpants. I quickly ran into the bathroom directly opposite my room. I looked in the mirror, my eyes were all red and swollen.

I must be dreaming my face looks too strange, I did a reality check of pushing my hand through the other one, it passed through with ease, phew I was dreaming. I looked at my hands in the mirror they were just a ball of skin/hands joined together.

I waked out and back into my room I put some cloths on just in case, I still wasn't totally convinced.( even if I did push my hand through the other one) I walked out into the living room my brother and his friend were watching TV the room was very different from real life so I knew I was dreaming.
I looked at her and said “ Come with me.”
She said “no I am with him”
“Of course you are, sorry I'll leave now:, and I headed out the back door.

Strangely my backyard was that of a house I lived in over a year ago. I was walking towards the front fence, it is a 6foot high steel fence, I thought I will just walk through it since I am dreaming So I did just that, but to my surprise the fence actually fell over.

I walked out to the road there were lots of cars driving by as if it were a main road. I decided to just walk out into the middle of the road and steal someone's car. A motorbike was approaching I though to myself cool this will be fun to ride around on. The bike stopped I signalled to the guy to get of, and take his helmet off, he obeyed but looked very sad. I was struggling to get the helmet on apparently I had something on my head not too sure.

While I was struggling another bike exactly the same pulled up and the guy from the first bike tried to get on his, I stopped him. “What are you doing, you can not take that bike:, I said to him. “I only just bought the bike”. “When did you buy it”,” yesterday lunchtime”. I fely really sad for stealing his bike so I gave it back.

I then woke up and was surprised to find I had only been asleep for less than 1 hour.

26/01/2010
I decide to try an OBE in the morning.

My energy body becomes relaxed quickly. I have various sensations of floating, and sinking. Eventually my legs become 'lose' and start floating up. I try to loosen my body,and eventually slide out my feet onto the window sile at the end of my bed. I look out the window. ( There is a tree there that has lots of yellow flowers on it in RL) . All the yellow flowers turn into canaries and start singing it really comical and beautiful at the same time ( a year on I can still remember it clearly). I try and go out but the venison(SP?) blinds start hurting me, like cutting into me. I decide to go out my bedroom door instead.
I lose my vision but can still feel things so I continue on, my vision comes back. My house is a mess, things are everywhere. I walk through the kitchen, there is a fridge in my living room, the door is open and inside are all these different coloured bottles of soft drink, they are glowing,green blue, orange. I decide to get one and drink it. It fizzes up and spills. I hardly get to drink any of it. It changes colour from green to orange.
As I pick a another green one up it turned to blue. I thought the reflection was playing tricks on me. It was kind of shimmering blue/green. ( this was really cool)
I turn round and notice the shower is on I head in to turn it off. The taps are strange, there are leavers and you turn it. It takes some time for me to figure out how to turn it off.
I decide I will head outside, as I go back through the kitchen I see a big bread knife, I consider cutting my self to see what is is like.. I'm in a dream why not?.. I quickly decide not to do that.
As I get to the back door the sky is so bright it blinds me and I lose my vision. I almost lose the dream.. I can hear my self breathing. I can still feel the dream so I try to feel every step on the stairs as I go down and hold on to the railing. I get to the bottom there is a pile of dead mice .. wtf.. I just step over them and ignore them. I keep walking there are heaps of cars parked in the street, my neighbour is having a party. I decide it would be fun to go for a drive. I pick up some small stones, to smash the windows. As I am walking over to the cars I see a bigger rock. I pick it up. It is much lighter then I thought it would be.
There is a limo in my driveway so I go to smash the window but the door is not locked, too easy, so I get in and start driving. The seat is too close and I am squashed against the steering wheel. I move it back... I think I lost lucid now... My brother is with me in the limo we are speeding around and fishtailing etc, I crash into a tree, I decide its time to wake up now.