regulator

(Nov. 18, 2015).

A couple of snippets.

I'm giving CNG a ride around to places. Not sure where. At one point we are trying to get back to my place, and we park in a sort of half-circle driveway at my house. But it's really run down, almost dirt, and on a hill type thing. The house is a shack.

Her car is already there for some reason. It's a pickup truck, like one my dad had. A little older and smaller, but red and similar. As we walk up to the house, I notice that the driver door is open. And I remember (within the dream), that the door was open last time and I had forgotten to close it. I get worried that someone may have stolen something. But I look inside and nothing looks stolen. The stereo, everything. As I'm shutting the door, I notice that some sort of interior indicator light is on. Something like a "check engine" light, but not that one exactly. So I note that the battery must not be totally drained from the door that's been open for at least a day. I ask CNG something about her cat. I don't remember the question.


It seems like I'm making progress on the WILDing, especially in stabilizing HI while maintaining awareness. There was an episode where I was in a dream-like state -- I think it was after WILDing to get HI, and in the scene I was sitting on a bed, on my knees. I wasn't yet in a dream, but wanted to keep the HI stable while entering a dream. I then thought I'd look in a mirror, and a handheld mirror appeared in my hand. When I went to look into it I woke up. The sleep paralysis was pretty heavy.

A fragment: I'm outside, with a couple of other people. For some reason we're at the edge of a canyon. I'm trying to hit someone on the other side with some sort of cannon that shoots something. Something non-lethal, like a paint ball. At first I aim directly there and shoot, but gravity brings the projectile down and it's not even close. So I aim upward for the next shot. [end of scene].

In another fragment, I'm on a beach with MM and SM, and we're sitting on the beach and it's getting really windy. I'm pointing out to MM that the waves look really big. The wind is coming from behind us, so it is blowing the waves out. Even the ones that look like they'll make it to us don't. Then I notice one really huge wave that is heading towards us. It's massive. We get scared and start to leave. We're not running, but walking quickly. But even that one gets blown out, and it doesn't make it all the way in.

I leave anyway. I'm walking away form the beach. There's a paved road that leads away, and I'm walking on a sidewalk next to an under-construction building. The sidewalk is covered with a roof for safety. And on the side is a wooden beam, like a small log, round and about 6 inches in diameter, that is holding up the roof. Some pieces of paper, flyers, are nailed to it. I notice that they are flapping around in the wind, but that the wind is super strong. Enough so that it really should be blowing the paper off the post.

In the next scene, there's a go kart track thing. It's outside, like a bike path. There are a couple of people, friends, who are driving really fast along the track. And then suddenly we see a woman trying to chase them in her own go kart, like she's mad at them or something.

I consider putting something on the track so on their next lap around they'll have to slow down and she'll catch them. But I don't. But when they come around on the next lap, one of the guys is going slow, like something happened. Like his go kart broke own or something. I couldn't see the other two.

No dream recall last night. But I was trying to WILD, and managed again to get some solid HI. Though still as soon as the HI gets solid and dream like, I lose awareness. It's like the two are mutually exclusive.

There was one event where I felt my watch tap my wrist right at the beginning of a dream or something, but I didn't RC. It was almost like I was still half awake in my bed, adn so just blew the RC off. Not sure if I was awake or not when that happened. But I need to resolve to take the RC's seriously after a watch tap.