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i was being outcast by my friends. i had this pile of paper that i was going to light on fire and everyone was worried something bad would happen. so i decided to jump onto the pile which was suddenly a small island in the middle of this sewage, dark lake. the entire dream had a dark, dirty feel to it. i cant remember much.

i was at nancys house and trying to bake a cake. robert was there heating up food. i was looking at a mirror that opened up to search the internet, and i remember telling someone that you could go online with anything these days. monika showed up and everyone was surprised, she was dressed real nice. i talked to alli on the phone and mentioned seeing her and we had a good talk and she told me that she was seeing someone, that it had been so long, and i said that was okay. her sister was there along with another friend, at nancys, and it made me feel uncomfortable.
we went out to the pool and i was invisible, carson and monika were talking about me and how i could let go of anger so easily. monika said one time she came out to the pool and i was just floating there, on fire, and then all of a sudden my hair was wet. this realy shocked carson, they started to kiss. then i appeared and said i saw them. i said they could kiss if i could have sex with monika while they did it. i devided i couldnt do this and instead of kept pushing their heads underwater. then i drowned them. during this time i felt like i was invisible. i could see their bodies floating in the pool from up above and i went inside to where i had a son, he was asleep so i layed him on the couch and was going to lay with him so they would not think i drowned them, but instead i got up and went to the table. i picked up this device that had two scrolls hidden inside it, along with a key, and was shaped like a cross. I started walking down the street barefoot, to bury it. while i was doing this a narration was going on about how they had this all planned from the beginning. the scrolls read the truth of their lives, about how one of them was abandoned by her parents when she was young, etc..
i passed two kids [18yrs.]leading a group of younger boys[10yrs.], down the road. the young boys were repeating what the older boys were saying, it was a religious procession and they were dressed very nicely. they were chanting things i cannot remember but i chimed in something along the lines of 'to get a real life' and the young boys imitated it, which the older boys laughed at. at the back of the line were to quiete older clergy men, dressed as how the pope dressed. a white van drove past me with plants in the back and ran through a cast iron gate and then i remembered that either this was a dream that showed the perspectives of different people, [as if, i watch the van crash through the gate. then i am viewing things from the drivers perspective and he takes it to the next scene. then when he gets to the house i am watching it through the person who is at the house' perspective]. or that i recently had a dream which was that way and that this dream was melding into that one.
i bury the item with the hidden scrolls in it and think of how i know who is going to find it, a young girl that was in a previous dream i had. then i wake up.

i was going to school with my brother and sister and we missed the bus. we went to the supermarket with jerry and mom. they had a huge glass wall that said car saver and when something was about to hit the wall with enough speed it went through the wall, as if the wall was electronic glass. they also sprayed the rugs with what looked like spray paint and would spry it in the air. i wanted to leave while they were waiting for a prescription jerry wrote to himself, so i went outside and was crossing the st when i woke up


#2 i was on a bus/rv with a few other people and we saw wild birds, a cheetah, and other wildlife. the birds were biting us and trying to get into the trailer. the cheetah was outsisde the window and kept jumping up to it and i was concerned it would jump through the window. there were a few people there one was making breakfast the others were walking around outside or taking photos of the animals with me

#1 carson and i are at the beach. she walks off with a friend of hers and i stay behind. talking to this man about things, like the beach, the area, and carson. she comes back and starts applying makeup to her neck, says she got a hickey from making out with her friend. i tell her that thanks for not making out with me ever and instead making out with a random friend at the beach. i decide to leave and go back to where we are staying, as i turn a girl walks up to me and make a gesture or comment about how i am attractive and she is interested in me. i dont react and head back to where we are staying. its strange because carson and i are currently dating but in the dream it was as if we were broken up for some time.

#2
i am pretending to be a bike messenger and i arrive at a building.out front is an unlocked ed bike and i take it. i go into the bathroom and there are sodas in the fridge that look fancy and i decide to steal some. there is a backpack under the desk so i start emptying it out. in my head or down the hall i hear someone saying that the bag has been left there fo rmonths, so i feel less guilty about it. i take the bag and on my way out a woman calls me by name. i do not recognize her but i pretend that i do and we chat for a minute. i got outside and there is a nice looking blue bike. it seems perfect for me and i let ryan check it out. as i watch him it turns into a green car. he does some trick with it as it changes back into a bike an dwhen he hands it to me, its not a fold-up scooter. i tuck it into the straps of my backpack and hop on my red bike. as im riding down the street my front teeeth start to hurt, it feels like they are pushing against the helmet. i take it off and strap it to th ebasket. corey hits a rough patch and flips over his handlebars. we are returning to coolidge st and i am worrid about being seen on a stolen bike. i have a daydream about what i would do if i was seen.

when i wake up my teeth hurt, as if ie been pressing them against each other.

i am at carsons mom house, yet it is a diffferent house. i keep playing the same cd over and over. i find a nail and they tell me that it detects where there is no gravity by pushing itself into the casing around it. i think this is awesome. there is a dog there that i play with.

in my dream i am walking around a town tha ti have dreamed of being in before. there is a flea market on a street that is there everyday, the residents sit outside their houses and sell didfferent things. i see two shirts that have space on them and ask about them, saying i will return tomorrow. i see a very sad woman who works there and try to console her, yet she doesnt feel comforted. after her family comes and comforts her and i am walking home, she hands me a barbell for a piercing and thanks me. i walk hom and on the way see two tornados in the sky. i go into the basement where my brother and mother are. we wait and when the tornadoes get close the ceiling of the basement falls down and nearly crushes my skull. i call jerry who is at a sports game to tell him what happened and ask him what to do next, the connection is broken up and he doesnt offer me any help. i go next door but their ceiling is more caved in than ours. i start piling things up near the door to act as beams and while doing this i see other people in our basement, uttering words in a strange tongue. my mom comes over to me and says they are trying to release something. we run outside and see all these weird creatures roaming around in mud, they have blue heads with tubes on them and are crawling on their bellies, look like alien hyenas. we go to hide under another house and see that my brother has become one. we run next door and everyone has already become one of these strange creatures. i try to protect my mother and i get bitten by one and transform, but i am aware and i start protecting my mother from them. at first i need to fight them but then i start gaining in strength and can just howl at them to get them to go away. i start sending these shockwave blasts out to get many of them away from her at once. i am getting very powerful and am fighting them off and they dont like it. then the tornados end and we change back, saying that the spirit is done protecting us. my mom never gets transformed because i did so well protecting her. but because i am so powerful i do not transform back like everyone else.

in my dream i was arguiing with my mother and she tossed down a stapled stack of papers, which i threw back at her. the corner hit her in the right eye and gave her a papercut. my brother his friend and his father were there and we all got into the car to take her to the hospital. while in the car i was arguing with my brothers friend, who was 13 as well as my brother, and it was very frustrating. my brothers father was driving and after a moment we realized my mother was not in the car. i jumped out and ran back to get her and along the way i ran into marcia [my aunt]. marcia was dressed as a hospice worker and was taking care of older people on gurneys, in what looked like a tree house that was on the ground, or a childrens playground with many wooden half walls and places to jump over and through. she came back with me to get my mother and then ushered her to an area to take care of her. my grandmother was also there. on the way back, seperately from them, there were monsters and ghosts. the ghosts would suck out what looked like the persons ghost form, from a hole in the ground. the monsters were attacking people though not in an overtly violent way and people did not seem scared, just trying to avoid them. one monster had me in its mouth but then let me go. at the end of the dream we all came to my mother whose eye was now a small light blue button and she told me that certain abilities came with it, though did not say which ones.



later that day i had lunch with my aunt who i have had very little contact with in my life and she told me her plans to go to school for hospice care. my dreams seem to often be signs of what is happening in others lives and such.

we were crossing a body of water on a small boat, my brother his father, i and a girl. there were many bubbles in the middle with white water, as if there was liquid nitrogen in it. as we made it to the other side we saw a deserted town with broken down cars and buildings everywhere we looked. my brother was there as well as his father. we were looking around for weapons, vehicles, answers. we saw a few people who were wearing masks and did our best to avoid them. after a while more and more people started to appear, they all said that they woke u in this place and had no idea how they got there. there was one plot of land that was 'normal', a man was on it and ignored us, as if we were on a movie set and were just actors. it resembled a gas station and there were camera crew lights, the man was dressed very proffesionally and I felt that something was amiss, as if I was on the verge of becoming aware that I was dreaming. I walked away and we found a building with cats in it, the cats were talking to us and it was very 'off' feeling. as we stepped over this invisible boundary, necklaces we were wearing and had not noticed until then started to vibrate on my brother and another guest. they said that they heard a voice say something in a riddle, along the lines of 'now you are trapped'. my brother, after looking around the house, wanted to leave as i did. the energy was not right. Bennet [old roommate] was playing guitar and looked sad, said he was not leaving and I got the impression he would stay there until he died, playing a sad song. we tried to pass the invisible boundary and my brother could not, though i could as well as the girl that came with us.

friday night dream.
I was walking with corey and told him that the night before i had a dream in which he was shooting at me, and asked him why he was doing this. i then realized that i did not have this dream and felt a moment of confusion as i couldnt quite grasp that this dream had occured in reality, and not in my dream life.

thursday night dream.

#1, i was walking by a house which had a few of my friends in it. there was a tall, skinny black man who was picking a fight with my friends and his friends started to beat them up. i went to the neighbors looking for help and a large black man came to the door and told me he couldnt help. by the time i went back over to the house my friends were in they had beaten up the black boy. his chest was caved in but he was still breathing and i told them that we were now going to get into trouble. I had a feeling he would be okay and walked out, feeling bad that I was not able to help him or stop the fight and that I had left to get someone else to help.

#2 i was shot at by corey [old friend I havent spoken to in some time] and my brother robert. i kept asking them why they were shooting at me, being very emotional about it, yet they wouldn't answer me/didn't know why. then a gang came into the yard we were standing in with guns and bags of money and chased down carson [gf] and i, we ran through fence after fence to avoid them. the gang ended up getting killed and i walked up to corey and told him he should give me some of the money in the bags for shooting at me. The scene resembled a prison yard.