lucid

AWAKE
DREAM
LUCID DREAM
DREAM SIGN
NOTES

(Probably a lot missing here) I call down the stairs from my room "Where is the _____" and hear my Mom reply "It's in the drawer". I walk to a drawer in my room under my desk (Not there IRL, I think it was the drawer from under the desk in my office.) I open the drawer and lift up two or three large books. Underneath are LOADS of pens. I notice that they are copies of a pen I have 2 of IRL, and I acknowledge in the dream that I don't have this many. Also, I notice that the pens are shorter than I remember, and turn around to compare them with one on my bedside which is there IRL. I notice my bed and the window next to it. I'm assuming I woke up, as I can't remember any more of the dream.

AWAKE
DREAM
LUCID DREAM
DREAM SIGN
NOTES

I've got to say, I didn't actually think this dream meant anything at all at the time. But I was reading the entry in my DJ (My actual DJ that is) and I think it says a little something about myself. I'm not sure about the chronology of the two dreams I had last night, I remembered the other one before I remembered this one, but I feel like I dreamed this first.

I step out of the passenger seat of my dad's car onto the pavement. I don't see who it is dropping me off. The buildings along the pavement looks like the opposite side of the road to where I have my guitar lessons. But I don't cross the road, I turn around and start walking down the street. After walking a few metres or so, I hear someone calling 'Skiddo!' behind me (Skiddo is my nickname at school, it's sort of a variation of my surname.) I turn around and see one of my female friends from school called Chase, who I was briefly very into, calling me as she gets into my dad's car, through the passenger door I left open. I'm a little confused about why she was calling me and then didn't say anything, so I question reality a little. But I shrug it off and turn around. The road I was walking down is suddenly really crowded with DCs. Everytime I try and go around someone, someone else cuts in front of my path. It's almost as if the DCs are deliberately trying to stop me getting to my destination. I'm not sure if I transitioned into another dream or woke up, but that's the last part of that dream I remember.

So, the reason I think this dream is sort of a reflection of myself goes like this:

I was opposite the music shop where I have guitar lessons, but I didn't go in. I think this represents me choosing other things over the one thing I'm really passionate about - music.

The school friend / crush calling me from behind and then not saying anything. I take this to represent outside distractions putting me off my goals by taking up my attention with meaningless things.

Finally, the crowd of DCs trying to stop me walking down the road, and cutting in front of me. Realising that DCs are in fact representations of my own subconscious mind, that meant that I was stopping MYSELF from walking down the road. I think this means that I myself, am stopping myself from achieving my goals. For example, whenever I walked around one DC, another would cut across my new path. This reminds me of me making up new excuses for not meeting potential bandmates, because I was very nervous about meeting new people.

I could be wrong about all of this, but I'm considering it kind of a breakthrough.

AWAKE
DREAMING
LUCID

I'm back in the game, after a month or two of giving up in this whole lucid dreaming thing and focusing on the tangled mess that is my life, I'm giving it another try, this is the first dream I have remembered since April. This is going to sound really wierd unless you look at the map

(I kind of remember that something is missing here)
I am in a castle and it is night. I am standing by the wall because 'we' know the castle is going to be attacked. Then I am suddenly at by the main gate instead, don't know how I got there, waiting for the enemies to attack the gate, a guard starts shouting at me that I'm in the wrong place. I am now at the centre of the caste, again not knowing how I got there, my back is to a wall, the enemies blow a hole in the outer wall and a guard shouts something along the lines of 'back to the keep!' and everyone runs to the large building at the back of the castle. I go in through the door on my right and run down a long corridor with a lot of guards. In the corridor are 2 doors to the left, I go through the first door into a small room, a hobbit looking person follows me in and we are locked in by a guard (presumably to save us from the enemies). Soon after this the door opens by itself to reveal a Ringwraith standing in the doorway, I remember saying something like 'this is getting a little lord of the rings o.O' and may have noticed I was dreaming for a second or two. (some info missing here) Now I am somehow a Ringwraith, I notice I can turn invisible, I am standing just a little further down the corridor from the 2 doors, and a man (who I think may have been that dude from harry potter who can turn into a rat) runs past me (I am invisible) and I stab him in the back, he falls down with his hand on his wound, but I remember him saying some sort of joke on the way down which seemed odd, considering I had just killed him, I sort of questioned reality again. Now I go to the door of the 2nd room, and begin smashing the window of the door, I don't remember if I used my hands or some form of weapon to do this, but I remember that it took several hits to smash it, and that I could hear voices behind the door. Once it had smashed I looked in and saw my friends Alex and Rob from school, I remember waving at them through the broken window and having a conversation with Rob through it. Finally wake up, reach around for my dream journal and forget everything about this dream for approximately 10 minutes, where I remember everything in the shower.

I'm actually really impressed with how well I remember all of this compared to my other dreams I remember, and I think I got extremely close to getting my first lucid twice in the dream, I'm getting there.