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The dream begins with me on the side of SR-312. My mom comes to pick me up, and asks me if I have a ride to the convention I want to go to. I tell her I'll get a ride from Jason (My brother). She tells me that he's gone. I knw what she means by it, but it's very hard for me to accept at first. Then she tells me he committed suicide and I try fighting the sadness from hearing this. I almost break down, but she looks so stoic and I don't want to lose control in front of her when it must be even harder for her. My friend Joey is in Gainsville with Nick. I am a bit annoyed at this, because Nick pisses me off. She drives me to Steak & Shake where I am going to apply. They're doing open interviews and there is a dog nearby who's shadow is acting strange. Next, I am in a house watching a clip of a movie with Edward James Almos in it, getting stabbed and falling over a railing. This reminds me of Battlestar Galactica and then I see Admiral Adama boxing Starbuck and letting her win, so he can resign. He feels he failed his crew, and I think of my brother and wish I had seen a sign. I start crying and then wake up, still crying a while until realizing that it was a dream. I was so certain it actually happened, and upon figuring out that I had just woken from a dream, a large rush of relief acme over me.

Upon falling back to sleep, I am in a dream where I am with a girl I want to be with (In the dream, I've never met her in waking life) and another friend, Jack. We stop at this little souvenir shop where I see a row of kids embroidering some of the dreamcatcher like hanging charms. The girl and I are walking together, debating which ones we'd like in our house (I guess we had a thing, but weren't actually together). She said she wants one of the hanging charms, and I tell her I think their terrible looking, except for the ones that didn't look like child pictures. There were some that looked like Native American designs that I quite fancied, which she then told me were the ones that she meant. We picked one out and she took it to the counter. Then I'm messing around with Jack, and as a practical joke, he rubs a small amount of dog shit on me. I tell him that's fucked up and he laughs. I go to teh bathroom to clean it off and then I wake.

I woke after five hours of sleep and went back to bed using this Lucid Dreaming Binaural MP3 I found. It was pretty incredible what results I found on the first successfull attempt. I fell into a WILD in a way that I had never done before. Usually I just feel my dream body in a scene and open my eyes and it's there. This time, I seriously believed I was still awake. I was a little annoyed that I was and I got up and went to my window and looked out. What added to the feeling was that everything looked just as it did in real life. Usually my dreams have a distinct haze that lets me know I am dreaming. But then I notice that the lights were not working properly. They would change level of brightness and sometimes not even turn on. This reality check kind of destabilized my dream for a moment, but I didn't want to wake, and the sheer will power kept me in the dream for the time being. I walked out in my living room and found the door to the garage. Since I was sure this was a dream I wanted to open the door to another scene. I said that I expect a winter scene outside and opened the door. Instead of finding snow though, and since deep down I knew what was on the other side of the door, I got mixed results. I found on the other side my garage during the winter. It was quite cold and I could see my breath, but no snow. St. Augustine never snows. The garage was very organized unlike it is now, and things were stacked in front of the car entrance. Instead of jumping, I decided to fly outside. So I lifted off of the ground and floated outside and felt the air around me. It seems the flight must have further destabilized the dream for I woke up. Upon waking I found that it wasn't destabilization, it was the intention of the Lucid Dreaming aid I was listening to to wake you up at the end of the ninety minute track. I was astonished to find that it worked so well.