yungdeity

i fall asleep at 12:00

I am still in my bed in the dream everything is the same, the lights are off but i see strange neon type symbols on my ceiling this is when i noticed i was dreaming. so i become fully lucid i step out of bed and put my earphones in to start listening to music. but before i pick a song i hear something so i just stand there and wait till its more clear. Its Crows! a lot of them so i start getting frightened, at this point i jump back in bed because theres never crows by my house especially this late. i cover my ears and head with a pillow but i still hear them. Then all the sudden they started hitting the window! i woke up and nothing was there, no symbols and no birds. i fall back asleep with the tv on and i didn't dream anymore that i really remember that night.

this isn't about an actual lucid dream but, for some odd reason i can't do it anymore. I can't get in a comfortable position at night and go off in a more trance like sleep. This is what is keeping me from doing that. Well, ill lay down and everyone once a week or so ill tell myself, hey i want to dream lucid tonight and dream about stuff/something. So i sit in my bed and try to get comfortable but, i can't sleep in the dark anymore in my room. Its very strange i feel as if I'm being watched. So i always have to turn on my tv, which is a distraction to lucid dreaming. If someone can please help me overcome this fear of someone watching me and being by me then i can do it again. Like i can tell myself hey this thing/fake imagination being can't hurt me and its not really there but i feel like it is and its blocking my way from doing this anymore.