nightmare

October 18, 2011.

Yea, it been a while since I wrote anything.

Anyway I look at a mirror and my eyes were roll all of the way to the back of my skull. I lift my eyelids as high as I can (without using my hands) to see that my eyes were looking to the top of my skull.

Beside being freak out I look at my hands and they seem so real so that reality check failed. Normally I can tell right away if something a dream or not but this one was the rare case where I couldn't. I start panicking thinking I was going brain dead or something.

Damn that mirror...

September 03, 2011

Forgot the last two dreams but funny enough remember the first two.

Dream 1:

I was in my old bedroom which have a bump bed. I notice my remotes were on my dresser I had a little bitching moment and place them in their rightful place. I turn on the TV and it must been late as my brother in bed was complaining. It was a new episode of Futurama about everyone having a clone which in this case was a cat--face clone.

This was a total ripoff of the real episode about the two boxes paradox. Anyway beside Fry being mostly one color and Bender was mostly green it was pretty close to the same.

I was going to bed seeing a monkey under the sheets. After that it got kinda fuzzy.

I only remember the idea of "which bump you slept in could totally effect you later..." for example a fat blond ugly Leela was somehow a choice if she slept on the wrong bump.

Seem like my life would been the same either way but if my bro slept on top then his life greatly improved.

A weird dream that only make sense while you are in it.

Dream 2:

Embarrassing dream that I not even going to write on my private journal.

At one point I start thinking about dreaming in general like I often do in life. Of course I knew this was a dream but I decided to look at my right hand. At that point the dream character disappear and what used to be a building became a dark forest. I flew like I often do when lucid but I saw a man turn into a wolf. Not a werewolf.

If anyone been reading these then you know I don't have any real fears but I HATE being chased. I flew as fast as I could but he was on my tail then to my right. I said "fuck this" and woke up.

So annoying...

I had two other dreams (not fragments) so my recall is coming back.

August 23, 2011

Remote control was in my hand and in real life belong to me. My father in the dream owned it though. I told him that I got it somehow and ssomehow knew he was at the left side of the house. The house itself is my grandmother from my mother side.

I ran to the right side and into the backyard knowing my dad will go through the front door. I had a feeling my plan failed and indeed it did with him standing on the back porch.

I ran and he was able to catch up, I became somewhat lucid, enough so to tell myself to wake up from this dream.

Not really a nightmare but going to label as one...I hate people chasing me.

Side note...I should write these asap...11:33 PM, it almost tomorrow.

Notes:
*Bed around 8:00 PM, my dad (by request) woke me up around 12:00 PM (I don't believe I had a dream) to eat a half of a pizza then back to bed by 12:30. Had the dream then woke up around 4 - 5 AM.
*As stated ate a half of a pizza...Yummy. I heard leftover pizza can do some crazy stuff but this was fresh...Then again my dad is known to add cheese,mushrooms, meat, bacon, etc to his pizzas to make it a true deep dish pizza.

Dream:

Short and simple dream. On GPX+ (Pokemon clicking site) I evolved a Machop into a Machoke where I just notice I have now a total of 4 Machokes in my party. FFFFUUUUUUUU-

That is it...There currently a shiny hunt going on so most of my time is spent on that. So yea...I knew this dream was coming sooner or later. This isn't the first time I dream of a website or even GPX+ in general. Normally I don't get scare during nightmares with demons and such...But reality still scare me sometimes. Marking this as a nightmare though it was more of a FFFFUUUUU- moment then a scary moment.

I am praying to god that I am using this system correctly.

Notes:
*Gone to bed around 1 AM but due to my father not shutting his trap fell asleep around 4 AM. The sound of my dad voice could turn my mood from happy to depressing...The biggest turn off for me EVER. I don't hate my dad though we not the best paring in the world...It is just his voice....
*During this time I think my body fell asleep before my mind.
*Woke up around 5:00 AM
*Was hungry the night before but out of laziness and mood ate nothing.

Dream:

I was dreaming of being in (or just looking at) Maplestory FreeMarket. This was one of the last pictures I looked at that night: http://www.basilmarket.com/show/scre...ts_clean_.html

The area is backwards due to game version (MSEA compare to GMS) which I recall it was the same in my dream.

I was in my dark room and I decided to go to my living room which was also dark as hell. I walk back to my room which the door was open less then halfway. I heard a toy robot (which I didn't see but got an image in my head of what it look like...I just now recall where it came from, it was from Fullmetal Alchemist Brotherhood where Al became depressed) and for some reason it was scaring me. I ran to to living room to turn on the light (lamp) but I notice the robot was going super fast and I was going nowhere for a small house.

[Lucid]
Surrounded by darkness I couldn't care less about the toy and try to go from running to flying (Super Sonic style) but notice that I am waking up so I just woke myself up. I basically told myself "screw it, I will try it next time."

[Awake]
Sleep paralysis kicked in...

All of this time I thought it was just my body being lazy...When I think of paralysis I was thinking of not being able to move no matter how much you try which is somewhat true...But to me...It was more like your body is just too lazy to move.

The window which I can't see out of have a UFO kind of light...I was saying "eat me, eat me" though sleep paralysis wouldn't let me speak.

Here a little note about myself. Eat me is a insult, "kill me", "eat me", basically "have your way with me" but not really sexual though I guess it could be, "possess me" all in one. I am a little suicidal when it come to dreaming (which is funny as in life I wouldn't dare to take risks) and I often couldn't care less.

One dream (not sure if it was recorded or not) I told a demon to "fuck off" while giving it the finger just so the demon to kill me in one fast attack...Yea...

The window didn't have any bright lights when the paralysis wore off.

Now that I know what sleep paralysis truly is now, I now can use it.