Clairity.. Perchance to Dream

[Clairity]

I'm so psyched!! I actually saw and felt my spirit guide on Sunday! Well I got up around 2:30 am, drank 10 swallows of cherry coke (for the caffeine) and lay down on my back listening to a lucid trance CD for about 40 minutes and found that I couldn't relax. I decided to give up which bothered me as it had been about a month since my last true experience. I put my earplugs in and rolled on my right side. I can't tell how much time had elapsed when I felt (more-so heard) vibrations! I hadn't had that sensation since my first two or three LDs. I kept trying to roll out but I couldn't seem to find the strength. I would start to give up but then I'd say "NO..I want OUT!" and the vibrations/ sounds would come back! I finally managed to roll my astral body to my left side but still couldn't seem to separate. Something inside me told me to reach my astral arms outward and say "Please help me". I felt two strong hands on my arms pulling me up and I felt myself separate. I found myself standing and feeling very secure in someone's arms. I said (or thought) "I want to see you" and I don't know whether my eyes opened or I got my vision but I saw looking down at me what I can only believe was my spirit guide. He was about a head taller than me, was very tan, had sandy brown shoulder length hair and hazel eyes. He was looking at me with what I can only describe as "surprise". It was if he was either shocked that he was able to actually pull me out or that I was able to actually see him. I only remember his face, his eyes and his slightly parted lips.. I don't recall seeing his body but I recall clearly the "feel" of his body against mine and his arms around me. He just kept looking at me and me, being the astral weakling that I am, reached up and kissed him... it was very passionate and a bit wetter than I like (I'm not big on swapping spit). ;-} We pulled away from each other and he led me outside where he promptly vanished! Now I'm not totally sure that he was my spirit guide (I had always pictured them as being old wise people or wolves or something) but I had asked to be protected by "pure white light" and for "only those of the pure white light to come near me or to touch me". So it may have been my guide or it might have been just another astral guy trying to score. ;-D I walked along a busy street and ended up in a hotel where I went onto a balcony and saw a pool below. I ran and took a flying leap and dived into the pool.. which was pretty cool! I don't remember how I got out of the water but I found myself back in the hotel. I saw a mirror and at first I was afraid to look in it.. but I did. It was so cool! I was me only BETTER. I had thick reddish brown curly hair down to my waist and was dressed very provocatively. I looked away and looked back and the color of my hair had changed. I had been having back twinges so I decided to go find a doctor to "heal" me. I had done a healing on myself once before when I was astral and had just had surgery on my stomach (remember that) and I have never had pain in my incision since so I decided to see if I couldn't find a good astral back doc. I must have lost my train of thought.. those damn sex impulses.. because the next thing I recall is that I'm holding a "head"... that's right just a "head". I shake the head back and forth like you would a snow globe and each time I do the face changes but I can't quite seem to get it right so I drop the head and leave. Things started to fade and I found myself waking up. I checked my watch and it was 4:30am. .