Hi there, I visited this site yesterday for the first time and oddly enough I had my first lucid dream last night. I've always had vivid meaningful dreams but I didn't think I would be able to do this so soon.

My boyfriend who I was with for 4 years and who I was to spend the rest of my life with died by suicide 2 years ago in our bathroom.

I don't get to dream of him much but last night I did. There was alot to the dream but I'll exlplain the part I had trouble with, I remember following Johnny and another girl walking through the most painful stickerbushes-they were gouging (I felt excruciating pain) . Once on the road I was trying to catch up with them, I was saying "Johnny come here where are you going"? It suddenly dawned on me that Johnny died and it must be a lucid dream( I remember thinking don't wake up). When I realized I could take control of the situation, the first thing I thought of was I'm gonna make him turn around and come back to me-I'm gonna have sex with him (I'm not a perv and I hope this is not offensive). Then for a split second I remember kind of hoping that he didn't turn into something scary. Well he turned around and sure enough it wasn't his face-there was some kind of hood over his head and his face was all blackened and very scary. I thought wake up wake up! The problem was that I woke up in another dream. The only lucid part of my dream was the point that I realized Johnny was dead until my false wake up when I was tricked into thinking I wasn't dreaming. I woke up a few times during that dream but when I went back to sleep, It continued.

I didn't get to write it all down immediately because my weenie dog had a seizure right when I finally got up. Does anyone else have false wake ups to trick you out of having a lucid dream?