always in such a hurry

[raffifish]

To get away from where I am in dreams. I don't remember many details, except it was dark (not the first time it was dark in a pre-lucid dream) and I was feeling anxious for some reason. It's not the first time I've become lucid after first feeling anxious. If I don't like a situation and want to escape it, I want it to be a dream. So I did an RC, the fingers on my right hand came out 6 and that's how I knew. Then, when I realized I was lucid, I was so eager to use it before waking up that I started telling myself: Fly! Fly over the city! But reading some dream control tutorials which I've done this morning I now know that's not the best way to start flying. You have to jump and envision wings and that sort of thing. Just telling yourself won't do. Needless to say I woke up shortly after, having flied nowhere. It's like fear/panic is one of my dream signs now. I rarely RC when I'm content in a dream, because when I'm content why would I want to escape? Hopefully this is all normal 'though and that there is still hope for me. I've been dream recalling a lot the past week, even small insignificant dreams and dreams that I feel uncomfortable recalling because of people they feature. From now on it is all going in my journal. And I have to make my RC more routine, and less sporadic. Not do it just when I see something that could be a dream sign, but also when things are perfectly normal. Every time I open the fridge I should ask myself if I'm dreaming because I do often look in the fridge in my dreams anyway. And everytime I'm on youtube, because I youtube a lot in my dreams too. Aren't I interesting.

[Nelzi]

I would say don't worry about it. I think its common that your excitement actually gets in the way of doing what you would like to, at least I remember that for my part. I even woke up many times due to overexcitement. Just relax and it will pass, you don't have to do everything at once in the first experiences. You say you read about dream control, thats great, because you show yourself that you have the intention to improve on this. I am sure you will get good at this very soon. Also, I think that fear/panic is a nice (well, at least beneficial) dream sign, because it forces your attention to focus, i.e. more awareness. Thats why nightmares often are so vivid. Aren't I interesting. Yes! Each one of us is a unique manifestation of life. You are one of the most interesting objects this universe has ever come up with!

[Sageous]

Then, when I realized I was lucid, I was so eager to use it before waking up that I started telling myself: Fly! Fly over the city! But reading some dream control tutorials which I've done this morning I now know that's not the best way to start flying. You have to jump and envision wings and that sort of thing. Just telling yourself won't do. Needless to say I woke up shortly after, having flied nowhere. For what its worth, I have lucidly flown thousands of times without ever, even once, sprouting wings or jumping first. Tutorials are fine things, but they are by no means the law. Your inability to fly was probably more related to your own experience, expectations, and level of self-awareness, and had nothing to do with your lack of dream feathers. Give yourself some time to build experience and confidence, and perhaps think about not being anxious come dreamtime during the day. Before you know it you will be flying just fine, and maybe will be a little less interested in (or anxious about) flying away from your dream scene in the first place.

[lucidmats]

It's like fear/panic is one of my dream signs now. I rarely RC when I'm content in a dream, because when I'm content why would I want to escape? Thats a big dream sign of mine too! For example: I walk through a forest, a dog approaches me and bites me in my arm. Probably in addition to the no-pain factor and probably several others, mostly the fear of the dog accompanied by the hopelessness of the situation made me hope that this is a dream and so it was! Work on your Self-Awareness and memory (read through Sageous posts, the guy above me) and you should be spotting these and hopefully other dream signs also, soon! Good Luck!