one time i had a dream i was lost in a weird shopping mall like place (didn't look like it tho) and i was there with my mom and aunt, and i suddenly just lost them, and couldn't find out where they were. (sometimes when im dreaming, and i lose someone, i go to the place they were, but it doesn't even exist anymore.) but at one point, i just started saying "i'm dreaming, i'm dreaming" repeatedly. then, i really started to beleive it, but when i really got into it, it was kind of like i blacked out, but i'm still concious, and i feel a crushing weight, like a depressing weight, and i woke up, kinda weirded out. and another time when i was little, we had kittens in my mom and dad's closet, and i went to see them, but where the would be, there was a box. i realized i was dreaming, but i got so excited i woke up. then when i was smaller i had a really weird dream where everyone i knew was a ghost. at one point, my freind died, and i thought "no, this is a dream" and i decided i really didn't like that dream, so i woke myself up. (to this day, i still dont know how. i just shut my eyes tight, and opened them to the real world.) that was the only LD i have ever sustained, ever. i want to know, what was that black weight? and how can i keep a dream going?