Hi,

Im new to this site and I hope its ok to post here rather than the newbie section.

I have had this experience and Im not sure how to describe it.
It prompted me to come online and look it up and its brought me here.
Im been reading about how people want to learn to control dreams and have lucid dreams and Ive realised this is what Ive been having on my own for a while now.

I guess this is something many people try for but for me this is the way things have been for a while.....

In my dreams if often control things and think to myself 'its ok. its just a dream' I have stuffed my face with chocolate and had 'naughty' dreams and done various things just because i know i can get away with it cos its not real, its only a dream.

Tonight the most scary thing happened. Apart from the 1st part of the dream being odd....I went crazy at a collegue for annoying me. I said its ok to do cos its only a dream and Id never get to shout at him in real life so do it now while dreaming, cos even in real life this guy annoys me.

Anyway in the 2nd part of the dream my husband was there and I asked if I was dreaming and he said I wasnt. Things were weird, the kitchen was fully of party food and drink and the living room was full of people including my cousin who moved abroad last year. My husband started tickling me and poking me and shaking me about like I was a little doll. I was screaming and kicking and shouting. Then it stopped and he said it was ok, I was awake. I screamed I wasnt cos the was an x mas tree and presants in the living room and its not x mas. I ripped open the gifts and they were chocolates and teddies and then he grabbed me again, tickling me and shaking me like a doll.

Then I was in bed, my own bed. Exactly the same room duvet and everything. Same side of bed I sleep on. My husband was laid next to me and I asked him if it was ok. He closed his eyes and said it was and to go back to sleep. Then his eyes jumped open and he grabbed me again shaking me like a little doll as before. I was so scared cos I believed I was awake. This happened a few more times cos often in my dream I might have a bad thing happen or be in a bad place and I will tell myself 'its just a dream, wake up' Wether or not I do wake up I dont know but it works and gets me out of the bad place but this time that was not working and then some people told me I was trapped in a dream world.

I did wake up eventually and my husband went to put his arm round me and asked me is I was ok. I couldnt move or say anything for about 10 seconds but I was scared, then I sat up and started sobbing. I was still scared from my dream of being trapped in a dream.

I know Ive written tons and Im not sure exactly what I expect out of this. Id like someone to reply but I dont know what I expect you to say.

Id never heard of lucid dreaming or dream control before tonight.
My dreams are nearly always lucid, with people from work in them, friends and family, old high school friends.

Would like to hear from anyone......