Thread: Help please please someone <3

Recently I've been feeling unwell, sick almost everyday, really tired all the time, needing to pee loads and i'm just generaly out of character for my usuall bubbly, full of energy self.

Friday Night I had a dream, this dream was the first time in the 3 years since my Nan passed away that she has ever been in my dreams. I cannot remember the first part of the dream. From where I can remember I was at my aunties house with My aunt and my Nan and some random kitten that everyone seemed to be wary of, I remember it ripping someone's nose off but there was no blood, the nose just stretched off like rubber. Everyone else was wary of it as was I but I seemed to have it in my head that I either needed to kill it or help it. I remember being sick in my dream and when I came out of the tolilet I was wearing all red. My Nan then commented saying ' Wearing red won't fool me, now why are you ill, why are you so sick' as she said this I felt nervous like I had done something wrong. She then said 'Maybe you need to go to the doctors and see what's going on with your body'.. then I woke up. I really don't understand this dream. It's like she has come into my dream to tell me to go to the doctors but she sounded more disapointed than concerned. We were very close when she was alive, towards the end a huge family break up ment I couldn't always see her as much as I would have Liked to while she was ill. The last time I saw her alive she promised she would always be there for me and always be proud. I've begged and begged for years for something to happen just to know she is somewhere with me. This is the first time.
Someone please help me understand all this. It confuses me that it's been all this time and I seemed to have disapointed her. I'm 18. I'm iabect with Low blood sugar but how I'm feeling is nothing like that at all. I live on my own in a Hostel because I don't get on with my parents very well since they seperated. Please someone can you tell me was that my Nan getting through to me or just a dream xx