Thread: Large red spider, shrinking home, and tiny lockers...

This is intriguing. I used to have a somewhat similar recurring nightmare like this when I was young. I was perhaps between the ages of 5 and 7... Only, rather then spiders, the object of terror in mine were red snakes. Oddly enough, I would also be, at some point, riding in the car with my mother, who would eventually turn into a snake herself. Then I would run to my house, which would be much smaller than it could be, and find myself trapped on the roof of it, surrounded by a sea of red snakes, as the whole town, or maybe the whole world seemed to have become them. Honestly, I never weened an explanation from it. I would chalk it down to being a child.

As for you... It seems like perhaps you're confused about your relationship with your mother. Maybe deep down, you feel guilty about putting that distance between you. When you get older, and your mother ages on, you tend to realize exactly how much you value your relationship with your mother, despite how irritating she can be. Maybe you get that, somewhere in the back of your mind. The spider could be many things. Repressed fears, anxiety, dread.... you name it.

As for the woman and her house... It's possible that this could be a manifestation of your anxiety over getting the job, or maybe some secret dread of what your life could become if you get the permanent position. Though, more likely than not, it's a tempestuous medley of all of the emotions you have over it. Each room, including its state, (messy, rarely slept in, ect), could even represent a particular emotional response you have over it.

If there's no romance in your relationship, maybe your subconscious is yearning for more than this... increasingly platonic boyfriend, who, despite becoming jealous of other men, doesn't offer you what you need from him. You should try talking to him, in a positive setting, non-confrontational, since that may just make him nervous. Maybe over an activity you both enjoy, just gently breech the subject. Take care not to sound upset, hurt, or frustrated, as he may jump to an unfavorable conclusion and assume the more aggressive stance, assuming that you're angry with him. Keep your tone upbeat, make it obvious that you enjoy the time you're spending with him, and, if he doesn't want to get into it at that moment, don't be afraid to be passive, and let him talk when he's ready. Guy's just do NOT like to be pressured into talking. Why? Not sure. But if you push, he will either run, or push right back. Good luck.