Silenced in a Dark Room

[AshleyTB]

I had a dream where I'm sitting in a completely dark room on what feels like a bed. I hear some heavy breathing and odd noises coming from the other side of the room, so I don't say anything at first. I get more and more scared of what that noise might be, so I finally open my mouth to say something. Right when I do, and incredibly bright spotlight comes on. It blinds me at first, but when my eyes finally adjust, I can see the spotlight is illuminating a bed, where my boyfriend and a girl who is very beautiful are having sex. I am too stunned to do anything for a moment, and they can't see me, because I'm still in the dark portion of the room. I start to get angry watching them, but right as I'm about to make myself known and stop them, someone grabs me from behind. I never see who it is because it is too dark where I am, but he begins to tie my down to the bed that I've been sitting on. I start to scream, but I can't make any noise. Even my struggling against him is somehow silenced. Although he never actually "rapes" me in the dream, I keep attempting to yell to my boyfriend to help as he continues to make love to another woman, while this person who I can't see continues to touch me innapropriately. This goes on for quite a while. I start to cry harder and harder as I get more and more uncomfortable, and as I hear my boyfriend start telling the woman he's now with that he's in love with her. The man who is touching me won't stop, but I am almost too saddened by what's going on on the other side of the room to notice anymore. I am completely crushed, and feel completely helpless. When I woke up I was gasping for breath and had broken out in a cold sweat. For the record, my boyfriend has never cheated on me, but this doesn't keep me from believing that he might leave me. I feel often inadequate, although he has never actually indicated to me that I might be, and reassures me of the contrary whenever I express these feelings to him. I am constantly questioning the depth of his emotions toward me, knowing that I feel very strongly about him (we had been very close friends for a long time before we started dating, and I had always been at least a little in love with him. His feelings only developed for me right before we started dating, and after he had once expressed to me that he wanted to be with my best friend, which I think has a lot to do with my attitude). We are both twenty-two, and have been dating for about five months. If anyone could help me with this, I would be SO GRATEFUL. It was a really disturbing dream, and I would like to have this resolved!

[AmyAnn]

I think you're in a danger zone, he should not be taken at face value. You're running out of time fast, you need to distance yourself from the boy, quickly. Construct a strong Anticathexis against him.