So, the dream:
Well this is actually a recurring dream and day dream (I'll completely zone out in the middle of the day). But I always dream that I have a 3-4 yr old son. I'm almost 21 and still have a bit of schooling, but for the past couple of months, I have been dreaming about having a son. I don't believe I'm necessarily ready for children, but I end up thinking of how, if I had a child, I could make my room at school kid-friendly or what kind of changes my life would have to make, then I'll come to and be thinking "WTF!". And to me it's not "Everything's rainbows and unicorns". I'm not just thinking of the happy, but the hardships that would come with having a child while still in school. And sometimes it feels so real cause for example, I dreamt that my family and I were visiting my brother at college and my son was there with us. I would take him to the store and watch television with him or my parents or brother would play with or feed him or hold him. I'll be standing there and he's trying to climb on me, or holding my leg or I'll be feeding him or holding him when he's sleeping. Normal stuff kids do. He's fair skinned with a head full of curly hair and I can see his face, which sure enough is a blend of mine and my crush's face. Clear as frickin day. We're always bonding or doing something fun when I'm dreaming of him. Sometimes I dream that we're just living life in our NY apartment. In the dreams I'm so happy that I have him and he's basically my shadow and couldn't imagine life without him and surprisingly my family is just as happy if not more to have him there as well.
The way my dream 'son' even came about was because his father and I slept together at school (in one of the secluded areas in the building; so random, I know) and later I told him I was pregnant and that was the end of it. Our major is pretty tough, so I felt that I would be holding him back in a way. Then I can remember having my son, then it fast forwarding to him at 3-4 yrs old. My 'son's' father is also in other dreams and he keeps wanting us to get together but for some reason I don't know. I know it's not like he's a deadbeat (it's implied that he helps me). [This too was all a dream; I'm surprised I can recall this.]
About me: As said before I'm almost 21 and a 3rd year in college. My parents were married before they had us [my brother and I] and also had us later in life. My mom would make it a habit of letting me know that if I were to get pregnant that she and my dad would be disappointed but they could deal. And on top of everything else, I'm still a virgin. 
I'm just trying to see if this dream is as obvious as it seems or if there's more to it. Please let me know what you think. Thanks.
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