Hi guys,

Usually I don't remember a lot of dreams, unless I really 'want to dream & remember it'. However, these times I've had a lot of strange dreams - like the dreams where you wake up with a feeling of uneasiness that doesn't pass for the whole day. This dream is not a recursive dream, I don’t think I’ve had it before, but I have A LOT of dreams where I have the same emotions/feelings I have in this dream.
So, I decided maybe it's a good idea to ask about the meaning of it... here it is, if you've the patience to read, I think feel like some interpretations would really help me. Here I basically only copy what I wrote this morning when trying to remember the dream.


I dreamt about Norway. First, I was there at "the University", it was autumn, and quickly made friends of 3 German guys whose names I can't remember. We went into a casino and on a trip to somewhere. We had lots of fun (1)
[time gap] Then, I remember having being invited at a girl's (2) place. However, she wasn't here, and I didn't see her. I couldn't remember any word in Norwegian, so we spoke English, and after this I dreamt everything "in English". It was a big, old, and very beautiful house with dark wood. I remember specifically washing my hands in the bathroom which was of great luxury, everything in dark wood, possibly candles; windows with possibly snow outsides. I had an impression of well-being, that things were going well.
[time gap] Then I was in France, at my University. I was standing in the reception, they asked me to come by phone. There was one secretary and a woman, obviously from the Norwegian University, waiting for me. She was reading my marks or something with obvious skepticism. The secretary was really unfriendly too, and wanted to hand her out a paper which I felt wasn’t positive about me at all or something alike (3). The woman then asked me to follow her. I don’t know where we went, but then we were in a house which was very messy, with papers and non-washed dishes like everywhere. We sat at the kitchen table (actually I remember it was very much like my parent’s house, architecture-wise), and wanted to eat something before discussing. (4) I was really nervous. She was very polite and somehow she set the table. I felt very foolish and awkward. I brought dishes too but she had already thought about it. She was waiting for me quite a long time because of this. Then, I sat in front of her. I didn’t like her the slightest, and was very awkward in her company. The table really was a mess. She started to ask questions as why I wanted to go to Norway, what interested me in studying at “the University” there, what topics specifically I wanted to study etc. The first questions went well for me, I’ve been prepared for them and had good and logical arguments, but then somehow I always interrupted her when she was talking. I knew it was very rude, but somehow it happened nevertheless. Also, sometimes she almost whispered and I couldn’t understand any of it. (5)
At some point she told me she’d made up her mind: from the start one, I didn’t have good enough marks, and now that she’d had a talk with me everything confirmed her idea that she didn’t want to have me at this University. I wasn’t sure if it was really what she thought or some kind of test yet again. Thus I tried to convince her, but after a while I felt that it was very probably totally useless.

[it’s not the very end, but I feel uneasy putting it here; maybe per pm, if I get a good answer…]

Okay, here are some personal details / my thoughts about all this:
I’m a (guy) student in real life. Fact is, next year I really want to go to Norway, and I’ve applied for a University there. I’m waiting for their answer now.

(1) I never went to casinos, nor play money games or anything the like. I always forget names.
(2) the girl: to make it very short, I haven’t seen her in almost a year but still love her. I don’t know at all if she does reciprocate my feelings. She’s been studying at “the University”, and if I get there next year, we could see one another, but there are a lot of uncertainties. (the decision to go to Norway I made before meeting this girl)
This part of the dream lasted longer actually, but I can’t remember it well at all. However, usually I never dream “in English”.
(3) about the Norwegian University : recently I’ve seen that for next year they have only 20 places, which very probably also means around 20 places this year. Plus they have a description like “you need a lot of A-grades etc…”. The secretary here matches what I think about my school and people of my country in general: namely ppl who don’t really help, who prioritize the sake of the University over the happiness of their students.
(4) My parent’s house wasn’t really messy at any time. However, sometimes my apartment is, and I hate it, I feel like if it’s too messy I get really lazy and it soon becomes a vicious circle.
(5) I somewhere read that it is unacceptably rude to interrupt people in Norway. I never do it because I agree to this, however in my country it isn’t uncommon.
But there’s something more to this I think; usually for me, things go well, or at least better, for me than for others at the start of things (for example, subjects in school, oral exams but really a lot of things). However, very often if at some point if something goes wrong, after this it is nearly impossible for me to recover, and to make things go well again. Sometimes I also just give up if things have been going from bad to worse in a while. This is what happens here.


So basically I’m really at a crossroads in my life; and I’m in an everything-or-nothing situation.
The dream reflects this very probably, as well as my lack of self-confidence.

Is there more to it however? What do you think about all this?


Thanks for reading this.


Avalon