Okay so a little about me , I have always been able to see my dreams and recall them when i awake. I have add and adhd and its been a struggle all my life dealing with dreams or sleeping. I cannot watch horror movies and anything negative for this reason anymore even though i used to like watching them. I have been very aware of my body and its sensations since i was little also, however I took a path of atheism after most of my questions i have had about spirituality has yet to be answered. However Ive been literally pulled into the directions i have been seeking all my life but i have been suffering depression and fear problems from a lack of success in my life ( things used to be super simple almost handed to me if you will ) My astrology is eastern Fire tiger western Scorpio ) Please only look at my astrology with happiness and love as it affects your whole being when someone looks at it negatively


Lately I have been seeing great successes and profound changes in my spiritual life. I have come across so many sources and i have easily assimilated them into my life like a sponge most would call this new age however it feels natural as i have been experiencing these aspects for a long time now. I can see the fuzz in the air, im aware of other peoples feelings before they talk to me (( feel their energy if you will) i tend to avoid negative situations)) Can feel vibrations in my body easily and can move them around by focusing my awareness. Ive learned to connect to my subconscious through training programs like zox pro and others like it. I can pretty much remember every single movie I have watched in pretty good detail however i never remember their names... i know the events and whats said and what unfolds with great detail. I do this well with life situations and my dreams.

Okay the deep stuff ... it said to list everything that may seem important so here it goes.

I have been intrigued by fractals as they are in everything in nature and have been wondering/asking questions about reality for a very long time since i could easily see my dreams. I have been very aware of the (something else) aspect of life that no one has been talking about except churches.
It was only recently that I have found several sources that really has explained this in a eye popping way that made me stand up with amazement that even came close to explaining my ideas thoughts feelings and questions on reality


First source was spirit science on youtube, Then came thrive movement, In fact if anyone who wishes to answer my question it would be wise to look into my youtub's feed activity to see what i have watched and added to favorites.

With each day that i focused my intentions on these videos. I found more and more and more sources and ideas to find new information realizations and understandings that it has literally engulfed me with such rapid succession its scary! but fun!

Ive been on a quest for enlightenment and I have come to realize many truths about myself during this exploration. I have found problems to be a manifestation of myself and judgments and reactions to them to be my ego not wanting to believe them to be true about myself. I have been literally ripping open my perceptions on my thoughts and reality around me one by one. I have been dealing with a lot of fear lately and its hard to let go of these feelings. Its hard to accept them, and even harder to be brave against them.

I have been doing mediation quite a bit lately and have been asking what is my calling what am i here for, you know those hard to figure out life questions... and I have been having a lot of dreams about ice cream ( which is supposedly a good thing..) However I dont really want material possessions as much anymore, it feels ancillary to me now instead of something i want its more or less just an object with a function now nothing to connect a feeling or an association with anymore...

I have been able to have lucid dreams for a long time without even knowing they were lucid dreams until i came across some sources on the internet such as astral dynamics and various other places. I thought every once could do it (but i was always amazed when i asked people about it they said they couldn't remember their dreams or that it jumps around too much to make sense of it... ) I was always confused by this.

Silly thing is... I just thought it was my hyper imagination taking place at night so i could have a playground so to speak when im asleep. I didn't even start looking into what they meant untill a month or so ago. Now im quiet amazed how accurate the dream dictionaries are and it has speed up my growth considerably.
I am now coming here to find out a meaning of a dream that i cannot understand very well.

My partners mom (in her 80's) her husband just passed a month ago. had a dream very very eerily similar to mine recently and it has caused some alarm for me. She dreamt about a African Americans head ( no body) and that she was handed a contract to sign , her mom ( who is passed long ago) said this dose not pertain to her and slapped it out of her hand and told her not to sign this contract. she then woke up and was very drained and very tired after the experience.

So this has all lead to this.

My dream centered around a nice day I was content and easy going the whole day much like any normal Saturday. I decided to get into the car with my partner ( tiffany / transgender) and we were driving down a road very close to home I noticed all the normal buildings that exist in reality and it was nice and warm as the sun was giving off a nice heat through the window. I got a phone call from my partners nephew ( 18 yrs) I picked up and he was telling me about him wanting to come over to smoke pot and that he bought a lot of it, he then went to explain that its nice kush and its bright green lots of hairs. I felt perturbed that he would even tell me about this but didnt let him know this I just said thats nice so where are you.. Suddenly we passed him in the car he was on the sidewalk talking on his cell phone.. ( it happened very slow and very fast at the same time Much like when you stair at a telephone pole as it passes it stays in sight for a long time and passes fastly as it reaches your side ) I said Oh your right there we're about to pass he saw and laughed and wanted us to turn around to pick him up.

Tiff said lets get some ice cream right here at this place. It was less than a minute walk for brandon to come and get to us. I told him meet us in the parking lot and we'll get some ice cream. I waited and he showed up. Tiff asked if i could go in and pay for her. I said sure no prob, Tiff wanted a banana split and me and brandon went inside.. it was more like a theater reception area where you get drinks and popcorn at big open space with stuff on walls, with a ice cream stand in the middle of the place everything was pretty much dark and dim in this place and i didn't really notice any thing within this area except the ice cream stand.

There was one man (african american) inside this tiny stand ( very slender man very calm had a thin oval shaped face) mostly enough room for 2 people or 3 at most it seemed very tight in the space. The counter was all the way up by my neck i even made a joke about it. I asked for a large banana split. He pulled out those paper cups that you get sundays in and loaded it up, I then asked for cookie dough ice cream. He then got the same cup and used this slushy machine and poured the slush into the cup and set it on the counter i looked at it and then looked at the machine and then at the guy, he was smiling .. being nice i said calmly.. this isnt what i asked for.. I wanted ice cream and this is slushy mix... on the machine it said ice cream soup... I didnt know what to say next when i saw that because i was going to point out the machine in the back ground and it caught me off guard that it said soup... i felt confused and i was starting to loose coherence of my dream. I popped behind the counter all of a sudden and then popped back on the other side... I was starting to loose my ability to stay observant. He asked me would you like to help me out to find your ice cream.. so i said sure I instantly was on the other side of the counter and had a ice cream scoop in my hand I grabbed the cup scooped cookie dough ( my favorite ) three scoops medium to small i didn't want to seem greedy. he thanked me and poof back on the other side. He then handed me a contract. I looked at it and said what is this? I was confused why i needed a contract.

I tried to read it and it looked like gibberish i suddenly remembered my partner telling me about her moms dream after i saw that my name was misspelled on the piece of paper. I suddenly became frustrated and questioned the guy... " Wait a second... Why Do I need this contract? " i proclaimed. He diddnt answer. I asked again.. What is this for? What are you trying to extort from me, I know im dreaming so what do you want from me? He said its an affidavit.. I was confused ( didnt know what it meant ) I asked an affidavit for what? he didnt answer. I asked again you need to tell me what this is for. He then said, its for us so we can do... .." To Do what? First i shouldn't need a contract to sign when buying ice cream".. I looked over and it was already beginning to slowly melt and brandon looked confused as to what was going on only shrugging. Then the guy ended up by a pole in the building talking to a girl ( she was about 4 ft in height had on something white tiny girl voice) she said he needs to sign this or its not going to work..

I felt angry that they were conspiring without me. He then asked me to sign it. You need to sign this (said in a somewhat stern voice) I looked at it again to try and read what it said. I couldn't make out anything except. I do here proclaim and assure that this is true, withstanding and agree to the following ( bunch of gibberish for the body of text) i briiiin ket ful ehn ( bryan keith fullen is my name ) acknowledge this to be true and agree Signature __________

I asked again what does this mean and what is this for. He simply frowned at me and said Sign it please. I folded this piece of paper into quarters and refused. I said no I dont think this is right. Your asking me to sign a contract without telling me why or what it is other than its an affidavit and some girl over there is telling you to make me sign it . Im leaving. I paid for the ice cream and said sorry to Brandon for the experience and said we'll go somewhere else to get you some ice cream. we hurriedly walked out of the place all the wile the guy was just standing there staring at us leaving the place no expression just stared..

It seemed very bright leaving the theater like reception area much like in real life when you leave the theater its bright and blinding. I squinted and saw tiffany was upset that we were taking a very long time( i was thinking to myself Crap...must had been a long time in there) to get ice cream giving me the leer and the shoulder hand suggestion of what the hell (where you put both hands up by your shoulders palms up) I got in the car with Brandon and i woke up sweating.

Any interpretations would be nice. I looked up contracts in dream dictionary but it doesn't seem to apply to this. Im wondering if it has any connection to my spiritual training and or to my partners moms dream. very similar connections. Thanks for the help.